It was a fast celebration yesterday. Made my way to meet my dear Ewanz. I know I did mentioned that I'm unable to celebrate. But, i wasn't expecting a celebration. Initially was to go to the green provider with him.

Got a free umbrella after my dear Ewanz kept bugging them if there's free gift for my birthday.

Then, he brought me to Swensen. Had our dinner and he ordered a birthday ice cream.


Shared with him and we were out of the restaurant within 45 minutes and making our way home. And of course, Abah ain't happy (-_-")

And once again, to those who wished me yesterday, a big thank you.

It's a tiring day yesterday at work. And i just had to take a nap at the out-of-bounds lab for about 15 mins or so. But before that, I found my colleague napping at the other lab, to which he feel kind of embarassed till he didn't lift up his face.

March holiday passed by soo fast =/

And I guess not much things have been done *sigh*

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The day has finally arrived.


Birthdays should make one happy right? But for me, on the eve of my birthday, just like 2 hours before the strike of midnight, it brought me tears.

I was out with dear Ewanz to settle his internet connection. Trying to see which other service provider is good besides the one he used. We almost signed up for the red provider but apparently, we got to know that we need to pay more if we used the 50Gb that they give for free. And 2 years using the green provider seems like long. But, even if the dongle for the green provider is good, why not, right?

Anyway, reached home about 10.10pm and Abah ain't happy. Both of us can't talk to each other. For me, it seems that he's raising his voice and his face reaction shows an angry face. But for him, he's just talking to me nicely.

Eventhough I know I've to be at work early the next working day, if I don't mind staying out late, for me personally, I don't see why he should make a big fuss about it. I already told that to Mama when I was jobless.

He's angry because I smsed Mama and not calling her to inform that I'm going out. Again, this seem as a big fuss to him. I just don't get it.

He even commented its good that I'm staying at home on Saturday and not going out. And he said "Engkau, lepas abis keja, balik. Jangan nak merambu keluar. Takde faedah. Dulu tiap-tiap hari Sabtu kau keluar balik sampai malam-malam buta".

And from my point of view, it seems like I can't bloody go out at all. I'm already 24. WTF does he want from me??

Even when I mentioned I'm 24, he will say "Da besar. Gaji besar jadi nak lagak??"

When I mentioned that I'm meeting a friend, his reaction? "Nak kena jumpa?? Tak boleh bebual pat telefon??"

But when I'm using the phone, he will say "Tak abis-abis songeh pat phone sampai bill melambung??"

And if I stay at home, Mama will say "Engkau lebih baik keluar dari duduk pat rumah. Menyemak aje tak buat pape." (eventhough I did do housework earlier)

And when I mentioned that I went out to celebrate birthday, he seemed to raise his voice when he said "Birthday birthday. Tak payah celebrate birthday! Buat doa selamat sudah!"

They never celebrate my birthdayor even a doa selamat since I was primary school nor is there a birthday celebration organised by them.

My siblings especially Kakak asked me why I'm soo defensive? Why shouldn't I be? I have my rights to have contacts with friends and to go out to have human bonding or sociallising. And I don't think its wrong of me to think that I should have my rights to socialise.

Everything seems soo wrong. It makes me feel soo inhuman.

And I'm suppose to have double celebration as I'm also born in Rabiul Awal. Oh well.

Thank you to those who have wished me.

And I would like to wish my kuzin Hidayah and kuzin Lin a happy belated birthday which falls on 16th March; to Zakiah & Faith(both are my primary school friends), a happy belated birthday which falls on 14th March; to Zeera, happy belated birthday whose birthday falls on 18th March and to whoever else I missed, a happy birthday especially to March babies.

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Firstly,


I’m sorry for unable to celebrate your birthday. We shall do that once I’ve landed myself a job, aite?

But, I’m happy she’s enjoying her birthday with her loved ones from all the treats and gifts she had received.

And I’m itching to meet my babe!

Happy Birthday, babe from both Ewanz & me =)

………..

Anyway, one of the agencies called me and asked if I’m still interested in being in the same position like my old job. It was stressful for me as she only gave me like 40 minutes to consider and that I would be directly employed by the school if I were to accept and went for the interview. But the name of the schools made me felt so scared that all I could think of is that they have high expectation.

Something like what I’ve encountered from my client. Exactly the same. Except, the employer is the school. I still have trauma in teaching teens age 13 to 17 years. And that school is an all boys school.

And one of my friend told me it’s unwise as they might ask you to do more than your jobscope, well basically like what I’ve encountered. Mama told me that if I felt 50% sure and feeling pressurized, I shouldn’t be accepting the job. Like what others always said, you have to like the job, not the other way round.

Anyway, I’m currently surveying online shopping. Both my friend and I might start one soon. Seems like a bit too ambitious since there are a lot of possibilities on what to start on. And I’m going to talk to my aunt if she’s interested in receiving orders for her cakes that she make. It’s just planning now, not yet the real thing. But, if it becomes a reality, at least, that will be the side income.

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I'm getting lazier and much more lazier to update nowadays xD

Lots of things I should blog on but I guess I cant find the time to do so.

Firstly, I would like to wish Lia a happy belated birthday.

I wished her a day later on 16th Jun. Mistook last Monday as 15th Jun. I know she must be upset thinking that I've forgotten her birthday and she might have thought I might be forgetting about everyone except Ewanz.

Anyway, may you achieve the happiness that you're looking for and wish you all the best in whatever you do.

Oh well.

Secondly,
as soon as I come back from leave, I was dead busy. Classes everyday till Thursday. And I found myself getting restless and sleepy in the afternoon. Can you imagine coming back from annual leave and finding 16 emails waiting for your actions? (-_-")

I can't even do them on time within short period of notice.

How I wish school holidays are still on (T_T) I still wanna go on break. I have like a week more to take.

But first, settle their stuff before I go on leave again. And finding a new job while I'm on leave. I must and I will find a better one, Insya Allah.

Caught up with my babe Shasha last Monday for dinner. For some reason, I was full on that day as I had late lunch. And met up with Ewanz from Wed to Friday. Woohoo~! Thursday was to hand him my thumbdrive after I attended "discussion" by my company while Friday, accompanied him to Sim Lim to ask about his handphone. But apparently, the person who attend to us was soo rude.

She, Amanda, kept on saying "We will attend to you when you bring your receipt" when Ewanz was asking how to insert in games into his handphone. For goodness sake, you can tell us politely, not brushing us off! That's how typical Chena people. Bahh.. May your shop suffer losses and become bankrupt for being rude to customers.

Fetched Cik Ros & her hubby from the airport about noon on Saturday with Mama. Ewanz had some emcee to do that day to help out his friend. Materialistic cousin was with her boyfriend. She tried to strike some conversation with me thou I dont really like to talk to her. I tend to just keep mum to myself, whenever she's around.

Oh, definitely she's a copycat. She uses Clinique (to which Kakak used first). And talking about Guess bag which Kakak used that day. Please cousin. I already know you're using imitation Guess bag.

Seriously, I hate being in the same room with people who looks down on me. At least, I don't use imitation stuff.

Anyway, my first aunt's hubby, Uncle Sal, apparently saw Ewanz photo on my phone (-_-") I forgot about it and he was standing behind me and asking me who is the person in the picture (-_-") While both Mama and me were in his car to Cik Ros home, my first aunt, Mak Dah was asking me "So, da de pakwe?"

I froze in my seat. Mama was laughing sarcasticly "Heheh. Kalau ada pon dia tak nak bilang". I denied saying not yet (-_-") And Uncle Sal was saying "Ada tu pat handphone dia" (-_-") Again Mak Dah was saying "Kalau da de, jangan tunggu lama². Sekarang semua da naik..." To which she said that my cousin, Fauzy is getting married in October. I didn't even know he's engaged already (-_-") Thanks cousin Farhanah for not telling me about your brother's engagement. Not even Mama told me about it.

Ok la. Going to have lesson soon. *sob sob* There's a lot of tasks in hand currently. *sigh*

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