I guess my pms is acting. I dont know.

I'm feeling tired. Yet, it seems like my eyes can't control the tears from my eyes.


*sigh* I just dont know. I feel like cuddling myself in one corner, alone. Just alone by myself.

Let me be anti social at the moment.

Fell down the stairs yesterday while i was walking with Kakak, on the way home from the supermarket. It hurts. *sigh*

Have to get a new phone asap. Adeq's phone is not functioning too *sigh*

Got 2 wedding cards last week. One from my previous school's canteen vendor while the other is the educator here whom I don't know well enough. Should I go or not? But with who?

I'm feeling melancholy at the moment. And yes, there's tears rolled down my cheeks just now. *sigh* And on top of that, saw someone in my msn list, whom I didn't see for quite a longgg time. It adds up to what I was feeling.

Mama's birthday falls on Vesak Day. Therefore, i would like to wish Mama a very Happy birthday. Semoga panjang umur murah rezeki dan diberkati and less controling of me. Amin. Hee..

Kakak's birthday was on 5th May. Therefore, i would like to wish Kakak a very Happy birthday. Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan diberkati Allah. And may u get a man in ur life soon so that I can get a brother-in-law. Amin. Hee~

I still havent bought them any gifts yet. And really I could feel a big hole in my pocket very soon as I've to start hunting for one including my adeq's birthday gift.


Mama got a Braun Buffel bag from kakak. *sigh* it makes me jealous.

And Abah wanted a Braun Buffel wallet since his Braun Buffel wallet is not in a good condition anymore. Hmm...

Anyway, I'm not working today. Yay! And my cough is badly affecting me =/ I hate it. If only i can take out the cough and throw it in the trash bin... *sigh*

And I'm meeting my good friend Hafiza later. Yay! Been awhile since I last seen her. She's my bestest companion during my poly years. And really I treasure her so much above all my poly friends. Ahakz. And sadly, she's seem like the "only" one I'm in contact with *sigh* Lain habuk tkde. Janji kemana *sigh* And they will for sure tell me that I'm the one who's been busy. So irony.

Anyway, after meeting her I will be meeting my babe =) We go print pictures aite? ;)

You know, deep down in me I just feel that I want him. Im missing him. Sometimes I just wish that it never happens and that we're still happy together. But still, I can't run away from the fact. Oh well..

1st May was Labour Day. But, for my Bestie, it was a very special day. Its the day that she got engaged to the man she loves.


Green affair for him and purply affair for her =) thou I'm surprised by the number of trays being exchanged. It's like almost a wedding. Hehe.

I'm happy for her to see her smilling widely from ear to ear, especially when the ring was being placed on her finger. I knew her heart was beating fast, filling with joy, excitement, etc. If she was given a choice, most probably she might be leaping for joy. Hehe.

Didn't do much except helping to take photos and cleaning up her bedroom after the whole ceremony.

But despite all those, I was feeling vulnerable too. But because it's her semi big day I wouldn't want to ruin the whole thing. I know my weakness. But when others spot it and making fun of it, tell me should I just go along with it? Told myself to ignore and that one day if their children have the same weakness like I do, they will know how it feels like.

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On the other hand, I still feel vulnerable. It's not easy for me to be strong. I just can't help it if I'm sitting down alone. The feeling of melancholy will overcomes me each time nobody is around me, thus the feeling of wanting to shed tears is there.

Mikey told me its ok to cry if I feel like to.



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Pain pain pain. I'm still adjusting myself with the pain I feel before visiting the toilet. Heheh.

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Anyway, last Saturday went out with a friend of mine. Thou I dont really like this friend of mine, oh well. Watched "Jgn Tegur" at Suntec. The story was quite alright but not the sound effect. The sound effect was too irritating and too exaggerating.

Oh, I'm a coward at watching those type of shows especially when I don't have the control with the volume. Covered my eyes with part of my scarf or close my eyes at certain part of the show. Haha.

I guess, thats for now. I just dont have the urge to blog much nowadays.

Labels: bestie, engagement