Yesterday, while I was walking towards the MRT from work, I heard a few students whispered my named. I ignored it as I was busy replying my friend's messages and looked up only when they called my name. Students from the Secondary school were calling me. Just waved at them and proceed with my journey.


Anyway, I was told to do the Voice over recording at 1.15pm at the Library Ship. And I didn't even know how to use the software. I search frantically the microphone from Mr. Ong's table but I couldn't find any. I was too scared to open the cupboards (and I don't even know where are the keys). Anyway, managed to retrieve the computer microphone from one of the labs.

Installing the software took me ages. Asked my colleague but he too doesn't know too. Well, the first time I couldn't hear anything, I forgotten to switch on the speaker. And the next time, I couldn't project the playback from the recorder. I tried to change the settings within the computer system but I just couldn't hear the playback.

And I just closed the Audacity and restart again, thinking it can't work, but to my amazement, it works! Whoa, I was soo delighted. And I tried to find the students but I managed to find one. Anyway, made him to record his voice and after 4 records, we were done and I managed to edit it. Emailed my supervisor the voice recording after I smsed him and I was shocked to find him in my room (as there's course conducted in my room today and he approached me).

If only I can insert the voice here. Hmm, I wonder how....

omigod. At the very last minute, my colleague asked me to do something for the website. I mean I don't mind but when she mentioned the word "flash", I could feel that my whole face turned a bit pale. I seriously do not know how to use flash and for goodness sake, stop asking me! Lol.

Anyway, asked my friends if I could cheat by using animated .gif files since I do not know how to use Flash. Frantically search for the CD and after like 15 minutes I found the CD neatly tucked in between the CDs which I arranged in one of the cupboards.

I wanted to make the zig zag but it turned out sucked. So in the end, use the normal rectangle and walah! Created one. Haha. Going to be busy busy for me tomorrow onwards. Omigod! No more "free time"! Well, I'll try thou. Need to learn new software tomorrow.

Still cough. But at least I do not have fever anymore. And I've forgotten to take my antibiotics in the morning as I was rushing to work. Didn't came to work last Thurs as I was too weak to go to work. Luckily I've obtained MC the night before.

So, I slept till about 10+ or 11+ or 12pm. I couldn't wake up. The medicine were too strong. I have 3 medicines which made me drowsy. And gosh I could barely lift my eyelids. One is for the Anerax panadol (which is part of muscle pain), another is for the running / blocked nose and lastly is for my cough syrup.

Had late lunch as I wasn't in the mood to eat but more to sleeping. And by dinner, I had to drink coffee as I need to be out of the house about midnight to go to the airport. And during the late afternoon till night time, my home phone as well as handphone were busy. One by one kept asking when's my mom going to touch down. And for goodness sake, just stop asking can you? Arghh, it really gets into our nerves.

Reached airport about 12.16am and according to the airlines details, my mom's flight touched down at 12.18am. A lot of people were waiting at the Terminal 1. Saw my buddy, Zul at the airport. Chatted for a while till my sis called and moments we saw the first few people out. And I saw someone who resembles my dad. Another looked, I saw my uncle (which I was wondering how he entered that area and found out that my uncle works within the airport area) helping someone and turned out to be my dad. Waved but I'm not too sure if my dad saw. He looked different. Hehe. Then I saw my mom. Waited and waited for about 45 minutes to 1 hour and then my parents came out.

Kissed my mom's hand and hugged my dad before went over the barricades to see them. I was glad that they were back home. Dad had a bit of cough. Placed some bags in the maxi cab which my sis booked for my parents. Two of my uncles were shocked as we didn't use their transport. I find it crap. How can a normal car fits two luggage and 4 handcarry bags? And another one, don't expect my parents to sit in a pickup. For goodness sake, they just got back from Mecca and riding a pickup is a no-no! Plus they didn't even told us. So we presume no one offer us. My dad initially didn't want to board the maxi cab but in the end he boarded after my mom said that my dad didn't inform us.

Anyway, I was on leave that day. And I tried to sleep but I couldn't as the phone kept ringing none stop and distract me from sleeping. About 12pm I woke up. And fell asleep at 2+pm, only to find that my grandfather and grandmother visited around 3+pm. And my dad was not at home that time.

Saturday and Sunday were filled with visitors. But my dad's side didn't come down to visit. I'm not sure why but heck cares. If that's how they want to treat their siblings, be it. Urghh. Can't stand that kind of people.

And today, back to school. It's soo nice to be back "home". Thou I do cough a bit. A lot of things change here. Plus, CCA are now conducted during school hours. Weird but that's what had been the major change here.

I've blocked nose at last which I really least expect to happen to me. And it's no not cool. Still having my cough thou which result to soreness to my throat and some students even tease me for nearly losing my voice.

The idiotic kid still giving attitude in my class and I can't be bothered to tell them I'm leaving. I only told the 2N1 students. Some even ask me why I'm leaving. It surprises me. I thought my absence in the school will bring joy to them? So I told them, you should be happy that I'm not required here. Some of them asked where I'm going to? Obviously back to my school.

Some of them even asked me how old I am. Haha. Of course I wouldn't reveal my age. It was nice that these 2N1 students were taking their assignment seriously. One even remind me to give him the steps on how to use Dreamweaver site. Nice right? Some even ask me if I will step into this school which I told them I wouldn't.

*sigh* if only I have those type of students for all the classes, I would be extremely be on cloud 9. Tomorrow back to school. So whatever thoughts like taking MC will have to forgo. *sigh* 'Cause work is more important. *sigh*

Second entry of the day
Am I listening to the real news? Or is it just something that's just to make me feel better? What am I referring to? My boss called me that the new guy will enter tomorrow and assist me in the lesson. And he will be the permanent staff here.

Really, I couldn't believe my ears. If so, yes! Finally I could be out of here soon (because of the distance & so on). Initially I wanted to take MC, but since my boss wanted me to be there, then I've to erase that thought away.

Still coughing thou. Anyway, there's a lot of reason why I wish to leave here fast. Below are the list:

1. Students behavior / attitude (esp. that kid who use vulgar on me)
2. Uneasiness of computer usage (whereby I've to bring the tablet PC with me every now and then which makes my shoulder nearly drop off and also I do not like to have my head bend down to look at the monitor)
3. I don't know if they are stupid or just an asshole. I know I can't pronounce words which consist of "R", some even say "the R is very rusty". So whenever people ask who is on the line, when I said my name, it will sound like "Wose" or "Lose" instead of "Rose". And this happens whether the students or the staffs in the school.
   
4. Students who mockingly tease me when they know I could not pronounce words that consist of letter "R".

I'm really pissed off. I'm not ashamed to admit I can't pronounce the letter but THERE IS NO NEED TO MOCK ME OR EVEN INSULT ME. I really despise people who do all that towards me. I know it's part of my weakness, but IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD ABOUT THAT PERSON'S WEAKNESS!

I really need to get out of here fast. The sooner the better. And hopefully, I do not suffer from high blood pressure. Choy!

I'm still sick. Still having my fever and coughing which cause soreness to my throat. And my voice suddenly turned hoarse. Sharks. Hate the way I sound when I'm really sick. Had to take plenty of lozenges. Gosh.

With my first class, which was 2T2 were quite alright. At least most of them paid attention when I told them that I wouldn't be in the school anymore and the new trainer might not be able to help them much as each one of us have a different teaching style.

When it comes to 2T1, it was really out of control. Some of them were sleeping and most of them were talking. That's why I hate it when it comes to that two class. Furthermore, I'm going to face tomorrow morning's class for the last time unless I'm on MC. Well, depends if I'm still ill tomorrow.

Sent the primary school the schedule and letter. I've still yet to complete the lesson plan as well as handover report which I need to submit by today. Gosh, really too many things to settle within today. Hopefully I could complete the reports by today so that I could concentrate on other matters for tomorrow and Thursday.

And yesterday, I was fed up with one of the teachers in the Primary school. I know I borrow out the tablet PC. I mean, why must you ask what for I need the tablet PC. To use la! Then, what do you expect me to do? And the most irritating is when she told me she wanted to meet me on Friday despite telling her I'm on leave. And hear this out. I will NOT go to work when I'm on leave alright!

Went home yesterday was a torture when my muscles started to ache. I could barely walk my normal speed. Most probably I'm too exhausted that I'm carrying the tablet PC to and fro work. Upon reaching home, noticed that the fried rice was staled as my brother forgot to place them in the fridge. So, ended up I ate one slice of pizza from the previous day, took a shower and rest on my mom's bed while watching TV. Brother came home and I told him to take a look at the rice, which he then threw it on my behalf and washed the dishes (when he saw that my sick face). I tried to take a nap but I couldn't.

I did placed a small towel on my forehead and sometimes on my neck to ease the fever. And yes, I've been visiting the toilet every now and then since I was at work yesterday. At least that's how the fever minimized but still, I'm very tired to keep going to the toilet.

Ah, should have my lunch and my panadol now...

My Saturday was wasted just like that as I had to report to my company by 10am eventhough the email stated that the opening ceremony of my company starts at 12pm. Waited for my colleague, Fairus for a few minutes which was just after 10am. We waited for quite sometime before the Design Manager called and give the schedule and asked us to go to the ground floor for corporate photo taking.

Before the photo taking, my big boss announced that one of the colleague is about to get married on 05.05.07 while my boss is going to get married on 17.03.07, which is just 2 days before my birthday! Oh just. Just my luck and the worse advance birthday gift I've ever received in my entire life. After the photo taking, we went up and shortly afterwards, my asst. manager called for briefing. We went to the backyard and they told of the schedule as well as our duties.

After which we were told to be at our designated areas, which I do not have one. Sat down with Muslihah and we talked mostly about our company. After that, we went out of the lab and joined the other guests, fearing that my big boss might accuse us of gossiping about the company.

Duno which idiot take this pic

Watched the video on the big plasma TV near the reception table and shortly after that the cutting of cake. Saw big boss's two children as well as his sister's child. After then, the lion dance. They took quite sometime, about 45 mins to finish the whole thing. The most stupid was that my bosses gave them Sunkist orange to peel instead of the Mandarin orange. And honestly to say, I'm very tired of standing. Why? It's because I wore high heel shoes. After which was lunch and obviously me and Muslihah was the first few people to have our food.

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Went to the pantry, had our breakfast and to our disappointment, there were no drinks left. Lihah got permission to leave early and I didn't want to sit at the 8^th floor, so went down to join my male colleagues who were smoking. After Lihah left, we went to the nearest coffee shop to have a drink.

After sometime, another colleague called us and told us that we could leave. So, went to the security counter to sign my attendance out and while I was about to sign, my phone dropped. At that moment, my heart sank. Oh gosh.

While we were on our way to the MRT, Fairus called and asked where we were and I simply replied him in Malay "We're at the Hotel" and two of my colleagues teased me by saying "Ya, in 1 room now. Haha" I was soo embarrassed. I didn't mean to say that actually. I actually wanted to say "We were outside the Amara Hotel building" Gosh. (Picture will be updated once I received them).

After meeting them, went to Orchard and waited for Lia before we find the Tower A of Ngee Ann City for our free massage which we obtained from the yoga centre. Reached the 16^th floor and we seated for a while, admiring the whole spa centre. Shortly after that, a masseur came up and asked for me before I was led to a room. Was told to take off all my clothes and put on the disposable g-string and lie down while waiting for her to come back to the room.

She then asked which of the 3 types of massages I would like to have and I told her that it was my first time and she recommended one (which I’ve forgotten the name). She covered me with lots of towels and starts massaging me before applying some ointment. The process was repeated. I was drifted in and out of sleep while she massaged me. The best part was when she massaged my shoulders. That was where I felt the most tensed.

She did comment to me at the end of the session that I've a lot of muscle tenses at my shoulder blade. I didn't deny that. And she is really wonderful to make me feel great after the session. She massaged from feet up to my neck which was at the back before repeated the same process to the front except my chest area and face. She did pressed a little on my forehead and pulling a bit of my hair.

Changed into my clothes back and waited for a while. I didn't know what to do next. I went out of the room about 10mins later, just to find Lia & her masseur as well as mine waiting outside the room. After all that, we were led to the sofa where the consultant asked us if we consider massaging in the future. Of course we are but eventually, money is the problem.

She even told us that they accepted Credit Card only and told us to come back when we're ready. Of course she doesn't mean to hint to us but seriously, if I've the money, I would have sign up as I do get some rebate since I'm the member.

I slept soundly for about 9 hours or so after my dinner with my sister who cooked delicious meals.

And Sunday, well I didn't go out but instead, washed a few clothes, curtains as well as mats. I even took about 2 hour nap before I messaged him, as I missed him and thought he might be asleep. And I do want to do my work, only to find that my laziness overcome me. Gosh, thinking that I've to do lots of works by this week stressed me up.

Hopefully I could finish everything up very soon, including my reports, notes and other documentations.

Couldn't sleep at night. Went to bed at 1+ am and I tossed and turned on the bed. Not only that, felt my whole body was aching, my throat felt funny as thou I'm going to get mumps and my stomach bloated. Woke up 2 times before my alarm. I just don't know why. It can't possibly be the massage. And I felt soo weary going to work. If only I could apply mc, but again, who's going to take over me?

I just don't know why but really, the feeling is soo great that I did let out a few tears just now. Badly, i need someone to comfort me.

Unusually had a big appetite today. Ate 4 sardine puff today and one bread for breakfast, lunch and tea time. Classes were alright, didn't lost my temper, no vulgarities heard today. Next, I was frantically finding the noticeboard key which was supposed to be in the drawer, but it wasn't there when the servicing people who came to repair the spoil noticeboard.

Ended up, I called the Operation Manager of the school to inform him. Before that, the feelings just came. Seeing how happy Shasha was, I myself was feeling miserable. How I wish..I wish that I'm in that cloud 9 mood.

But..I don't know..Just seemed like I'm useless at love. Perhaps, I don't even know what's love is. Perhaps, I meant to be this way. Maybe that's why B treats me like this, thou someone is there mentally for me. Thou he's not physically here, but still Mr. Turtle gives me the full support.

But, am is it wrong to love someone else when you're in a relationship? Up till now, I still can't find the answer..Perhaps, I wouldn't be able to know the answer at all....

Today's class is better, eventhough it's normal academic class. Anyway, I didn't even feel like doing my work eventhough I have work pilling up. I'm just fed up. Know why?

Because I'm handling TWO schools. And bear in mind that I've to settle EVERYTHING myself! Why can't they ask the new trainer to DO this school's notes? Why must be ME?? I'm soo pissed off.

Though my boss and supervisor came down just now to pass me the schedule for the primary school, but still I'm soo frustrated with them. But I just can't tell them straight in the face. And do you know I've to do those notes and send for printing??

And I've to do for BOTH schools! Stupid! Argghh.. I just feel like banging my head against the wall. I need him to hug me. I miss you.

And today, about 6pm I've to rush to the primary school to do the burning of CD and then back home. Most probably cook my own meal as I don't think I'll be buying dinner outside. And if the clothes which I washed yesterday had dried, then most probably I'll be washing another batch of clothes again *sigh* I've to wait till 545pm just to close the library....

Went yoga yesterday. Gosh, I really hope yesterday never happened. Thought of going with her as usual to yoga but a friend of mine (I assure you, i have no feeling towards this guy) wanted to send me there. So, why not? Told her I would meet her directly at the yoga center. While I was in the car, she called me despite I messaged her to inform that if I'm not there by 6pm I would call her. But she called me, asking me where I am. I was pissed off of course so I told her why she want to know when I'm on the way. She just slammed the phone down!

And mind you. She's one of the people who hates others to slam the phone down. And she did that to me! Urgh. I called her back and told her that we were reaching soon as I was at Chinatown, just near to Raffles. After the yoga class, I checked my phone and he told me he wanted to send me home. I already made plans with her to have dinner but then again, I felt bad that he waited for me without my knowledge. And he's merely want to send me home. That's all. And when I told her, she gave me those irritating loud voice "Go la! Go la! I can go home myself. I always go home alone what!" (that word always made my heart boils a little as I always go home with her and it's my first time not going home with her yesterday). I asked her if she was angry and she said " I can't be bothered".

I asked her one question which was about me. And also about B. I was merely asking opinion. So I told her that "You know, a lot of people say I'm stupid to stick with him. But I just don't know how to leave him". The only thing she say was "Ya, you're really stupid!" Call me emo, but I was asking you an opinion, not asking you to call me stupid. Arrghh.. I'm soo frustrated.

When I reached home, messaged her telling I was really sorry and she was like "Whatever". And not only that, she even say "I don't want and I wouldn't say anything. Thinking about just now, hurts me". Might as well you tell me that you're fed up with me. Why must you beat around the bush? Urgh..I really don't understand. I know that I'm in a wrong side but it's not like I'm doing it everytime.

And worse, I really had a bad morning just now. Wanted a volunteer from the class to try out in front of the whole class. Then after so long, I asked this boy to do it by listening to my advice. After I repeated 5 times, he kept asking me how to do. I told them they should know and even commented that they said they know how to use the software.

When I say "Define the local root folder as Digital Animation which I had not yet created" and under the site name, he type "tis teacher is s" which means sucks. I tried to control my temper. He talked back. Told me to do myself. I just stared at him. Then, some of the classmate tried to helped him but everything was wrong.

One moment, I told them they can't help him yet and this boy keep asking the one in front of him in Chinese "How to do?" His friend simply say "Teacher at the back say can't help". And he just replied "Heck care with that fucker at the back". My eyes rolled back. And I simply said out loud "Don't think I don't understand what you're talking about me in vulgarities in Chinese". He tried to deny and seeing that I don't give a damn, he admitted. But he still scold me vulgarities underneath his breathe which I could hear.

I've typed out the email but had not sent it to my supervisor. Why? Because I do not know whether I should complain or not. And I was consistently insulted which really hurts my pride. And I nearly blew my top off and nearly broke down which I managed to hold my tears from falling. I only knew that my face turned red.

After I dismissed the class early and when no one was in the library, I had to let go..Let go the 3 tears which rolled down my cheeks. I was really hurt. I really hate it. I just want to get out of here fast! 10 working days left in this school........

For two straight days I left the house early. Yesterday, met up with my friend and we had breakfast while just now was when I have to report to work early whereby my lesson starts at 740. Thank God that I reached the library by about 730am. Consider early but still I have to prepare the materials and all that stuff.

Anyway, taught the 2T2 and they were a bit better then 2T1 as some of them paid attention. I even asked them lots of questions till they can't answered. Especially one Chinese gal and one Malay gal. Both of them have the attitude. The Chinese gal was like "What the hell this stupid trainer is talking about" kind of attitude and the Malay gal, she keeps combing her hair and checking her appearance on the monitor.

And, the best part of all? When the clocked showed 1040am, I quickly set up the projector and materials. And even tried to go down to the class as the class did not appear outside the library. Upon seeing from the 3rd floor that the 2T1's classroom was not lighted nor could I see anyone, I remembered something. Just remembered that the technical class were having ITE visits today till 4.30pm.

And sat down at my place, in front of the tablet pc after I had shut down the projector screen. And I was trying to keep myself awake by chatting more and surfing thou I'm suppose to get my work done as well as my 3rd lesson for tomorrow.

I did read one of the emails that my client supervisor wants me back the week after next. So I quickly get ready the report except one of the points which I had not yet update. By lunch time, I couldn't control my eyes. I just lay my head on the counter while my colleague was doing his work beside me. I even had a short dream which I can't recall.

Anyway, after the short "nap" managed to be a little fresh. As usual, had my quick lunch within the library area and starts to do my work. I do need a massage to ease the tightness on my back..

Last Sat, met Lia. She showed me her new Yoga Bag which she get by referring a friend and when the person signed up. And of course I'm jealous. Well, anyway went for Gentle, Therapy and Meditation class.

While attending Meditation class, the instructor just taught us how to do breathing properly. That's all. We don't even need to visualize the Hindu God or something ok. And it's not about religious purpose. And really, there's nothing about thinking of the Hindu God or chanting on the Hindu God.

Anyway, after the class I felt sleepy. Because he told us that if we breathe properly, we can prevent ourself from being awake and having sleepless nights. Upon reaching home, I collapsed on the bed at about 3pm and woke up at 4pm finding my brother munching on something before he went to work again and I collapsed back to bed. Hehe.

And I only woke up like 630pm and finding my sister spraying perfume. The sweet smelling of Anna Sui woke me up. Thou I still feel sleepy, I force myself to be awake. Initially I had a date that day but I canceled it as I was still feeling lethargic. Watched the Chinese show and then read the newspaper before I went to bed around 11+pm.


Sunday arrived and got ready to meet Shasha to help out with the wedding. Well, I took a cab since I missed the bus. Thank God everything went smoothly thou the person who washed the dishes did let out some vulgarities when one of the guests dropped the plate. Gee, it was scary but luckily no fighting or whatsoever.

Stayed back to help bringing up the items. Initially wanted to help clean the house but her Grandma prevented me to do so. So, there I was at Shasha's home, idling for sometime till around 830pm before I went home (which I went to pay the utility bills and buy a newspaper before reaching home around 9pm). And boy, I was lucky enough that my sis cooked delicious meals. Spicy fishcake, fried chicken, fried vege with eggs, sambal tumis and spicy lala seafood. And after which I washed some clothes using the washing machines since I'm too lazy to wash with my bare hands. Will update the pictures at the wedding once I received from Shasha.

Rain rain rain. That's the weather nowadays. It will be sunny soon. Well, yesterday something funny happened. I was using the tablet PC, suddenly at 3pm the internet connection was lost. All I saw was that the IP address could not be connected and I just found out the reason why just now.

It really sounds stupid. But I found out that the main internet cable was loose from the internet adapter (there are 3 cables in that adapter and i'm using the one of the cable, not the main yellow internet cable). Haha. Stupid sia. Well, was embarassed but apparently, everythg was solved and I'm exhilarated that I could use the tablet PC (if not, back to the same place where I used to seat).

Water rises yesterday and there were mini floods when I went back to the office to submit the monthly report as well as asking for proposal for filing wise. Water flow down from the land and flooded the land. It looked like you're watering too much water to the grass. And of course, my shoes were soaked with water *sigh*

Met Lia at Bugis, ate at KFC before heading to OG. Bought shoes (sorry Shasha. I had to buy shoes for working footwear) And ended up spending about $28. I wanted to buy 1 white high heel but the sales girl told me that the display sets are the last set that they have. And when I checked, there were a few "defects" like the sole for my feet about to come off. There are a few more shoes that I like. There is this silver shoe which have a little pink. It's sooo, oh gosh..pretty. Really. I fell in love with it. But the price? About $47. I wanted to buy it but still, I've to think of my rainy days too. And one part I wanted to ask Lia whether the shoe is suitable to wear with baju kurung but I mentioned baju kubur. Since when do the dead wear clothes?

The laptop which I bring to and fro work is pretty heavy. And it hurts my hand. Especially when carrying it when the weather is wet. *sigh* It really sucks. Why? Because I'm carrying my bag, laptop as well as umbrella. And there I walked like one person who struggles myself to carry such heavy things at one go.

A few more days to go. I just can't wait for the day to arrive but what I hate most is to do handover report and settle everything here like printing notes for the replacement. Wtf. If i were to do that, what is he/she going to do? Shake legs?

I've to retype the whole entry again! *sigh* Well, anyway I just find out that my colleague, the librarian has left the school. I didn't know at first. I was sitting at my usual place when the phone rang. Usually after a few rings, my colleague will pick up the call. When I turned around, the two laptops which he was using was missing, as well as his bag and him.

Picked up the phone and kept wondering where he went to. The second time the phone rang, I received a call from the supervisor. He told me that the librarian will not continue the service to the school anymore. I was quite shocked. I thought he left on purpose. And my supervisor told me to take care of everything in the lab. Whoa. Me? Taking care of the lab? Not again man. Or I might do the same thing like last time whereby I had to take care of the library for a month when I was having attachment at Bendemeer Secondary School. I might even throw the students out! Haha.

Anyway, he doesn't know about it too. He called me and apologised to me as he wanted to clear my misconception that he left the school on purpose. He too didn't know about it until his boss called him to be at his office for meeting. Ok ok. I get it. Sometimes, bosses are like this. They always tell us last minute. *sigh*

Anyway, morning class was like hell. 3 classes in the library. My class, as well as photo taking session for one of the Sec 1 class. And guessed what? The class which I taught in the morning is the last class of the Express Stream. And there's a few monkeys in that class. And even one of them mentioned that my class is boring. I admit it is. Because theory are always dry. But giving me that kind of behaviour doesn't mean I've to respect you. It's really sucks when we're giving respect to people who are younger then us but those younger people are being rude to us, not respecting us. And really, I felt insulted after each class *sigh*

But the noon class was quite alright. At least well behave. And that class is the first Normal Academic. Maybe because there's one teacher there. I don't know. But really, I find them better then the rest of the classes that I taught. Last week, they didn't make that much noise. Oh well, better don't praise them that much.

And I think, I really need to bring the tablet PC to and fro school. I can't possibly leave the tablet PC here. Because it doesn't even belong to me. Furthermore, I loan it from the primary school. Hmm.. I rather use normal laptop or monitor that is within eye level actually. But I guess, another 17 more days I would be alright. And please, hopefully the stress of working alone in the library is not that great nor the students' monkey behaviour doesn't affect my blood pressure. And I guess, I do need to learn about the library in case teachers or students asked me questions.

I think I might get high blood pressure soon. Why? What's wrong with me? Everything is wrong! Especially today. Woke up early today (felt refreshed as my yoga master applied some pressure to my back/spine area while doing yoga as I complained I had cramps on my butt [of all places, I have cramps there] and when it subdues a little, he asked me to do the ball position since I'm the only one had not done [he knows I can do it as I had attend his lessons a few times]where by we lay on our abdominal, legs 90 degrees and strectched out hands back to hold our legs. And he raised me up to his knee level, way past the usual height. Was shocked but felt good later. Went to two yoga classes yesterday with Lia & Sheeda).

Managed to check my pay. They deducted my pay because of the exam which I took (and failed again *sigh*). Withdraw some money and went to buy myself a coffee. Well, have to be really thrifty nowadays. So, home food for lunch these days. I think I might fast too. Anyway, waited for the library to open. As usual, my colleague was late. So went to the General Office to retrieve the keys and opened the library. Quickly set up the projector screen and went to fetch my class.

I received a shock when I found out that I was supposed to teach them at 740am instead of 840am. But my schedule says 840am. So, went to the General Office to find the HOD and found the TA instead where he led me to the Chilling Room. It was dark and there lay my HOD, napping!! Urgh, told him the problem and he told the TA to check the schedule. The only thing my HOD told me, there might be miscommunication.

Told the TA that the students have a different schedule with me and he too just found out that there's a change in timetable and I had to be in school by 730am on Tues! Really insane! What, I'm supposed to be out of house at 630am? Argghhh!!

Nxt was to teach the 2T1 students. And guessed what? Monkeys all over the class. While I was teaching, lots of craps from students, some of them moving around the library & the most irritating thing that I dislike is when they talk to each other! Damn, they really made me screamed in the library. No matter how many times I told them I could make them stay back, they ignored and thought I didn't dare.

I don't care how that previous trainer do, but honestly, doesn't mean you're a less academic student, you don't know how to respect others. Only a few paid attention. *sigh* Really, they made me go crazy. With additional sound effects and the rest, they find it a pleasure doing all that stuff to me. It's really nuts.

Thou there's one teacher in the library, talking to the librarian, I did noticed that she told off a few of the boys in the class for not paying attention. Sickening kids. Thinking I should teach them in a slow pace, ended up making me teach them at the normal fast pace. *sigh* It's not that I do not how to teach. But really, how do you teach if they keep on talking with one another? I just don't want them to blame me one day when another person teach them next month onwards saying I didn't teach them at all.

I too have my own self respect and dignity. The more I think of end of the month, the more I dread as I have about 16 more days left with those type of kids from Express class to Normal Technical class. And it makes me feels less confident to teach. Perhaps, teaching is not my cup of tea if I can't handle those type of kids. For goodness sake, kids, leave me alone and stop giving me frustration and being a nuisance to me!!

It's been sort of a tiring month for me. Yea, most probably I spend more time sitting here thinking of what work to do. But today was like a busy day for me as I had been spending most of the time updating the website. Only updating, not uploading as I need to go back to school to upload it via my level head's computer. And I did renaming some of the files as I myself was confused. So what I did was name it as the group_filename.htm. So that I know that particular website belongs to which group.

And I still had not close my files for last year. Gosh! I guess I have to stay back this week and next week to do the closure before my supervisor haunt me down again. Come to think of it, it's troublesome for me as I do not have the materials with me in this school now, nor any printers. And doing those work for about 1h 45 minutes is impossible. *sigh* I guessed I just have to learn how to do it. Anyway, going to meet my company supervisor this Thursday at 6pm as she was confused of the proposal that I need for the closure of 2006 courses. *darn*

Anyway, I was pissed off with a couple of my friends a few days back. Firstly was when I asked someone whether she wanted to help my friend out in a wedding function by picking up dishes and wiping the tables (well, I'm also doing that task when the day arrives soon), she gives me an indirect answer. You could tell me whether it's a yes or no. But what she did was "Well, that kind of thing is not my liking." I rolled my eyes upon receiving that sms. I mean, you can just say "Sorry girl. I’m not interested to be a "waiter" on that day." Instead, you made me waste a few smses so as to confirm with you that you actually didn’t want to particapate. Urghh..

And another time I was pissed off was yesterday. I was asking my friend whether she wants to join me for jogging. And know what her reason is? "I can't find my shoes." I just told her straight. "Are you being lazy or you really can't find your shoes?" All she did was laughed and told me she would join. When the time was nearer, as I expected, she messaged me "Sorry, I can't join you. Can't find my shoes." Yea, whatever. Why can't you simple give me the truth? How could you lie to me saying you can't find your shoes when you used them about a week ago? Bah, a lame lie.

Weekends for me was busy nowadays as most of the time I washed and washed and folded the dry clothes. Lol. Doing houseworks on weekends are the best time for me as most of the time during the weekdays, I would be "lifeless" as my energy was drained the whole time at work. And yesterday, helped my brother with his Java assignment.

I was a little angry with him for not doing his assignment three weeks ago. I did nagged at him in the middle of the night. After he told me off, I did came to think that nagging at him wouldn't help getting back at the time that had passed. So, out came my Java textbook and helped him with his assignment. Most of the time it's about switch loops and for loops. And the one that really confused me till this day is the array. Wait, what am I talking about? It's the Java terms for programming (in case you find this bored, please skip this. Hehe).

What my brother need to do is to draw the flowchart and I can't recall at all that I did do flowchart during my poly years. Hmm, perhaps I've forgottten. What I did was to write down the program on a piece of paper and explained to my brother (thou I'm not an expert in Java, more or less, I do know a bit of programming alright. Just need to brush off the rustyness in the brain. Hehe). Spent about 2 hours and my brother told me he would "touch up" the remaining in the morning.

By then, it was already 1+am. Went to pray before I fell asleep on the spot but woke up about 40 minutes late (supposed to wake up at 5.30am). And it's a miracle that I'm not that sleepy as last week while I'm at work. Probably because he's accompanying me at the msn and my brain is occupied with the major tasks that I've to complete very soon. Oh well.. 17 days left for weekdays & 22 days left altogether for me to be out of here *sigh*

Really not sure why I've been feeling sooo tired lately. Ever since I'm at another location now. *sigh* Not much things to do actually. Just preparing slides for the lessons as well as thinking of the project to be given to the students. And most of the time sitting in front of the computer. What's worse is that I've been skipping lunch often ever since I was here. And always feel sleepy. Gosh! I don't know what's wrong with me.

Well, anyway, completed lesson 1's slides yesterday morning. As well as lesson 2 slides except a bit of touch up. Well, that can be done later. So what I did after class just now? Well, not much thou. Just updating the Primary calendar online and it took me like more then 3 hours. Bah. It's really long. And honestly, I feel like going back to the Primary School. Why? Firstly because I badly wanted to upload the edited version of the website. Second, I miss my area. Third, I miss my colleagues. But really I miss my OWN space!

Why? Because here, I don't even have a desk, nor my own computer nor my own storage. It really sucks. And can you imagine me sitting down at student's computer and using it? It's soo embarassing. *sigh* I just want my personal space. And I never went to the canteen here before. Never know a single staff. And they too didn't know I ever exist here *sigh* Hate the feeling. Please Boss, get me out of here fast!! I have 25 more days left to end of this month and 18 more working school days. *sigh*


See the picture on the left? Haha. I just don't get what this lady is thinking. Perhaps she find that it's really style to have this. It really looks gross. Having a short skirt over a long white skirt. What's her purpose man? Is it because she finds that when she reaches her destination, she could just remove the white skirt and the scarf? I know I'm not too religious nor good either. But I just find her fashion kinda sucks. For me, I'm ok with it if she wants to wear tight fitting clothes. Her body. So, it's her business. But what's with two skirts?

In school right now. I mean the primary school. What for? Scanning out my attendance from the manual book. It's really troublesome. Urghh. Then had to burn into CD. I just don't get it why they are making it soo complicated?

And I really hate it in the place I'm at now. It's just the students. They are much more worse. They wouldn't listen to you. They even make fun of you if you stammered a little. I came acrossed it just now. Feel like strangling that fellow. All I ask for is respect and patience. Yet, they give me that kind of attitude. I can see it from their face. I just feel like giving them a tight slap. And no matter which class they are from, they don't give a damn about you. That include from the clever class. Urgghh..

*sigh* Just my luck. Told my boss I don't want to be in that school. I prefer primary school. At least, kids in primary school are controllable. And I dread to go to work each day when I know that I'm facing those students. Not to mention that my boss don't even tell me anything at all. And there I was like an idiot coming to a school without knowing anything nor having any materials on me.

Of course I did complain to them. Told them I've to teach on the spot. I mean I don't mind but teaching them flash? Oh gosh, I'm really sucks at it. I'm just a beginner. And I don't even know anything. And those students? They know every single thing about it. Must be soo stupid to send me there. Hellppp.. I want to get out of there!! 26 more days to end of month *sigh*

Just wana update a little. Thou it's a bit boring. Oh well. Currently at the Secondary school. Quite ok I can say. Just that I didn't expect that much and it happened. Hehe. Will be online lesser this month. Can't expect me to be online most of the time as currently I'm in the library Cosmic and is accessible at all times. *sigh* Need to do lots of planning for both schools. Going to be nuts at the beginning of the year. I miss him terribly.

Saturday 30th Dec 2006
Tidy the whole house as it was in a terrible mess. So, the first thing I did was to wash my weekday clothes which I had wore for that week and also any clothes that I could find in the toilet, like my brother’s clothes and a few of my sister’s clothes. As usual, I did the old fashion way which was to wash using my hands.

Yeah, I know. My hands a little rougher compare to the ones I had when I was young. Tried to squeeze the clothes but the amount of water that I could obtain out of the washed clothes were little. So, I cheated a little by using the washing machine to squeeze it to partial wet. Yeah, I know what you all going to ask. Why not use a washing machine to wash and dry the clothes? Well, the reason is that I don’t like to use washing machine is that I find that washing machine can’t clean certain part of the clothes.

Oh well. Anyway, hang the washed clothes to dry, fold the dry clothes, vacuum the whole house, washed the dishes or any item that was on the sink while my sister cooked. Wait a minute. Did I mentioned my sis cooked? Yea. She did. She made Sayur Lodeh, Ayam Masak Merah & Sambal Sotong. And I can’t stand the way my sister handled the kitchen. It’s just that when she washed the dishes, she wouldn’t throw the waste from the sink. I could see the sink “flooded” each time I passed the sink. So, ended up I washed the dishes each time she was at the stove cooking the food.

By then, I was dead tired. Because I tried my very best to keep the house clean, just like what my parents would like to have. Now I know how tough it is to clean the house if everyone is not cooperative or if you’re doing almost all the housework yourself without anyone helping. Baked the chocolate chip cookies at about 830pm. It’s a bit hard and a little less sweet then the first one I made. Oh well. After everything was done, tidyed up a little before I rewarded myself to watch some tv programs.

Sunday 31st Dec 2006
Went to grandfather’s home pretty late. Reached roughly about 3pm. By then, my relatives had went home. Grandfather asked a few questions and my first aunt beside my dad arrived. Talked to my uncle for awhile and around 430 we left for Yishun. Went to my cousin’s home and we hang around there until 9pm. Went home with Aunt Jun’s family to walk towards the MRT station while both my sister and I went to Long John Silver for late supper.

Monday 1st Jan 2007
Happy New Year!! May everyone have a prosperous and fortune this year. Anyway, didn’t go out the whole day. My siblings were out around 11am and I had the whole day to tidy the house, washed the clothes, fold the clothes and cooked fried ketupat. Initially I wanted to go out but suddenly the laziness overcame me. I then realized how boring my mom felt when no one is at home and how tiring it is to keep washing our family member’s clothes.

Tuesday
Argghh..The only holiday I had left since Wednesday is a working day for me. Sigh. Back to school. And I received one shocking news after I hanged the washed clothes. Was told to report at Canberra Secondary instead of the primary school. Sharks. I just don’t get it. Why? Called my boss but he didn’t picked up so I messaged him. Alas, he called me back. Asked him why. Told me that I would be there temporary until end of January to teach someone how to use Macintosh. I wanted to ask him, why not send the person to my school? It would be better as there’s some free Macintosh available in the school.

I was worried. Damn, lots of my stuff are in the school. What would the school do if I’m not around when they need me? And I even planned out that I might just have to go early, first to my school first. Need to hide certain stuff first, then uninstall the msn and also to obtain certain of my stuff. Sigh. Really making my life difficult. Why didn’t they inform me earlier? Urghh.. Hate them. And for goodness sake, they already create problems for me at the beginning of the year, just after new year!