Thought today might be just like any other lazy Sundays after I woke up few hours after morning prayers.
But, before my alarm could ring at 9am, Mama had already woke both Kakak and I from our slumberland.
"Cepat bangun. Jap lagi nak gi hospital tengok Atok."
I dragged myself in and out of sleep while Kakak got up to visit her dentist first. By 930am, I forced myself to shower and wash my weekday's clothes before getting ready. Once Kakak is back, we made our way to Changi Hospital.
Registered our names as that's the procedure in CGH. And only 2 of us present is allowed to enter ICU, thou we got to know it's alright to have 4 to be in since Atok was admitted in on that day.
Mak Adik told us what happened. I could see from Nenek's face that she was quite devastated that Atok was in the hospital. From what I know, I heard that Atok had heart attack before rushing him to the hospital. And the doctors checked on him, saying that he had internal injuries, to which it shocked everyone as we didn't even know that he had internal injuries.
Most of my aunts were fighting to hold back their tears but failed as it slowly trickled down the cheeks.
I was messaging Nizam and till I went in to take a look at Atok with Mama. Boy, my heart was crushed seeing Atok laying on the bed with tubes poking all over his body. And yes, he's using the oxygen mask but somehow his breathing was quite heavy. The alarm from one of the system rang and the nurse attended to it and ensured us that everything is alright.
Mama read some Doa while touching his shoulder. I looked on and just selawat and read whatever I can remember. It's hard for me to control my tears. I just don't want my Atok to go, if possible.
Mama came over to my side and she pointed out there's a tear on his left eye, to which I did noticed after we arrived. I know Atok can hear, see and feel us there. But I guess he's too weak to open his eyes.
Went down and joined Mama, Abah and some of my Aunts + Uncles + Cousins. I messaged Nizam and told him. I just couldn't control my tears, so was Kakak. Nizam tried to console me. At that point of time, thou its was via sms, he's the only one there for me =/
Abang Ja'afar arrived with his luggages, together with his family as they rushed from Batam to CGH upon hearing the news. They were on vacation and were supposed to take 2pm ferry but decided to take the earlier ferry back home.
Had our lunch and waited for adeq who made his way down to CGH to look at Atok. Doctor had advised us to be prepared for the worse....
Last 26/27 Dec..
Attended my cousin's wedding in Tampines. It was quite a boring wedding as we were not given any task to do on that day. Therefore, to wait for time to pass by..was pretty tiring. I didn't take pictures of her and her hubby as I didn't have a camera and taking with handphone camera? Quality isn't that good.
Among all my nieces and nephews besides Abah, I enjoyed entertaining my two nieces which belongs to Abg Ja'afar and Kak Dian. They made me smile most of the time thou.
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Wedding cakes
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Bride & Groom's bedroom
On that day too, it was Anum's wedding. This wishes my came late, but netherless, have a blissful marriage till eternity.
Not only that, it was Wan Ted's wedding. Have a blissful marriage till eternity. Sorry I couldn't attend the weddings despite being invited.
December was the worse of the month for me. I fell sick most of the time. Was on MC 4 times and even during my annual leaves as well as coughing non stop =/
Anyway,
I'm sick of the way my workplace operates things. Really. Too last minute when they knew some events are planned. At least alert me so I could standby. And worse, my agency can only give increment if the school allows but if they don't they just raise it to $25! WTH!
I just want to leave. I've enough of the way they bully me through. All the promises are just white lies..
Shed tears about something. I just hope and wish that my future will be brighter. And hopefully I could settle down Mr Right, whom I do not know. *sigh*
Anyway,
interestingly, I have a change in ustaz for my Wednesday classes. Interestingly, the way issues were discussed, some interest me, some made me frightened with the facts especially towards the end of the world will-be incidents.
The world we live in currently, the bodies that our souls are in, it's all part of a test which Allah gives us. We need to know why we're on earth, our purpose in life, etc. Bodies which was made from clay with just a handful of blood, oh it's miracle on how Allah create humans, on how he created this world, nature, etc. And what I found out, really shocked me. What I didn't come to think of is that Allah is always creating something new and destroying things at the same time. It's His world. He rules everything.
The examples which Ustaz brought up, interest me.. Makes me wanting to know more. Makes me want to read more than what's in Al-Quran. But I'm not sure if I'm able to read the whole meaning of the Al-Quran first because whatever is written is either the history, predictions of what's happening currently, like economy wasn't doing that good, a touch of riba' and paper money and what's happening in the future.
I'm not trying to turn my blog into some religious blog but it's just to share on what i've learnt. And honestly, I was shocked to find out that my concept of Da'jal was wrong. I was thinking of a monster with one eye..Like those ugly monsters which we see in films. But it was wrong. Some experts translate it that Da'jal is handsome but he's blind in one eye which it looks like grapes. And that tempat Yahudi will be having a King instead and that King will be Da'jal. But the name of that Da'ja, we do not know.
Interesting. But at the same time, we need to research on it to understand more. Believes in fact findings instead of listening to one party. Like the one which is happening in Ya'jug and Ma'jug country (yg memegang wang dolar). Case mengenai bangunan di rempuh dengan kapal terbang. Yes, I got to know it late but after watching that
video, it triggers that it was all an act and well-planned. Like the one for MJ, too it was planned.
Banyak perubahan pada dunia. History is repeating. And do you know that actually whatever exist in the past is repeating presently?
And one thing, bila dengar lagu, tolong analyse the lyrics first. Kerana, kebanyakkan lagu barat ada unsur-unsur memuja syaitan. Astaghfirullah.
So many things happening...
So little time..
So much heart ache...so much anger..so much pain..so much frustration..
I'm feeling as thou I'm someone who have change.
I've so much to share but now is not the time to pen down these thoughts.
till then....
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