Didn't update for quite sometime. Anyway, last Tuesday was Hari Raya Aidilfitri. We're still in the month of Syawal. I was sick on the eve of Hari Raya or some known as Hari Lebaran. I had a feeling that I'm going to have high fever. But it didn't happen on that day nor the festival day.

By that Tuesday, I was sick of chicken and the dishes that we commonly find during Hari Raya. I only ate at my grandpa's home, about 1 hour before going to grandpa’s home and a bit of beef at Mak Ngah's home and two kaya kuehs at Uncle Yep's home.

And the next day was a working day. So we reached home like 11pm and I got ready for bed. Next morning was down with high fever. To shorten the story, I had diarrhea that day. So end up, I didn't even eat at all. Only have a bit of snack and lots of plain water. My diarrhea only cured around Friday.

This is how it looks like.

As for Friday, had a free chicken porridge at work. But the only funny thing about the porridge is that it had strong ginger taste and that there's beans in the porridge.

This is what's left.

At first it was nice, but as I kept seeing there's beans, I started to throw away the beans.

Kak Zarina's family came over on Thursday night. Played with my nieces, Khairani and Khairiyana. Honestly, beside my mom's side I'm quite ok with Kak Zarina's family. Besides Abang Fazil is friendly too.

Anyway, on Sunday was the most pissed off day for my family. My mom made mee bandung for the open house. I even went to buy groceries with my mom at Prime Supermarket and bought noodles at the market (been a long time since I last went in market).

First family to arrive was abg Dino's family. Let me tell you a bit about this fellow. He's about 30 or 30+, his wife is older then him about 5 to 10 years. They have 3 daughters and 1 son whereby a daughter and son was from the wife's previous marriage. They have 2 small daughters which I find not even cute.

Since they were the first to come, my sister served them drinks in drinking glasses instead of the usual plastic cups for open house. She only serve 5 glasses and there are 3 adults and 2 teenagers. I was in the kitchen. I kept hearing the wife told my dad about her village. Under my breathe, I muttered to myself why on earth must she tell my dad?

Suddenly, I heard a glass break. I exhale a long breathe out and starts to curse the person who breaks the drinking glass. By then, I had an annoying face. Helped my dad to clear up and throw away the broken glasses.

By then, my parents asked them to eat at the kitchen, so I helped to check the carpet whether there's bits of glasses on the carpet left. As I was inspecting the carpet, I noticed that there's bits of broken glasses underneath the table.

I asked my mom what happened and then noticed that there's crack on the glass table. I inspect carefully and was shocked to find out that there's one long crack on the glass table, from one corner to another and it really looks as thou it will split into half.

By then, my mom had the irritating face. You see, the glass isn't any kind of glass. It's a thick glass. Most probably about 3 to 5 inch thick. Logically, how can a thick glass get crack easily by a 3 to 4 year old kid? It just doesn't make sense. Unless she bang the glass down.

My mom told them and you know what's their respond? "Eh, crack?" They checked. They saw. The eldest daughter told her second sister "Now you have to stay here." And forget about it. That's all they do. And that stupid kid doesn't even get a scolding or whatsoever!

By then, my other aunties and uncles arrived. My mom told the rest to be careful as the table had a crack. But most doesn't believe. My dad and sis did told them not to place too many things on the glass but their pleas were fell on deaf ears.

About 5pm, that jerk Dino family salam my parents wishing only Hari Raya and left the house. I know they didn't apologise 'cause I was sitting beside my mom and my dad was standing nearby me also. Moments after the left, one of my cousin's wife, Kak Dian, accidentally knocked into the table and as a result, the glass split into half, making scratches to the wood.

By then, I rushed to the scene and tried to put away the broken glass after I saw my mom shaked with frustration. Everyone could see that my mom was on the verge of blowing off. Only then, that jerk Dino's parent realized that their granddaughter was the culprit. But no apologise were heard from any of them except one of my youngest uncle. Thou he wasn't even at fault, he did apologise which I felt as unnecessary.

One of my uncle said "Use plywood." My mom replied "Might as well get it from the garbage" while I replied "Nonsense suggestion." The only person I didn't hear is my aunt's comment which she said "Your dad's rich, so he can buy to replace." If I hear that, for sure I'm going to say "No matter how rich my dad is, if other people keep destroying our property, sooner or later, we will be bankrupt!"

My brother went to his part time work as a delivery. I communicate with my brother via sms and phonecall about everything thou he knew that jerk's daughter had broken my mom's glass table. According to my brother, he tried calling that jerk countless times about 20 time, then he picked up.

My brother asked how and he pretend not knowing anything. Still can ask about what? Then my brother say because of all that, the table toppled one side (this was before the table broke into half. Then, he still have the cheek to say "Should not place heavy containers of cookies / cakes on the glass table." So, in other words, he’s blaming my family for putting heavy stuff on the table. Hello! The table is only about 1 year 6 mths old. So don't talk nonsense with my family!!

Then he claimed that he apologized to my mom already which he didn't. So my brother asked him again "Are you really sure you ask for forgiveness??" But he didn't even reply. Then my brother told him "I want you to settle with my mom. You broke her stuff, you seek forgiveness from her. No use seeking forgiveness from my dad because he will for sure tell you don't bother"

But guessed what?He called my home. Talked to my father. Of course my dad say he can settle it himself. I know my dad. He wouldn't like to make things complicated. This jerk only say "Do I need to do a refund?" That's all. Fullstop. No apologises. Tell me. What kind of jerk is this who never even seek for forgiveness, eventhough he didn't do it, but his daughter did it, at least have the responsibility to apologise. But what he did was to blame my family back.

I'm soo sick and tired of this nonsense people. Not only that. Almost every year, there's bound to be some breakage at my home. I just don't know why they like to smash my family's stuff but we can't do the same to them.

As for me, I've told my parents, I wouldn't and will never forgive the family. If really I see them outside, I'm going to give one good lashing, at least not in front of my grandparents. And I don't even care whether the person is my cousin or someone. I really felt insulted by their behaviour towards my parents.

I just don't understand why it's hard for them to say sorry? Is it because their ego is too high?? Or lose your dignity? Go get a life if you can't even say sorry!

Weekends were extremely busy. Or rather just busy. Made swiss rolls, horse shoe (it became sandwich eventually 'cause it's too thin to be shaped as 'C') and Mama Carrie biscuits.

Home still messy..But at least it's a bit cleaner then a week ago. Looks like today I'm going to spend my remaining time to make it sparkling clean for the festive season which is tomorrow. I just don't know what to update.

Cried yesterday while waiting for the melted butter to be a lil cold. Been thinking of B & Mr. Turtle. But mostly, I miss my Mr. Turtle. Didn't get in touch with him for quite sometime.

Had little rest yesterday. Was on my feet doing lots of work. And at night, felt as thou I'm getting sick. I hate it when my body starts to ache non stop and I felt tired. That's one sign that I'm going to fall sick.

Fever gone down when I was having my morning meal. But felt like vomitting which I did while I was brushing my teeth. But the thing which I was frustrated at work is that my msn isn't working as per normal. I'm soo frustrated. Kept signing me off when I didn't even do anything. Hate the key port for msn.

Anyway, just wana wish:

I have this colleague, who is in the same company with me. But I despise him from the very first day I entered the company. Why? Let me explain here.

You see, first time I got my job, I was cluesless because I was forced to read the whole manual book on robotics on the early wet morning. And here came an average size guy asking me if I have any problem. Of course I don't. It's a manual. What you expect?

And gotta know that the management praised him for being able to understand the manual at a fast period. Ok. Fine. Whatever. Next, I was asked to do lesson plan by the management. And I didn't know the format at all. So, I asked him thinking he might be able to help me. But you know what he say? "No, can't let you see. You will copy. Do yourself." I was merely asking for the format. He can just delete off his lesson plan and give me a copy of it.

But he didn't. End up I asked this R to give me. She gave me the format. After I've done and a bit unsure, I asked this guy, C, again. He gave me the same answer like the previous. Then, came the presentation. I did badly, while his was ok except not much information. Just a brief one for his but mine was detailed.

Each time I asked this C, he will give me cold shoulder. From there, I knew something was wrong. He anti me soo much. And he will always insult me indirectly. I know, but I kept the frustrationg in my heart. 'Cause, once he noticed my face was bright red he said "Wah, someone angry already. Didn't say about you mah."

No matter what, he will try to twist his words. I understand his meaning. He did say something, once which I really think that he was talking dirty. But he would say "How can you think soo dirty?" I was shocked with his words. I just don't get it what this farking fellow wants from me!

Each time there's a course in the main office, I always prayed that I don't bump into him. He will always make my life miserable.

Anyway, found out that he tried to make me get fired from my boss when the management found out that he use msn messenger in his workplace. Not that I don't use it, but please la. When the management caught you, don't involve another person also. I blocked him from my list, but I'm not very sure if he uses MSN Plus! also. But still, why must he involve me?

Why the fark must he try to get me sack? And for goodness sake, doesn't mean that my close friend gets sack, I too need to be sack. That's an utter bullshit!

How did I know? R told me on Friday when she came to conduct SVA training. And she confessed that C did asked her how she finds me & my close friend and who is better among me, my friend and him? I really don't see the need to compare. Besides we're colleagues. Even if one is not that good, we can help each other. But why must he makes my life miserable? What's his stupid farking motive??

Yesterday was the first time I became an inconsiderate person. Why? Because I was carrying lots of plastic bags after I went to the supermarket, together with the paper bag which consist of my shoes which I sent to the cobbler.

Placed some of the plastic bags near my legs and beside me and I heard one chinese gal saying "So inconsiderate". I felt like telling her "Hello, your race is much more inconsiderate then me ok!" but it will sound too racist. Besides, that's my first time and I'm not going to be inconsiderate to take up two seats. And it really embarrassed me to take up two seats especially during peak hours.

Went home pretty late. 'Cause the bus came late. The funny thing yesterday was that, I'm about to wash face, reached out and found out that I was about to squeeze the toothpaste instead of my cleanser. Gosh, I must be pretty tired yesterday.

Anyway, I'm missing him & Mr. Turtle. *sigh*

Today, unbelievable, get to chat with my beloved Mr. Turtle. Someone mysterious, I should say. Of course my heart leaps and I was excited of course. He really brightens my day.

Anyway, I've been keeping this feelings. Ok, it's not about my personal life. But about something which I yearn to let it go.

You see, I just don't get it why some people are soo extremely idiotic. Firstly, the jerk messaged me yesterday afternoon, asking when am I going to meet him. Of course I'm going to ignore that message. Honestly, I can sensed that this jerk really have mental disruption of meeting girls. This is my opinion.

Next, why some idiotic person can't get the simple instruction and is a computer idiot. No matter how many times I've explained simple stuff on using the computer, this idiotic still don't get it. For example, you teach this person how to copy files from floppy to this drive. And that person told you he/she wants to put in a folder to seperate it from the rest of the files. And you taught that person step by step.

1. Put in floppy. Copy the files.
2. Go to the drive. Create folder and name it.
3. Paste the files.
4. Repeat steps 1 to 3.

After you have done showing them and you ask them whether they can do it, they say its easy but ask you to repeat it again. This goes on for a few times. Fine. Later of the week, you ask the same person whether he/she had done what you taught. The reply was "Oh, very busy. Will do about it. If still not sure, I come and find you." I just smiled but within my heart I was cursing and swearing.

A few months later, the same person came up to you and said "Eh, I forget how to do it. Can you help me again?" What do you expect me to say?? Really frustrating! I just don't get it. Why can't these idiotic people do it straight away? Why must they wait for a few months to try it out and then come up to me and ask me the same bloody questions again?? Might as well they pay me to entertain that kind of service.

Next, I honestly can't stand people who bully me to finish up their work when they know that I'm based at my client's place. For goodness sake, finish up your damn shit and clean it up yourself! Eventhough I'm not the one who is supposed to do all the saving for them as I DO NOT TEACH that particular class.

Next, I really hate UGLY Singaporeans. What I'm trying to say is not people with appearance, but what's inside of them. There are a few factors which we can consider that there are UGLY Singaporeans. Firstly, about the littering. In my previous entry, I've mentioned about inconsiderate Singaporeans who litter everywhere during the Hungry Ghost Festival. Sometimes I felt like taking pictures of those people who litters, especially those people who do it on purpose, and shame them so that the whole nation can see their ugly side.

Next, those bicyclists are in the category of idiotic. Why? Because they are SUPPOSED to give way to pedestrain, NOT ringing their super irritating bell and to ask the pedestrain to give way to them with their stupid bicycle. Haven't the government EDUCATE them that if you ride on bike or bicycle ON THE PATH, you're suppose to give way to two legged human being!

Next, parents with child in pram. I'm not against people who have children. But for goodness sake, do not bring the pram especially in crowded places! Like last Saturday, went shopping with my sister at Geylang. And we noticed at least 10 families brought along pram for their child. And mind you, weekends are always crowded. A big pram can take up to about 2 adults and one child's space.

There are more, but i just can't seem to think now. Above are just my opinions. Your feedbacks are appreaciated.

Not only my back was aching. Almost all my body aches. All thanks to them for making me carrying 119 files from Raffles Place to Sembawang area. I can't sit for more then an hour without moving nor even carrying heavy items anymore *sigh*

Waiting for my Mr. Turtle today. He didn't online. I miss him. Anyway, about my B, he managed to meet up with his mom. I'm glad his mom finally wakes up from coma. I was really worried actually. Didn't want him to lose his mom thou, so I prayed. He told me via sms. And, I'm really scared now. Because B's mom wants to meet me up after she's fully cured because I helped B quite alot.

I really can't take it. My legs hurts me. My arms. My back. My side. *Groans* I badly need a full body massage to ease my suffering.. *sob sob*

Yea I know been awhile since I last update. Was too busy. Hmm, anyway, a bit of recap.

Friday
Damn busy when it's nearly lunch time. Was up and down from 1st level to my level (3rd level) just to meet up with my VP as well as using the comp at the HOD room. Once in awhile, I managed to sit at my own room. But still, busy as ever. Just don't know why Friday is always my busiest day. Oh well, guess that's part of my work. Had to convert some video from laptop to camera to PC. And been finding for the firewire cable that allows me to connect to the PC, but I couldn't find. End up, using one of the teachers computer at the HOD. After converting all that stuff, it takes like 2 hours. Then at the same time, look at the demo done by my students for the SVA. Honestly, too many "Singlish"! (Gals, if you read this, it really means you have to improve your script if you want to win the SVA)

Saturday
Went back to main office. Gotta know there's refresher course for MOS Access (I haven't study yet even after the course! Shit!!) Niwei, met up May at the Douby Ghaut platform, while Fairus woke up upon me reaching office. Haha. Niwei, was told to do some "dealing" to continue the contract. I just sign lor. I want the 50% incentive! But need to do it by 15 Oct. Ok, go go go..

Niwei, after that, walked with Calvin and Fairus to the MRT, before we part off as each one of us taking different sides. As for me, I met up with Nuryanah (Yan) at Bugis. Since I reached like 40 minutes earlier, went to the ladies to ensure my make-up didn't melt badly. Then waited for her while stood beside the poster whereby the lady wearing low hip jeans. Kinda nice thou.

Thought she would be very late, but she reached 4 minutes after our meet up time. Then, we walked to Sim Lim Square since she said that her digi camera was spoilt, but end up was told to go to Peninsula Plaza. Before we made our way there, met up with her cousin since she wanted to buy something from him. Then we went to City Hall via MRT since she's too lazy to walk as she claimed that we're fasting.

Went to Peninsula Plaza to the second level, searched the unit number and suddenly the impression of the company..haiz, how to say? Really lousy company. Why? From outside, you see alot of boxes. There are three people but one reluctantly wants to attend to us when Yan told that her camera have problem.Then the person who attended to us was not customer-friendly. Why? While attending to us, he answered the call. And mind you, he speaks very loud.

Plus, that's not all. He told his friends who were inside the office "Look, I don't understand why they must come here when they have problem with their camera". Upon looking at the warranty card, he said "Why must they put out unit number here? The technical office is at the 17h floor". In order words, he's implying that he's too fed up to attend to customer's product problem.

Then he went out a while, and when he came back, one singh man followed him and talked to him. And he ignored us and continued to talk to him. Each time Yan tried to ask him question, he would like reply the singh man first. I was boilling on the inside. All because of her stupid Sanyo camera, we have to face such people. Haiz..

Then, we walked at City Link. After that, we boarded the East train. Guessed what happened?Some commuters were alighting from the train. Suddenly, this commuter who was about to alight, was pushed by another kiasu alighting commuter, which result her to sort of lean near the door. And non of the boarding passengers even try to alight as all of us were giving way for alighting passengers..Haha..I can't take it and I did laugh out loud. Mwahaha..

Sunday
Went to the mosque. Learn such a meaningful thing, which I think I will post in my multiply instead. After that, went to Prime and accompany my parents to shop for groceries, along with my sister. Can say my sunday was the most relaxing day.

Monday - Wednesday
Busy busy busy at work. That's why no time to update. Had to take care of the video problem which I did on Friday. Why? Can't see the AVI at my VP's PC. 'Cause I burnt it under DV..haha..should be another one. Anyway, gave my HOD the version. Duplicate some CDs, printed some labels which I wasted a lot of labels since I printed at the wrong side.

Then, there's this irritating fellow who kept asking me when to meet him up. And he always wanted to meet me at Bukit Batok (eventhough he lives at Teck Whye). When I asked why, he said "The movie there is better". I was like "Yea right. As if there's one cinema". And it's really ridiculous 'cause my journey from Bukit Batok to my home takes about 1h30mins. And I really hate it. So I told him I can't. Alot of times I told him I cant. Same thing when he asked me my relationship between my B and I, which definitely I wouldnt tell.

And he went on saying "This cannot, that cannot, all cannot". And one day, which was on Tuesday, I was really pissed off with him. Why? When I told him (been countless times I told him I will not meet him at Bukit Batok), he went emotional and started to scold me. When I respond to his msn, he typed "Shut up! You're always like this. This cannot. That cannot. Blablabla" Then, I was like "IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY, THAT'S YOUR BUSINESS!!" And this same irritating jerk will always asked me to call him instead of HIM calling me. Soo ungentleman!

And yesterday, guessed what? I watched something interesting on Get Rea! show which was about possessive lover(PL). This PL, have not yet been in this relationship with this girl. But after a few times the PL met the girl in church, they exchange numbers and the contact was there. PL kept contacting her and smsing her. At first, she was ok with it as it's pretty normal.

But as each day passed by, he gets more possessive as thou they were in the relationship. The more she asked him not to contact her, the more he contacted her. And she had to ignore him and even changed her phone number. Psychitrist mentioned that people like this PL, have some mental illness because their previous relationship failed badly or they had been lonely for quite sometime.

My conclusion? Yea, this jerk that I know, I suspect that he have a mental problem. Eventhough he knew I'm not even single, he kept trying to contact me. It's really freaky and gives me goosebumps. Whole conclusion on PL people?

Didn't update yesterday since I was way too pissed off, thou now I'm a bit better. Anyway, the night before yesterday I argued with someone on the phone. This bloody jerk kept asking me for my picture which I firmly said "No!" The same bloody jerk who asked me to call him and he won't be the one who's calling me since he wanted to save his bloody money on outgoing calls. Argghh!! And the only time he called me, and when I told him can't for certain things (You can't possibly tell everyone about your personal stuff right? Or even everything when you're in a relationship with someone), guessed what?? This bloody jerk simply put down the phone. I was like "WTF!"

No matter how many times he called me yesterday, I refused to pick up eventhough I had lessons with my students in the afternoon. Think I'm soo free to entertain his stupid pleas?? Refused to entertain most of his smses. Go to hell la dey! Stupid idiotic moronic jerk!

Because of him, my morning classes with 8 year old kids were a disaster too. My kids were wondering why I was shouting at them most of the time. Partly because I'm not in the mood. But mostly because they made soo much noise that they are disturbing those kids age 11+ to 12, who were having their Primary School Leaving Exams (PSLE) for duno which paper yesterday.

And when I was waiting for my bus at Ang Mo Kio, this woman suddenly squeezed between me and the seat which was in front of me. She didn't even say excuse me (eventhough I was listening to my radio handphone, I can still hear ok). She merely push my leg. Such and inconsiderate person!

And what really made me pissed off is that my colleague, Paul, I suspect he's the culprit who stole my charger! And definitely I'm going to confront him by asking lots of questions. Arrghhh..I'm soo fed up!

Anyway, spent my afternoon pretty bored yesterday. When I reached home, only something made me happy. Guessed what?
See the picture above? It's Jackfruit fritters!! Woohooaaa. One of my favourites! I know I took it a lil too near, but nah, doesn't matter 'cause I was really tempted by the smell. You know jackfruits have nice aroma right? I was drooling when I took this picture. Hehe. Managed to eat six of them and left a few more for my family members as they went to the mosque to perform prayers.

And this, well been wanting to show this actually. You see the drawings? No, I don't draw on my organizer. One of my students, Tay Min, she drew these turtles claiming one is me, the other one my soul mate and together I have like 4 babies! Ahaha.. Well, she was really bored that day.

Yesterday after the breaking of fast, I felt uneasy. Felt cold on both legs. Told my mom about it and she said probably I'm going to get a fever. So I skipped going to the mosque. By then I was in bed around 7.40pm while listening to my handphone radio. My brother disturbed me saying "So lazy". But I ignored him. And without me knowing, I fell asleep.

I only woke up when I heard an incoming sms and the lights were switched off. I replied and fell asleep again. I'm not really sure what time I woke up. Kept waking up and falling asleep. In the end, I heard my mom closed my bedroom door quietly. And only after 20 minutes later, I got from bed and had a chat with my mom.

Was having trouble to walk b'cause I felt pain in my left thigh. Told my mom and she to take the ointment so that she can massage for me. Well, I quickly took the ointment and rubbed it myself 'cause her massaging could tickle me and when she rub the bruise area, I will be squirming in my seat.

And by then, the bruise can be visibly seen and very bright red. How I got the bruise? Ok, I shall tell the truth. I knocked at the metal bar when I walked towards the window in B's bedroom when he was in the kitchen's toilet when I went to his home early morning yesterday. I don't know what got into me to knock against the metal bar. A gift of remembrance that I should be extra careful perhaps. Hehe..

And this isn't the first time I encounter bruise. The other time was when I was in school and was in the rush, suddenly I bumped into the table corner. Maybe, people should call me bruise pron person. Hehe..

Firstly, before I touch the topic regarding "No Courtesy", I would like to say something here. For those who wanted to read the entry, please skip a couple of paragraphs.

On Sunday morning, just before I woke up at 8.40am, I dreamt about my baby. I dreamt that we gave him to a lady. And I told the lady how to get him in the cage by using his "Cat-cat". And I noticed that the lady do have a cat with nice furry body. When it's time for me to leave my baby with the lady, I cried. And I did felt I was crying 'cause I felt tears on my cheeks in reality. And within that dream, my baby didn't want me to leave him but I just have to. And just now, had a nightmare which I can't recall.

Next, met my B before I went to work. He called me 13 times up till 3+ and called again at about 4.40am when I woke up to have breakfast. I reached work damn late about 8.40am. I had to since he told me that he will not be in Singapore this whole week, no matter how many times I told him not to meet me up in the morning. But, I just went to meet him. Firstly, because he had an accident last week. I didn't mentioned here 'cause my pet's death did cause me some impact in my life as well as my family members. I'm not sure what's the real story but he claimed that he was too sleepy and his car was wrecked (I don't even know he have a car again). Met him because I missed him. I was quite angry within me that he like to keep a lot of things from me which makes me wonder whether I'm his girlfriend or not. It hurts me soo much thinking about this.

Ok, now for the topic.

I'm extremely fed up with some people who have no basic courtesy when it comes to eating. And I don't care what you wana say about this entry. It really makes me damn pissed off when someone who sat beside you started to chomp loudly. What I mean by this is that when the person chew, he /she really feels that it's unnecessary to close their mouth to chew.

And I'm the type of person who will gets really irritated very fast when someone did that. Why? It really feels as thou the person did that on purpose at my ear. No matter how many times I tell the person off, he / she will talk back by saying it's nothing wrong with the way they chew. Urghh..

Next, do you notice that after some people who have a meal, they will burp? This is another factor which I honestly hate most. If the person burp a few times, I guess it should be ok. But what if the person continously burping non-stop? It really gets on my nerve! And not only that. What if the person who burp, produce a very stinky burp?Urghh..Gross! And to them it's nothing as it's a call for "nature". But to me, it's purely disgusting and bloody rude. Giving me smell those stinky burps, which comes frm your stomach which produce hydrochloric gas and carbon monoxide and stuff like that really makes me feel like puking.

So tell me. How do you tell people off when this two factors - burping and chomping of food loudly ? For me, it's kind of tough. But honestly, if you are the person who is part of these two categories, please for goodness sake, mind your manners.