This is the second time this month someone been passing my number around. Why must someone make my life miserable?? And why must I encounter this every year? Urgghh..

First time around last week if I'm not mistaken when this guy called me but I didn't answer since I was in the toilet. Here's how the message goes:

Me: Who is tis?
Unknown: Wana know you as a friend.
Me: How you get my number?
Unknown: I get your number through hi5.
(Thinking hard..I didnt give anyone since last March)
Me: Dun lie to me. I hate liars. Who give it to you?
Unknown: Ok ok. Got it from friend. But can't tell you who. So can be friends?
Me: Better tell me first before I tell you whether can or not.
Unknown: Really cant tell. I just asked him if he know any girls age 22.
(Fed up because he didn't want to tell thou i've suspected someone)
Me: Even if you dun wan to tell, I have a strong suspect who your friend might be. For your own info, I'm not EVEN 22. And if you want to know someone and get her as your steady, 4get it. I'm not even single.
Unknown: Oh. Sorry. Dun wan bother you in a relationship. You have any to intro?
Me: No. And tell your friend to quit giving out my number. Didn't he know the meaning of honesty?
Unknown: okok, i will tell him off.

Bloody hell right? Sickening moron. What's more, yesterday someone also message me claiming that i chat with him the previous night at MiRC. Tell me, how am i going to chat when my home computer broke down? & please la. I've already stayed away from chatrooms except MSN. That's the only thing i use for chatting with people i know. First, i've received a greeting message from him. Here's what he message me:

Me: Who is tis?
Unknown 2: Richard. Would like to get to noe u as a fren.
Me: How do you get my number??Unknown 2: I got your number from the melayu chat at irc. Do u chat.
(Started to fume with anger)
Me: Wen did you get? No I dun chat. Tell me truthly. How you get?
Unknown 2: Last nite i was chatting. Her gal nick of rose gave me her hp number.
Me: Bloody hell! Who the hell is that?? I didnt even chat nor give my number out! Which chatline did you go to??
Unknown 2: MiRC melayu channel. Cool it sweetie.
Me: 4 what i know, i didnt touch mirc for 4 years. And that person who claimed to be me must be a guy. And for your own info, i'm happily attach with sumone
Unknown 2: Ok. I went to chat to find myself a nice gal to be my life stead. You know of anyone can intro
Me: No. Dun have.

Really dammit! If I know who's the devil one spreading my number around, I'll bash that person up for sure. First, that bloody damn idiot doesn't know a lot about me & tried to pose as me. Get a life farker! If that poser is a guy, you better go and have your dick remove!

Argghh..I'm soo bloody mad! I'm gonna curse that person to death. You've been warned.

P.S: Apologises for using such words. But I'm trying to get the message to those morons & others who intend to give out my number.

i duno whether should i venture (hope this the correct word to use) into music. It's been my dream to learn music. I know I've been telling people I do not listen to music. Haha. Well, it's just a little white lie. Cause, I do have passion for music. Well, not for singing thou. Cause my voice can't make it (I'm telling ya the truth ok).

Now, why am I telling all this here? Because, it happens that my room that I'm in (that is my workplace "hidden" corner, well not exactly hidden but at least I'm not that disturbed by my fellow colleagues) have Creative prodikeys which looks like this:



And i too have new colleagues. Cool right? Cause they are using my room to teach kids music. The first time they gave me the scores, i was "Damn, can i remember what notes are these in?" I do admit that I did checked out the notes online, but only a few like the E & F notes.

When i went home, i tried out at Macintosh under GarageBand but instead of using the keyboard, i had to use the cursor to press the virtual keyboard. Not only that, when i slept that night, i dreamt of reading the notes. Next morning went to work, took out the scores and jot down the notes.

When they arrived, showed them since they wanted to photocopy to give the students. They were surprised that I could remember. They told me I could try out when I'm free. Well, honestly i did try out. Which is a lot easier since the keys are all labelled.

But i could not play according to normal speed. Cause, i just started using. It's like a piano. I know. But I hope, i can play at a normal speed by end of the year, maybe? But, like i say, one of my dream is coming true, which is to play a piano.

This the very first time i'm displaying his picture on my blog. Initially i didn't want to.. But, only God knows how much i'm missing him now. Ever since he left for his degree, i did emailed him of course. But not meeting him makes my life feels uncomfortable. Wat's more, it's a torture not meeting him for about 6 months.

I mean, i'm used to not seeing him quite often because of his work whereby he had to be outstationed frequently. But that's at least once every two weeks i got to meet him. But now..haiz..i dun really know what to say. But i believe that if we are fated together, then we'll be together in the future, which i really do hope to be with him forever. It doesn't matter that he's getting more tanner and darker then me. But it's just that..how to say..each time i meet him, my heart will leap just like the first time i met him about 2 yrs 5 mths ago.

Tell me what am i going to do when he's not in singapore? But i can't brush away the loneliness that i feel whenever i'm alone, whether i'm at my own desk doing some work or when i'm at home watching tv or even seeing other couples together. I do get jealous when i see other people happy when their love ones are nearby. And i hope he too feels the same way as me.

You know I've been referring last Friday as the big day right? Thank god it had ended. Phew! Last Thursday I had an OT for 1 hour also, despite doing it on Wednesday. My supervisor asked me to tone down a bit of the colour for the brochure but end up he decide that the original is better. Anyway, besides doing that, I was concentrating to do the offline webpage as well as drawing map of the school layout for the different events at different venues.

The map I managed to finish up within that day for about 30minutes before showing him. My phone was continuously ringing from my supervisor. I was soo stressed up as I didn't have time to convert a few .swf files to 1 swf files per class. So, on Thursday night, I tried out with my brother's help. Luckily my brother could vaguely remember. Phew! After he taught me, I chose a few best flash files before combining them together according to class. I only managed to combine 1 class for this year.

Went to sleep and next day, while I was on my way to work, message my colleague (I'm supposed to help him convert for display during Open House). Met my colleague at the General Office and he told me to put into Microsoft Powerpoint. I told him if I managed to complete my other tasks. Since that Friday was the Open House, the school ended about 11am. When I was about to go to my room to continue with the offline page, my supervisor who happened to be in the General Office also told me to print 20 coloured brochures and 20 coloured maps.

There's a class at my room and that loud hailer teacher was in there (she basically shouts at students and the students wldnt even care with her). Anyway, as soon as I finish signing my attendance online for my company, my supervisor called me. He asked me "Who's that shouting?" I told him that there's a class in there and he told me to print 500 greyscale brochure and 500 greyscaled map using laser jet which is in my room and to take the newspaper in The Straits Time about the school introducing Interactive Whiteboard.

I went down and took the coloured paper to print brochure as well as newspaper article which I then went to the Staff Resource Room to print the newspaper before scanning. Went back to my room and completed printing 20 coloured brochure and maps.

I just started printing greyscale map when my supervisor entered and told me to print the brouchure in A3 size also. My mind went completely messy with lots of things to do with such little time left. He then told me to add some words to the banners which my company sent the 5 designs. I had to add text to 7 banners. He then left the room.

After a while, my supervisor called me and asked how to change the width of the brochure without changing the height. In instance I knew my supervisor didn't unchecked one option. Told him I wld be in his room in a while. Before that I called my colleague and asked him if there's any printer which can print A3 size. The only printer they have was at Mr. Ong's place or in the Staff Resource Room.

Helped my supervisor to edit the width without resizing the height. Then I told him that my printer cld not print A3 size but there's one at the Staff Resource Room. He then told me that he wld print the banners and asked me to carry on to do my work. By then I was in the mid of printing brochures which were both sides. Imagine clicking in the back and next button in the wizard for 500 times? There's no option for me to type 500 at one time unlike other programs. Even if I use Adobe Photoshop Elements, I cant print both sides. Tried that already.

After I finish printing 1080 copies of greyscale and coloured for both maps and brochures, I went to the General Office to let them fold the brochures (Initially my supervisor asked me to fold them, but upon seeing I have other things to do since I’ve told him when I met him first early morning in the Office). Then I realized I forgot to burn 3 images which I had scanned on Thursday for Miss Shannon. Passed to her when I was in Level 2. By then it was noon. Made myself a cup of hot coffee to keep myself awake.

While having karipap for lunch, I was doing 2 things. 1 was to continue editing the offline website and also combining the flash files. I didn't finish my karipap. About 3pm, my colleague asked me how was it. (initially I wanted to call him but I realized that he’s performing Friday prayers). Anyway, I told him I could only do at the actual Mac as the file would be big.

I told him I wld contact him when I’m done. By then, I had finished the offline webpage but I did told him I cant put a link for 1 as it’s in DVD when we insert the format. Haiz. Should have copy the file. I forgot to copy after the escape the DVD player. About 4pm, my supervisor called me to print 200 greyscaled brochures and maps. I was like "What?" He told me to be quick since the school had been flooded by guests. (Know how come it’s more then 500 people? Coz, it's Racial Harmony cum Open House with Fun & Food Fair. Not forgetting Co-Host is Canberra CC also.) I was like "Damn!" I printed out and went to Staff Resource Room to print out but failed. Thanks to someone who made the printer out of order. No choice, I went to the printing room and asked Kak Sal if I could print there. She was ok with it and told me to wait a while since she was busy doing something for the principal. I told her ok but I'll print the map first.

Well, actually, on my way down, this teacher told me to be in the ship (She told me a few days before Friday that I'm on duty at the Library Ship) I told her I cant be there yet since I’m doing some work for my supervisor. Thou she insisted I told her I have to settle more important stuff first & left. She sounds as thou I've to obey her. Come on la. I have 2 legs, 1 body & 2 hands. How am I supposed to be in 2 places at one time? Anyway, my supervisor’s instruction is much more important cause I do not want my appraisal to be bad when he gave feedback to my company.

After finished printing, I called my supervisor and gave to him (Not fair, they all changed their clothes..) I then went to find my colleague and told him I can’t convert the files to .swf but I had already combine them together in .fla. Followed him and showed him where the files were.

Then went to my room. Washed my mug, tidy up a bit before my colleague called me. I told him I wld be done to tell him which file. Passed them the powerbook charger and showed them which folder before I headed towards the ship. Well, no one’s there yet. There's supposed to be a tour. So I switched on some of the Mac and sat down waiting. 3 gals came and asked if they cld use the internet. I was half hearted but I just say yes. Wahh..they took quite a long time about 1hour to use. Then some students as well as alumnis came in and just used the Macs to play games.

I was frustrated of course. And me against them? I doubt they wld listen. A few group tours arrived and I did show them and explained a lil. Untill it’s full house whereby I cant even use the Mac for demo. I told one of the students I’m too helpless. Since I’m in the library area oso, I went down and lucky for me, I told my colleague to help me. Told her my problems and she told me to print "Not for public usage" and she went up to tell them off.

When I came back, she told me it's settled. I thanked her and to my surprised, those using the Mac made t heir way out. I told the 3 gals to finish up quickly since they used the Mac for too long. I then pasted the signs one the glass door, on glass window and table. In an instance, the ship feels like ghost ship. Too quiet whereby I could hear the noises on the ground floor.

Since I’m at the top of the building & the area that I'm on duty, could see the parade square where all the Indonesian performance and food stalls were held. I pulled one block and sat down to watch while waiting for the next tour. I noticed one stall always have a long queue. I wondered what that stall sells. I saw teh tarik stall, someone buy putu mayam. Then I went down to the library and saw a parent volunteer. She told me that the stall sells satay. I was like "What? No wonder.." I cant join the fun. Just looked from far. Haiz. The parent suggested I get someone to buy if I want them. I told her never mind since I do not know what time I could have my dinner. They asked me whether I had my dinner and whether I wanted a break. Told them I cant since I fear next tour group wld come in out of a sudden and no one to attend to their questions or to inform them a bit of what they had to know.

I went back to my area and continue watching from the window the Indonesia Kuda Kepang. It was really scary whereby after they showed the dancers dance on the cardboard kuda, another performance whereby 2 people under a cloth and the 1st person where a mask which they tried to look like a horse or smthg. Also there’s sumone wearing a mask dancing also. My heart thumped faster. I mean not only the mask looks scary. It felt as thou they were using spirits. I duno. Thinking back, it’s like im standing facing the person who wore the ugly mask. Last tour ended about 8pm. We waited for the GOH to tour till about 910pm when my colleague told me to come down or she'll locked me up. I quickly shut down the remaining Macintosh and asked her why the GOH not touring? She told me he came to watch performance as well as to eat.

Before that, about 8pm, I had my dinner, which my colleague got it for me since I told them they didn’t offer me anything. Dinner was free which was nasi briyani. Packed my stuff in my room and signed out my attendance before bumping into my TA. He told me again that the Powerbook still in the room. I told him I cld either bring home and bring back on Monday or I could leave it in the OM’s room or he could keep for me. Followed him to the venue where he placed back the eMacs since the labs were closed. He then told me that it’s ok and I could go home without worrying the powerbook too much.

On way out, stopped and chat with one of the security guards. He said lots of people. And I told him yea but I didn’t join the fun. Neither him too..oh well..By the time I went out of the school. It was about 930pm. And I was like a tired zombie with my back and legs felt as thou they are about to fell apart. Overall, im glad the event was over and my daily tasks back to normal.

stress & tiredness..hehe..I know what you were thinking. It's not what you think, ok? Oh well.. Anyway, been extremely busy this week. Going home late this week. My mom was like "How come you always come home late?" I was like "Mom, I have to do some work for this Friday (which is tomorrow). Told ya right there will be Open House & I have OT till 9+ or 10pm"
But my mom was very blur when I told her that again early morning just now. Haiyoo..Ok, can't blame her cause sometimes she wasn't even paying attention to what I told her. Never mind.

A lot of things I need to do which I feel soo pressurized. I've 3 important tasks to complete today (Omigod! I just started doing 1 yesterday & just received another task yesterday).
How am I going to draw a map? I wonder..Hmm..Can I use Photoshop or should I draw, then scanned and then edit using Photoshop? Which is better? Also, can someone tell me how am I suppose to combine a few .swf files into 1 .swf? Can someone tell me how to do all that by today?
I know I do not possess supernatural powers whereby I can do it within a few minutes (Hello, I'm still human being..hehe..in case you think I'm some kind of super heroine..lol)
I called some of my friends up and they were like "Err..I don't know also" And I'm short of time! Guess I'm going home late today again. (Well, at least can claim time-off in lieu later on).

I nearly lost my temper on Monday (if I'm not mistaken), around 4+pm. Too many things, too little time (I've already expected all this..but I guess, my foul mood was switched on, that day..It always happen every month..you know what I mean). But I like that kind of challenge. Keeps me going.

But the thing is that each time I reached home, I'm beat. Battery flat. Have to recharge. Thought of waking early morning to continue doing work at home. But I guess my body still needs to recharge and my eyes refuse to be awake. Like the other time, I was lying down on my back staring at the TV show and my mom was somewhere near me, I didn't even hear my phone rang (apparently phone was in bedroom). & my mom was like "Your phone!" Gosh! I guess I'm really too tired. If only I can receive a good massage, I'll be much happier than today.. hehe