The teenagers in school really do not have better things to do. Hmm. Now that they find something interesting to tease me, all thanks to my colleague for telling them that I don't wish to see the photo of the guest of the recent speech day (-_-")

And there's this educator which I dislike, been too persistant. Oh gosh. She's really a troublesome person. I'm not suppose to touch those stuff and yet she insist. Tiring of her persistant ways, I informed my supervisor to which he talked to her directly. Thank Allah for that. If she continue to do it this way in the future, really I will be a lot of pressure =/

Anyway, we won the castle again =P been a month since we lost the castle and right now, I'm hoping that the launcher isn't going to take place any time sooner as I really dont wish to miss the cs (T_T)

Oh and I found a way to obtain mp3 =P Yipee~! Nice. But the thing is that I dont know what is the latest songs nowadays =/ Bummer.

My dear has just cut his hair. Boy, I'm missing this man of mine =/

Been wanting to blog but it seems that I'm unable to update either at work or at home.

Anyway, last Saturday went out with Kakak to Downtown East via taxi. The taxi driver from SMRT was soo damn $%@#. He could drive using using the Old Tampines Road and to the expressway which is nearer. Instead, he made a U-turn and tried to go near Ubi to enter KPE. He made wrong turns and we had to pay an extra $4. And he pretend to be stupid by asking "Where do you want me to exit?" I hate this type of taxi driver. They should know where to exit and which route is the fastest way to the passenger's destination. Dumb. These type of drivers are really dumb. Trying to rob us even in broad daylight.

Anyway, since Kakak was pissed off, we alighted near the traffic light instead of alighting inside. Just as I got out of the taxi, I heard a screeching sound and *BAM*! The car which is on the left side of the taxi which I just alighted hit the car in front. The car plate from the car which hit the front car came out from the car was badly damaged. The front car didn't suffer much damage unlike the hitter. Since that route is a 2 lane, I wonder why the hitter drove at such a high speed. I managed to glance at the traffic light. And apparently it just turned orange. Therefore, I can conclude that the driver in the front car was not at fault. Anyway, we didn't stay to watch.

Made our way to Hei Sushi and had our late lunch. I was pretty full and yes the sushi ain't that great by it's edible. Therefore I'm giving it like 2.45 over 5 stars.

Walked around Downtown East and apparently, there's NHG family day. We saw Haizad (is that his name?) the actor who acted out in 2x5 Dol at McCafe.

Anyway, for work wise is alright. I really need to backup. I just don't know where to start. Too many things and too many petty things which the educators can do it themselves, instead they prefer wasting 5 minutes waiting for us rather than doing it themselves when the matter can be solve within 3 seconds.

And it was a busy week.

Today, was finally the speech day. Only 2 rehearsals ( I just dont get it why they have to do rehearsal on how to walk, how to receive prizes.) And yesterday's rehearsal ain't that great as they said that my side which is the control room ain't doing a perfect job. Try doing it yourself and you ain't getting it perfect either.

They don't want to see us clicking instead they just want it to be auto. Fark la. Think it's soo easy?? I've told many a times that when using technology, it ain't perfect. Yet, they don't listen. Pfffttt....!! I just don't understand. Why must they complain and complain when my supervisor didn't comment on anything? NOBODY IS PERFECT OK??!! Next time, do it yourself! Fark you la. Comment here and there. Don't even feel the pressure on doing it. If you're commending and not doing the whole thing, it may seem easy. But the one controlling and doing every thing is under alot of pressure. We still need to think if we didn't do a good job, we will get screwed. Either way, whether we do a good job or not, still we get screwed. It's just not fair.

I shall make a request to my supervisor to let HER learn controlling. Let her feel the pressure.

And like I say, so what if you're an educator. Doesn't mean you're good when it comes to technology.

Put that aside.

I just got my belated birthday gift from Kakak. Tada~!





Hehe. Tau je I need a new wallet. Thank you very much.

It was a fast celebration yesterday. Made my way to meet my dear Ewanz. I know I did mentioned that I'm unable to celebrate. But, i wasn't expecting a celebration. Initially was to go to the green provider with him.

Got a free umbrella after my dear Ewanz kept bugging them if there's free gift for my birthday.

Then, he brought me to Swensen. Had our dinner and he ordered a birthday ice cream.


Shared with him and we were out of the restaurant within 45 minutes and making our way home. And of course, Abah ain't happy (-_-")

And once again, to those who wished me yesterday, a big thank you.

It's a tiring day yesterday at work. And i just had to take a nap at the out-of-bounds lab for about 15 mins or so. But before that, I found my colleague napping at the other lab, to which he feel kind of embarassed till he didn't lift up his face.

March holiday passed by soo fast =/

And I guess not much things have been done *sigh*

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The day has finally arrived.


Birthdays should make one happy right? But for me, on the eve of my birthday, just like 2 hours before the strike of midnight, it brought me tears.

I was out with dear Ewanz to settle his internet connection. Trying to see which other service provider is good besides the one he used. We almost signed up for the red provider but apparently, we got to know that we need to pay more if we used the 50Gb that they give for free. And 2 years using the green provider seems like long. But, even if the dongle for the green provider is good, why not, right?

Anyway, reached home about 10.10pm and Abah ain't happy. Both of us can't talk to each other. For me, it seems that he's raising his voice and his face reaction shows an angry face. But for him, he's just talking to me nicely.

Eventhough I know I've to be at work early the next working day, if I don't mind staying out late, for me personally, I don't see why he should make a big fuss about it. I already told that to Mama when I was jobless.

He's angry because I smsed Mama and not calling her to inform that I'm going out. Again, this seem as a big fuss to him. I just don't get it.

He even commented its good that I'm staying at home on Saturday and not going out. And he said "Engkau, lepas abis keja, balik. Jangan nak merambu keluar. Takde faedah. Dulu tiap-tiap hari Sabtu kau keluar balik sampai malam-malam buta".

And from my point of view, it seems like I can't bloody go out at all. I'm already 24. WTF does he want from me??

Even when I mentioned I'm 24, he will say "Da besar. Gaji besar jadi nak lagak??"

When I mentioned that I'm meeting a friend, his reaction? "Nak kena jumpa?? Tak boleh bebual pat telefon??"

But when I'm using the phone, he will say "Tak abis-abis songeh pat phone sampai bill melambung??"

And if I stay at home, Mama will say "Engkau lebih baik keluar dari duduk pat rumah. Menyemak aje tak buat pape." (eventhough I did do housework earlier)

And when I mentioned that I went out to celebrate birthday, he seemed to raise his voice when he said "Birthday birthday. Tak payah celebrate birthday! Buat doa selamat sudah!"

They never celebrate my birthdayor even a doa selamat since I was primary school nor is there a birthday celebration organised by them.

My siblings especially Kakak asked me why I'm soo defensive? Why shouldn't I be? I have my rights to have contacts with friends and to go out to have human bonding or sociallising. And I don't think its wrong of me to think that I should have my rights to socialise.

Everything seems soo wrong. It makes me feel soo inhuman.

And I'm suppose to have double celebration as I'm also born in Rabiul Awal. Oh well.

Thank you to those who have wished me.

And I would like to wish my kuzin Hidayah and kuzin Lin a happy belated birthday which falls on 16th March; to Zakiah & Faith(both are my primary school friends), a happy belated birthday which falls on 14th March; to Zeera, happy belated birthday whose birthday falls on 18th March and to whoever else I missed, a happy birthday especially to March babies.

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Been awhile since I last post.

Work is still the same. I don't know where to begin when things keep on pilling.

Abah and Mama went Terengganu last Friday night and came back yesterday midnight.

Met my dear hubby Ewanz last Saturday. Been awhile since we last spend time together. I really miss this man of mine =)

I'm totally worn out yesterday as well as today. Had to assist as there's NDP rehearsal at work and I've to play the music as and when they want. Some of the kids are totally useless. They should be at least proud for being able to perform. Oh well.

And I was pissed at work today as the vendor who repaired my items which I've sent, didn't call to inform that he would be sending the items. I was totally busy and had no choice but to send my colleague down to attend to the matter. And this isn't the first time. It's the third time (-_-") Pffttt..!

2 more days and I doubt there's even a real celebration. Thou I'm expecting only a handful or a couple of friends (maybe) to remember. I'm ok with it thou. To be honest, I never have a celebration before, as far as I can remember.

A week has past. So many things happened.

And I realised that I'm always feeling tired at the end of the day. Too many times I've been walking up and down the school, which is a good thing as I can lose a bit of weight if I kept on doing that, thou my feet will feel hurt.

And really its very irritating when people doesn't know your jobscope. Grr...! It's just sooo frustrating!

Anyway, Kakak showed adeq and I last Saturday about this Korean guy. He has his own site in youtube and is extremely proud of his singing, except erm, I guess it will be better for you to judge yourself =P




And another one =P



It's meant to be a joke =P

Anyway, I'm missing my dear hubby Ewanz =/

10 more days....oh boy...!

This week itself, is pretty hectic thou I just started working. Changing after nearly 5 months of my routine is pretty challenging since the last 5 months, I didn't really move about much.

Solutions solutions solutions ... is what I really need to think about. To change the system here, to make others follow my system and to keep track of all the records that I have systematically. Boy, it sounds easy but to think of solutions and apply to make it work is extremely difficult.

And I've to constantly remind myself not to get involve in too technical stuff. I can't get my hands dirty. Mine is basically should be more to paper work and brains. And I've to make the TA who is coming back soon to follow my system as *ehem* I could say items have been found missing from work.

It's pretty scary to hear that they made police report after it was found missing. And I don't wish to get myself into that state. I badly need ideas. Did research but not all can be applied. It might sound logical for some of the solutions but not practical when it comes to the situation that I'm in.

And I forgot to bring my shawl to work. Bummer. No wonder I'm always feeling cold in the morning as most of the time I'll be spending my time at my work desk.

Speaking of that, I've to clean the workroom which is currently in a sorry state. Rubbish, bags, broken stuff, etc are found scattered all over the place. Argh! When am I going to find the time? I caught 2 silverfish among a stack of papers and 2 new logbooks when I was rummaging through the cabinets and drawers.

On the other hand, I sensed some similarity in my current workplace and my previous client. Highly depend on people whereby those little things, they could solve themselves. But supervisor is quite nice. Really.

And it seems that he's pretty busy. I suspect that he might be aiming to be the like my previous. Oh boy :s

And judging by what he mentioned to me, seems like I've no way to escape, perhaps. I don't know. Only time will tell me.

And it's freaking boring that I'm actually going home straight after work each day. Boring for me but my parents are happy with that. Boy, I find as thou I didn't get to see the "world". But on the other hand, well I do feel tired with all those walkings (it doesn't stop. And it hurts my feet as most I'm wearing heels) since the first day at work. Too many things that need my attention. But, if I could actually shed like 1 kilo within 1 month, I'm more than content. Lol.

Ok, back to work now.

14 more days...

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First day at work? Sleepy! Gosh. And I'm still sleepy now. Slept about 130am yesterday after ironing my clothes. And tonight I've to think what to wear tomorrow. Boy, headache. Why can't we have a standardize "uniform" ?

I was told to make a system where people will follow by signing in and out, whether its for the staff or the kids. One of the vendors even told me to relax. *sigh* I know teenagers nowadays are not like teenagers in the past, or even my time. It's totally different.

I kept reminding myself that I'm doing it for 6 months. But sometimes when I overhead them sau that, it makes me want to think twice. Oh well.

And I'm really shagged. Wore high heels and I didn't know I've to walk around for quite a bit. My toes are pretty sore actually =/

I just feel like sleeping now.

Tomorrow will be my first day at work. I should be happy after trying hard for almost 5 months. But am I? Well, unfortunately I'm not happy as there isn't much benefits. But, I'm really desperate as I have bills to pay. I can't possibly ask my parents to pay for me.

I promised myself, this will be the last. After this, I've to really find one which really give me ample benefits that make me happy. Just like 2 of my ex-colleagues, they are extremely content with their current employers (government bodies).

Anyway, seems like my parents ain't that happy. I know they want the very best for their children but please, give me a break. I'm really feeling suffocated here. And for goodness sake, I'm almost 24, yet I can't do what I want to do. Pfffttt...!

I'm thinking, should I get a second job also. I don't know. Just that when I see that I knock off work and going home straight for most of the working days might make me feel bored.

So stress *sigh*

I miss my Ewanz =/

I miss my babes =/

18 more days....

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