I know I didn't post anything for the past 2 days. Reason? I don't know. By the time I knocked off from work, it's already 6+pm. Anyway, he haven't call me yet. Perhaps he's too tired. I know he will call me one of these days. So, patience is all I need. Hopefully he isn't that tired around end of the week. Hopefully...

Nothing much at work. Finished my links. I took like a few weeks to complete it. Gosh The stupid portal is still down. Just don't get it why they took ages just to complete it. *sigh* Planned what I'm supposed to do today but ended up I'm doing something else. Supervisor asked me to edit the diagram as well as 4 more diagrams. Gee, till now I've not yet finish.

Anyway, been meeting up my bebeh Shasha since Monday. And, our usual AMK Port. Tee Hee. Someone from TrueYoga called. And, gosh this fellow really persistent to ask me to sign up for credit card under CitiBank. Urgh. And, I didn't catch his name. But I've suspected that he's a foreigner. Told him I didn't want to sign up for credit card.

His reply? "Oh, why not you just apply and use the CreditCard for TrueYoga only. And you're paying cheaper like $52 cheaper". Ni anak, betul tak faham English eh? Told him that I didn't want and he was like "Ok la. Never mind." And he called me twice ok. Just because today they have promotion. Urgh. Whatever..

Ok, getting ready to go out to see Shasha again very soon.. Wee~!

PS: Don't know what happen to the slide pictures. Will get it correct by tomorrow.

I was really feeling exhausted. I know I should go to bed now. But, I've to type this out. Can't wait for tomorrow.


Yey! Yipiee~! I'm so the suka. I didnt know actually. Because my phone was ringing previously. Thought my friend called again, and I just finished washing my plates. Chatted with him in my room.

Syg, I'm sorry I tak msg U. My prepaid tinggal $0. I really want to msg U tadi.

It's ok dear =) muackz. Suddenly, I felt as thou my life was brightened up. Told him that I thought he didn't want to call me again.

Sapa ckp? I busy dear. Sampai umah vry late. Penat uh.

Ok, my mistake for hoping too much. I'm sorry. Should always keep that in my mind. And yes, I'm missing him very much.

Bila nak mit i?

When u're really free ok dear? Muackz. Perhaps I'm not meeting him this week either. Thou the feeling of missing him is so unbearable, I just have to put it aside so that it wouldn't bother me that much. I'll try but I can't promise.

Chatted with him some other stuff. I miss our conversations, I miss meeting him, his touch and everything. But, at the meantime, I shall try not to hope too much.

Yesterday, it was really a hectic and tiring day. Woke up at 4.35am after Mama woke me up (i didn't hear my alarm at 4.15am). Lucky I slept about 1030pm the night before. Got myself ready and messaged Fairus. Waited for him opposite my block before we fetched Rahman at Serangoon MRT.

Upon reaching Clarke Quay, those clubbers were looking at us as thou we had lost our mind. It was about 5.55am that time. There's one person was walking swaying from one side to another and his friend was trying to stablise him.

Downloaded the Zap application to test out whether the Zap works. About 715am, I was at the Registration counter. Justin helped me and I helped him after I finished my registration. After which, me and Elson waited for Fiz at the taxi stand. Went to Kampung Glam by taxi and it was raining heavily. Posted the Zap codes at 3 designated areas. After which, we saw Yvonne and Cellamie.

Went for breakfast and back to KG. And we waited. While waiting, we had conversations, joking around as well as pictures. Kinda bored. Projek Cerpen was on. We smelt the food, we saw the people who participated as well as the host and the Suria people.

The first team arrived at about 11.20am. The second team was the most happening as they brought wigs and film themselves while filming the surroundings of the place. Anyway, fast forward, we had to wait for about 40 minutes for the last team (20th) to arrive.

After which, we took out the zap code and hopped into Yvonne's car. Went to Virtualand (about 230 we reached), i was quite disappointed with the design. Met up again with Fairus and Rahman. After which we made our way out to meet Viknash who had been waiting for us at Parkway Parade.

Shared our experience and other stuffs at Banquet. After the sharing session, we proceeded to McCafe to continue till about 8.30pm and we made our way home.

Upon reaching home, Mama asked if I wanted to follow them to JB to visit my aunt. I wanted to, but i was dead tired. My legs nearly collapsed. Told my parents that I might woke up late, and they were ok with it. Thanks.

Woke up at 1015am (after I woke up at 7+ to bid my parents off), I was feeling bored. The melancholy strucked me while msn-ing with Shasha. Yes, I'm feeling emo-ing now. He haven't called me past few days. And yes I miss him. And it's unbearable.

I know babe you don't want me to feel melancholy. And I know I had hoped high again. *sigh* I just have to follow with the flow. If we meant to be together, then be it. Till then, no matter who comes along, I will never find that chemistry that I have with imp. I'm missing him badly.....

Just like any other days, I'm still sleepy as usual. And I slept late again at 2am. *faints* Yes, I do feel different. Feel like sleeping and dozing off anytime. Did doze off a few times just now and I saw people caught me dozing off. It wasn't intentional. It just happened.

Been busy throughout the whole morning. After my breakfast, went to set up the computers for the NEQuiz again. After the quiz ended, pack up and went for my CCA. Held discussion with the kids. At last, I do find that there's some progression =)

And went for a short meeting, which I need to bring the lappie back to school by Monday. =( By about 1210pm, had to set up the computers again for the Quiz. Urgh! By the time I finished everything it was nearly 2pm. Lucky I took 10 minutes of lunch time. And didn't have a break at all. *sigh* Seriously, I didn't have enough rest. By the time I sat back at my table, I was super dead tired. Nearly doze off when 3 teachers came in for their discussion. I had to abandon my idea of taking a nap. *sigh*

And I was struggling to do some documentation in excel when I'm dead tired plus sleepy. But, a few minutes before 5pm, I was freshed again. I know that I will for sure fell asleep as soon as I sat on the bus towards home.

And, tomorrow's the day. The big disaster day which I've to be at the Clarke Quay by 6am. Arrghhh!! Better print out the things I need to say for tomorrow. I'll be at Virtualand around 630pm. Bringing home cammie for tomorrow. Hurhur!

Met up with Viknah yesterday for dinner. Our sharing session and seriously, I find that the whole thing was a crap. Now I understand and gets the whole picture. Right now, we've to think of Plan B for this Saturday since Vik might not be able to be there this Saturday. Thanks for dinner Vik.

Otw home, I fell asleep. People around me, gosh, I really hate the body odour. But, I still managed to sleep till my destination. And I realised that, once I opened my eyes. I can't possible rushed down of the double decker bus. So, I alighted at the next stop instead. What's happening to me?

I'm so damn tired. Mom cooked Nasi Briyani yesterday. I was too full, too tired and too sleepy yesterday. Went to bed about 2 hours later, which was nearly 12am. Mama said "Rabak nah ngantuk?" after she woke me up at 6am today. Gee, I just don't know.

Brought Nasi Briyani from home after Mama helped me to heat it up and packed for me. Thanks so much Mama. Muackz. Headbanging while I was on the bus to work. *gasp* I'm really dead tired!

And today, at work. I was slacking after helping Peck Har with NEQuiz. While waiting for one of the class to arrive just now, I managed to doze off for about 15 minutes since the class came late about 1 hour after the last class. And, I maanged to doze off again at about 4+pm.

At least, I'm feeling a bit fresh now. But still sleepy. Gee, the tiredness and sleepyness is really too great. And, I'm still having my 4th day stomach cramp now (x_x)

Wasn't in the mood in the early morning. Tired and sleepy. Yea, slept late again last night at 1am. Gee, all because of the stomach cramp.

Oh, and thanks Abah for the potato chips. Muackz. Wee~! It's all because I told them that I wanted to eat potato chips and happened that Abah and Mama wanted to go to the nearby shop last night. (Eventhou I didn't finish it up yet. Tee Hee..)

I was in the midst of waiting for the P6.2 kids to settle down in the lab, when suddenly the phone rang at 11.38am. Was wondering who the caller was...until....
Wee~! So happy! Heard his sleepy voice asking me what I'm doing. This part da sinking, so I exit from the lab and communicate with him outside.

I terbangun seh dear =(

Cian my syg. Muackz!

U, I'm sorry about yesterday bila U called.

It's ok uh. I understand. Somehow, he did noticed my disappointment yesterday after what his brother said. And it perhaps it bothered him yesterday. And he accidentally left his phone at work yesterday :x And he's worried. And I'm worried too. (but, he memorised my number, that's very sweet. As for me, I can't memorised xP). Told him "I rindu u ok."

U bedek. U tak miss i

I felt as thou my heart committed suicide. How can he possibly say that? "Asal u ckp gitu =( "

Mmg betul U tak rindu I. Sebab I rindu U. Bluek. Muackz!

Wee~! He made me weak in the knees. I'm sinking and blushing and melting at the same time (^_^) Muackz.

Told him a few things. Told him about this Saturday and my weird + nonsense dream which I had a few days back after he told me that he woke up after he dreamt about Giants. Ahakz. Cute la. And the rest of the conversations are extremely mushy. Ahakz. But to summarise it all, he's addicted to me. And so do I (^_^)

He planned to come down during the school holidays and to be with me. Sweet la syg. But, ti dearie tired uh. And he doesn't mind but I'm concerned uh.

Kan best if Sunday U turun, leh kejut I cam ari tu. Atau bobok I tido.

Um..Well, err even if I come down on Sunday, he might be asleep soundly. And even if I'm there, I doubt he's able to sleep xP Ahakz. Okok. Let's make it PG ok. Hurhur.

Told him I wasn't feeling well and moody past few days.

Kul brapa lunch nanti?

Told him at 12+ I'll be having my lunchie (and it's chicken rice today) but at that moment, I really didn't feel like eating. And he said

Nak I suapkan?

Nk! NK! NK! Wee~! *giggles*

Cute la syg I ni. Ti me suapkan. Pas mkn nk buat apa?

Ahakz. To that question, I just told "Buat pape yg patot uh"

Naughty!

Nyahahahaha..Hehe. Muackz! Muackz!

Miss his company, miss his hugs, and miss everything of him and just to be with him alone. And u know what, Baby? I'm so deeply, extremely in love with u *blush* Muackz.

Met up bebeh Shasha yesterday. Had BanMian again (^_^) and I managed to grab 2 clothes off the shelves. Wee~! And slept late at about 2.30am. Perhaps I fear that I might have the same weird dream again last night. Ahakz.

Upon reaching school, I had to quickly place my bag and went to 4th floor to assist in troubleshooting. True enough, I've to attend to 3 computer and uninstalling them so that the kids can use for the NEQuiz.

At about 9.55am, while I was putting the CDs into the CD wallet, he called!! WEE~! I'm soo the suka. Terubat sekejap rindu ku padanya.

Ayg, sorry I tak msg u. My credit low.

"It's ok dear. I know." But I miss u when i didn't hear anything from u *sob sob*

I lum tido seh. Aru balik. Penat.

I'm concerned of course. But after he told me the reason, that he had to accompany his bestfriend at the hospital since the wife just gave birth a few days ago..He made me feel puzzled, who that person was. And I realised that the best friend was the one which I had attended his wedding (or is it the other one? because there's two of them). "Cepat nah?" But the baby was late for a month. So I told him perhaps it would be better that I pay a visit too.

Besok lusa dia da kluar. Tak yah visit.

Told him he told me quite late and I didn't know."Dear pi with me k?"

Tak nak. Bluek.

Naughty uh *sob sob* Buli me seh. But I know he was kind of tired and sleepy, so I asked him to go to sleep.

Yang, wake me up at 6.15pm k? Thankiuk. Muackz.

Ku da sinking~! Ok syg. Will wake u up pretty soon. MMmuackzz..

Working wasn't that great. Touched up a bit of the diagram of framework which I made yesterday. And suddenly I felt discomfort. Knew it. It came. Just like what I've expected. Forced myself to go up and down the school to pass something to General Office and to lunch. And ended up, finding a stain right in the center of my scarf. Sharks~! *sigh*

See the pic above? Seriously, I find this shoes is the most unfashionable, most lame shoes that exist in this world. People have been wearing this to schools, as casual wear and worse, to work! Gosh! What are all these people thinking?

So many holes, so ugly. Easy to get dirts on the shoes. Eww! And lots of IMITATIONS! There's always people buying non-original products.

Yesterday met Shasha for dinner. Wee~! Ban Mian dinner and I love it. Wanted to buy that top from the shop and the sales girl never attended to me when I waited for about 10 minutes. Wasting my time. *sigh* I really love that top. *sob sob*

My emo-ing going kicks in since this week. *sigh* I just can't help myself from falling asleep. *groans*

Ok. Enough of that. I was on the way to work and this Bangla, whom I sat beside started to sleep on me. Yucks! Had to strain my right shoulder and arm and frequently push him with my arms. Disgusting la! And I felt like bathing straight away. Why can't they just sleep properly?? Urgh..!

Another thing, when I turned to the first page of the Today newpaper, guess what's the first word that caught my eye? "BHUTTO is Back" I was like Errk! and it was in caps ok. Waduh. I thought the newspaper made a mistake. But, that's the person's name. Gosh. No further comments here.

And I was fed up with the trainers which came to my school. Asked me lots of questions. Wanted to use the servers but my school server has only limited space. And they wanted us to login to Admin account. Excuse me! Who the fark do u think u are??

I'm still figuring the iPod thingy. Anyway, my colleague asked me to record. Ok, will do on Monday asap. *haiz* I'm too lazy to work today. Seriously.

And, suddenly a message was sent to my phone at .

Lau leh wake me up at 8pm k dear? Lau tak leh, tkpe. Muackz!

Of course I will! And I'm missing him. Badly. Dearly. Extremely banget ok. Muackz. Can't wait to give him a wake up call. Weee~! Muackz dearie.

Was required to be at the office after work yesterday. Found out that they had some celebration with the October babies (and boss's birthday falls in October). Tasted a big of Mango cake which they forced everyone to take a few bites.

While waiting for the meeting to start, he called. Weee~! I'm so the suka!

Syg pat aner and buat apa?

Told him I'm at the office.

Oh, yea. Later you ada meeting kan?

He remembered! Wee~!

Ayg, the obat u beli kan make me knock out as soon as I lie on the bed

Good uh dear. Firstly, he's not having enough rest. Secondly, he's having cough plus runny nose. So, I bought for him Woods cough syrup that day and asked him to eat it before he goes to sleep.

After the conversation, went in for the meeting. Gee, got to know that I've to be at Clarke Quay at 6am! Gosh! For briefing! Erk! Early right? The whole race starts at about 730am next Saturday. And I have 2 tasks on that day.

1) Registrar : Checked the participants NRIC for the certs and registration.
2) Marshal : Be at the pit stop of Kampung Glam (glamour seh kena standby pat KG. Lol) and assist the participants.

Something like that. And the whole thing ends at about 630pm at VirtualLand, East Coast. About nearly 13 hours of working *faints* And each one of us reached a red shirt. My boss said "Don't think U can have xs. Too tight. Later people see. U should wear lose clothes. But, who wants to see? Haha!" Insulting eh boss? Cehh!

Was joking with my ST colleagues that perhaps we should take our pictures throughout the day even if we're on duty. Wee~! Will loan out camera *evil grin* Going to snap on that day. Mwahahahaha!

Today isn't that great. Not having lunch. Nobody to have lunch with *sigh* Hate it. And that librarian? Tak boleh harap ok. Her reason? "I'm busy today because I've been slacking till yesterday. So, no time to eat." But she wasn't in the library during lunch time! And me? Only Apollo biscuits and 2 slices of Lapis Prune. That's all and honestly, I'm dead hungry.

And yes I don't feel like working thou I've updated the attendance. Ok, tomorrow I've to finish up the website! Urgh! And, I need to call my office to ask about iTunes, how to retrieve recorded voice from iPod? Anyone care to help me?

And, he keeps saying this each time we meet up

Ayg, u alwaz smells nice. I love ur perfume

Aww, thank you syg. Muackz! And he bullied me via sms.

Nak take pic sama-sama? Nak kena bayar I tau

Chet~! Naughty uh! *sob sob*

Busy busy busy. That's all I can say today. And you know what? I made a big mistake in the Parents / Guardians ' letter. My P2.3 / P2.4 should end at 1pm but I accidentally typed out 1.30pm. *sigh*

By the time I went lunchie with Cellamie (which he helped me with the other class), it was 1.40pm. I was crossing the traffic light when my supervisor called and asked me to meet them in the meeting room. So I had to have a quick lunchie at KFC and rushed back to school to attend a short meeting.

To which, I had to do the framework. Urgh. Framework again. *sigh* And I took like slightly more then an hour to complete all the 3 frameworks. And rushing to complete my report as I have to submit by today. Phew. Lucky I managed to complete it before I start blogging.

Yesterday, had lunchie at Sharifah's home. Mmm..delicious. Thanks for the invitation and the foods, Sharifah. And her home? Simply gorgeous and I like it.

Yesterday was supposed to meet up with Shasha, but due to last minute, I had to postpone the meet up since imp called me at the very last minute to meet up with him. I'm sorry babe. I'm really am. And thank you for understanding. Will treat you when we meet up soon ok? *hugs*

His friends came over to his home for Hari Raya. By the time I reached under his block, he asked me to wait for him in front of the lift at the ground floor. About 5 minutes later, his friends came down with him. We smiled when one of his friends asked him who was he waiting for.

Saw that cute baby that he mentioned. Went to his home and the rest is history =) Anyway, we were talking about him wanting to renovate his kitchen as well as bathroom. So I was suggesting that it would be better if he buy a new home instead of renovating his home.

U, I kena renovate both kitchen and bathroom. Kasi ibu I happy. Tapi kalau U mention about buying a new home tu, nanti we buy together ok? Yang lebih baik punya. U keja, I pon keja. So we can save to buy a better home k? Tapi syg I takut kena tipu if kita beli rumah

Sweet la syg =) Muackz. I blushed upon hearing "We save to buy a better home........"

He's cute when he's asleep. Aww, cute la. Like a baby *giggles* He just wouldn't let me leave him when his phone rang. He kept hugging me and said

Biarkan. Jangan angkat

Accompany him at the dining table while he's having dinner. But I'm not having mine eventhou he wanted to feed me. The reason? I was full. And talked to him about certain stuffs.

And he just made me melt in the chair. Gosh, he's so knowledgeable about planets, moon, sun and ozone layer. The whole time we're together alone yesterday, makes me falling much more in love with him. And, yesterday I felt like I'm his wife Oops!

He was worried that I'm reaching home late (to which I reached home about 11pm. All because I had to wait about nearly 30 minutes for bus 25 to arrive at the interchange). Well, actually I took the same bus with him, whereby I alighted 2 stops after he alighted to go to work.

Thanks syg for today. I really love it. Muackz

Aww, me too! Being with you without your brother interrupting. Started to sinks while smiling to him.

You know what baby? You really make my night rocks (^_^) and I'm so the suka (~_^) Muackz!

Alhamdulliah, everything went well during Aidilfitri. Managed to finish 90% of cleaning by Sunday. Well, everyone was busy with their daily lives, during the fasting month. Anyway, the only thing thats left is my area.

For this year, we started visiting pretty late in the afternoon. The best part is that we didn't even take any photos. Nor do I took my own picture using my phone. Atok wasn't feeling well nowadays. He's not in his good health because of old age.

Anyway, yesterday, was the very first time in my life I saw my late yayi's younger brother, Yayi Sarip. He looked exactly like my late yayi thou Yayi Sarip is just 1 or 2 years younger than late Yayi. The melancholy overwhelmed me. Thanks to Mak Dah & her husband for tumpang-ing us in their car and drove us to Bedok South as well as sending us home.

Anyway, I learned about our neighbour's politics. You know the recent news about 2 men going to outer space and one of them managed to fast? It was pretty shocking to learn that the Government actually paid them about 9 million(about S$4.3 million) each to go to outer space. According to my uncle as well as Yayi Sarip, they can actually spend that 9 million to clean up the pits (longkang) to prevent flooding. As for the police officers in that country, well, 99% of them could not write out any report nor can they communicate in English. And most of the Chinone citizens living in that country comes to our country to be a police officer as well as to apply as a permanent resident.

And I learned why the gov isn't strict with their citizens is because they do not want to lose in the elections. Furthermore, the opposition will have their revenge if the current cabinets falls. Furthermore, I also learned that one of the teachers in one of the schools, wanted all the females to wear hijab and it's compulsary but one of the female teachers was against the idea and the case was brought to court. But this case wasn't reported in the newspaper nor was it broadcast in the news.

So far, I still did not enjoy this year's Aidilfitri. Why? Well, somehow I felt something is missing. There's not much joy. And there aren't a lot of people going out for visits. And I'm feeling tired when afternoon arrives each day.

There had been an increasing number of deaths a day before the Aidilfitri. *sigh* While waiting to perform Aidilfitri prayers, we were told that we had to perform Solat Jenazah after the Aidilfitri prayers.

And another thing is that, the weather isn't very good nowadays. It kept raining cats and dogs. Somehow, it spoils the mood because of the wetness.

And maybe perhaps I'm feeling frustrated and sad with myself because I felt that its too troublesome for my family to take public transports especially taxis.

Guessed what? Going to get free food for lunchie soon from Sharifah, the canteen's vendor. Muahaha. I'm loving it. In a way, it saves my food expenses. Lol.

In the meantime, I'm waiting for 10 of my kids to finish typing their stories.

I miss U too dear. Muackz! Muackz! Ati- ati work k syg? Syg U. Muackz! Muackz!

Yesterday, was a bit busy in the morning but I started to slack all the way, the whole afternoon. No mood to work. So, ended up watching Hikmah 3, Episode 5 and finding songs. Lol.

About 5pm he called. Yey! Didn't expect him to call. He was out of the house, finding something for his home.

Kan best if leh jumpa you nari. You nak datang rumah i?

Of course la dearr especially meeting him. Missing him very much. It doesn't matter where the location is, as long as I get to see him, that will be extremely alright. I asked him back "Do you want me to come over?"

I know he felt bad by asking me to travel to the west side to meet him. And we met yesterday. Wee ~ ! So the suka banget ok. Hehe.

This the first time I traveled to Boon Lay after work. Gosh, the MRT was packed like sardines. Reached his block and waited for 5 minutes as I waited at another location xP when I'm supposed to wait somewhere near the lift. I'm lost ok. Told him that Shasha sent her regards. He appreaciate it =) and was surprised that Shasha still remembers him. Lol.

I turned, and there he was standing smiling at me. Placing his arms around my shoulder and gave me a tight hug "Dear, I ngah puasa tau." Oops, he forgot about that. Walked towards the lift and met his friend (which I forgot his name. Haha)

All I can say is that he's living in one of the oldest block in Boon Lay. He misses me and so do I *faints* He bought chicken rice for me. The cute part? We shared the same mug. Hehe.

Dear, you really syg I?

Mesti la dearr..And I started to smile at him. His brother came out from the room and asked if we buka-ing together to which he told his brother that he accompanied me buka-ing. But the fact is that, it's been quite sometimes since we had our dinner together. Sweet la dear ni.

Anyway, he and his friend gets the house ready while I sat quietly. Well, I do find myself being extra in his house, not helping him. But the thing is that he wouldn't let me lift a finger to help.

I tak nak you tolong. Duduk dendiam tengok tv ok? Muackz

So I just sat and watched them in action and watching tv at the same time. The brother asked where I lived as well as my name. Oh, his mom? Well, I didn't get to meet her as she was working.

Between 9 to 930, Wan Ted and the other friend came along to help. When Wan Ted saw me sitting quietly, he said "Eh, orang jauh datang la." I laughed.

Anyway, had a private conversation with imp. And I'm very concerned as it made him stressed. Even before the private conversation took place, I did noticed that his smoking started to increase. *sigh*

Syg if nak balik, tell me ok? If boleh, I nak you tido sini.

Cute la. But I can't ok dear? Later Abah marah. He knows to which he replied

Entah bila lagi I leh mit U. I asyik busy je.

Hugged him and told him that we'll meet when he thinks that he have free time for me. About 10pm, told him I wanted to leave and he sent me to take a cab home. Before I left, he said

Syg, you lawa la today

I blushed uh. I was only dressed up with black top and long skirt with pink tudung. Thank you dear (^_^)
Smsed him in the cab. Started to miss him as soon as the cab drove towards my destination. His reply?

I lagi rindu u. Tadi I rasa best dapat mengadu dengan u, dapat sentuhan u, most of all i get to meet u. Thank u very much. Take care syg. Msg me once you're home k dear? Muackz! Muackz!

Sinking beb after I read the sms. And honestly, I was feeling sleepy. Lucky for me, the driver did drove at nearly 100km/h.

Reached home and fold some clothes. Wanting to block when I found myself sleeping in front of the laptop. Gee, I was dead tired. But, at the same time

Thank you syg imp for letting me to meet you again =)

Oh, and to your question before we start our buka-ing. Yes, I do love you (^_^)

While typing this entry, he called me. Wee~! I'm so the suka =) Alhamdulillah his house is almost ready for tomorrow's Aidilfitri. Yes I'm missing him again.

Talked for a while until my office called after which I had to do uploading of website. And yey I'm knocking off from work at 11am sharp. Never done by me before but that's what I'm going to do today. So, not that much work eventhough I have pending works to be done. Will try finish everything by next week, Insya Allah.

And I'm feeling really regret and remorseful now.

To Shasha: I'm very sorry babe if I have offended you just now and making you angry towards me and imp. I truly regret about it. Haiz. I just want to say I'm extremely sorry for everything.

To all,


Ingin ku meminta maaf kepada semua yang mengenali diri ku ini jika ada silap dan salah, terkasar bahasa, tingkah laku yang tidak menyenangkan ataupun menyinggung /menguris perasaan sesapa. Ku hanyalah manusia biasa. Setiap manusia tidak lepas dari melakukan kesilapan, seperti yang lain.

Akhir kata Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin dari kami berdua serta keluarga. And to those non-muslims, Happy Holidays =)

PS: Will be back on Tuesday.

Yesterday, as soon as I reached the platform, received an unknown number "Pakai baju pink?' I was like who's this person? And that person is Eza! Wahaha. She changed her number without informing me *grins*

Anyway, while waiting for Kakak at Singapore Post, managed to grab Ice Coffee Latte. Had dinner at Long John Silver before going to the Geylang market to buy tudung. Hmm, and one of my soles came off.

Messaged him at night. Gosh, the feeling of missing him is soo unbearable. Miss you many many syg *muackz* Err, can't display the messages as it's extremely restricted to me since it's too damn mushy. Lol.

Work? A bit bored. My arms were kind of hurt in the morning as I had to do filming for lesson observation. Cramps conquering. Gee, that means my arms isn't that strong anymore.

Anyway, bumped into Shasha with her Ryan at AMK POSB's atm. Lol. After exchanging some words, off I went to the cobbler to repair my soles for the Mondo shoes while she and Ryan went to have their dinner before going shopping. Grabbed something from PrimaDeli and Cheers before I headed to the interchange.

Anyway, the headache is killing me. It all started when I was in the bus and till now. Did managed to pop in Panadol extra along with my PrimeRose supplement.

Oh. And guessed what? Just like what I've planned. Washing some clothes before hanging them to dry. Wee~! Very rajin. Ahakz.

Had conversation with Abg Amy. Hmm, something new. *sigh* Thanks abg for the advice.

He replied my message once in the evening. And, I'm missing him....And telling me that he's on the way to work, to which I he requested to be at work later. Yey! He finished painting his homey. Muackz darling. I'm happy for you =)

Part of Apa Artinya Cinta lyrics



And yes, I'm feeling great when I feel his love to me =)

U gi slp, mimpi i k? I miss u so much. Have enough rest k? Tomorrow U working k

Ok dear. Will sleep early as I'm feeling quite sleepy now and not that well *smooches* Thank you for being caring and loving me dear (^_^) I'm loving it

Was busy doing filling of calendars as well as notes and watching Hikmah 3 from YouTube at the same time. Guessed who called at 2.37pm? =D

Pity my dear as he had to wake up early to continue painting. Too many mushy stuffs, too many kisses, too many "loves you" (*sinks*) and too many giggles in the conversation. He really make my day =)

Syg, jangan buat that sound..

I don't really get what he meant. Finally he said in a very soft tone.

It sounds sexy tau. Syg sexy...syg lagi manja.

Giggles after giggles. Lol. I was trying not to giggle that loud as my colleague was taking a nap in my lab.

Syg, nanti jumpa, nak romen U and peluk U tak nak lepas

Aww, I'm blushing uh. Neither of us wanted to put down the phone but eventually we have to as I don't want to delay his time in completing his task.

Kan best if U kat sini. Leh tolong I cat. U diri bawah block dengan tray. Bila cat I da bis, I turun amik cat dari tray then naik atas to sambung cat.

Naughty uh dear! Buli I seh. He laughed "Syg acin. Muackz." Aww, me syg bucuk also.

Told him I might be going Geylang with Kakak today again. She still haven't confirm with me.

U dtg sini nanti I cat U dengan my lidah. Nanti jadi Air Liur Lidah

I was like "Naughty eh? Erk? Air Liur Lidah??" He laughed. No such phrase but he made up one. Ahakz.

Ok, tak jadi Air Liur Lidah. But kan best you pat sini..

I want to, dear. But you fear that I find your home not up to my standard. It's perfectly ok. Told him that I wouldn't be helping him to paint. Instead, we'll be spending most of the time kissing. "So, this time 3 hari 3 malam aje?"

Nop, 4 hari 4 malam. Lepas da bis, kita continue. U and I will have no end =)

Ok, this part I want to say "AKU SINKING BANGET!" Hehe! Sweet la syg. Love you many² =)

Syg, I suka your msg. Smua very loving, very sweet, very touching

Ahakz. Because I love you ok Mr. Imp. That's why the msg turns out that way =) . And know what syg? I'm loving it =) Especially from you (^_^)

And he will always say

Geram. Nak gigit U. Nak romen U

I'm waiting. Hehehe. And, he's indeed in love with me, just like I'm in love with him =D

Met Kakak at Geylang yesterday. Ah, yes. First time I set my feet to Geylang and to actually shop there for this year's Ramadhan. By the time I reached Paya Lebar, it was about 705pm. Thanks Kakak for the bubble tea.

Walked around the bazaar to find suitable curtain for home. Tiring of course as we walked from one end to another. There a very few which I prefer. Hmm, ended up it's either the organza type or the Jacket silk (I think that's the name). The theme for this year? Greenish yellowish brown. Ended up, we bought the Jacket silk and it cost like $244 for 2 sets. I was like "Erkk!" Expensive ok.

After like "touring" the whole bazaar, we ended up not only buying that, we also bought baby blue curtain for the bedroom and the kitchen's curtain. Total? $288. I whispered to Kakak if she knows how to negotiate. When she said no, I asked him if he could give us $280. He was like "Erk, but I've given you discount."

While the Uncle took another side of the curtain (oh, the blue curtain was the last set. But, at least there's like $11 discount), she's still unsure if the curtain that we bought is worth it. After everything was finalised, he told us that he keyed as $280. Woohoo! Lop you uncle. Tee Hee.

Went to Arnorld's to get spring chicken before hopping into the taxi. As soon as we reached home, showed Mama whatever we had bought. Had my late dinner cum supper before I hanged the curtains in the living room. Wah. Nice uh =)

Anway, watched the last episode for Hikmah 2. About 10.20pm, imp called! Wee~! I was smiling widely. Hehe.

Hello...hello..hello...hello..hello..hello..

Sengaja uh. Then, he laughed. Cute. Told me that his workplace was having 3rd Anniversary.

Dear, I gi Tampines IKEA semalam (Sunday) tapi meja yang I nak beli takde.

Ciannya my dear. I noticed his disappointment. "Tapi tak ajak me." *sob sob* It's ok sayang. I know you were with your friend *hugs*

Dear sayang I tak?

Mesti laa sayang dearr..Muackz muackz.

Rindu you syg

Wah, started to sink. Sesungguhnya, me pon merindui you, imp. I'm glad to hear your sofa had reached yesterday.

Syg, me penat. Tadi pagi balik, terus cat rumah.

Pity my dear. "Nak tolong!" I know you're tired. And hopefully you can finish painting by Wednesday ok dear? *hugs*

Syg nak tolong? Alah sweet nya. Takpe.

Hehe. Ok dear. Told him "Bole dear. I buat menyemak pat rumah you. Hehe."

U duduk entertain Ibu I ok?Bebual dgn my Ibu.

To that, perhaps I should have no problem =) He had to continue with his work, thus he had to end the call. We bid each other Good Night. And lastly,

I love U, syg

Ok, I'm sinking deeper in his love. Cair when he said that. Love you too *smooches*

I'm bored to death thou I have to rush to finish off my lesson plans. *sigh* Hate it. Anyway, I was checking my mail, when I came across a job which offers a good salary between $1.5K to $2.5K. It's extremely tempting ok. Feel like clicking on that button. Grr. I can't.

Anyway, was reading it just to pleased myself and I came across an error. It should be "vacancy", Not "vavancy". Haha. Was laughing to myself just now *grins*

Well, earlier in the morning, my whole lab was in a mess! They used my lab to conduct training. Well, the thing is that I can't use my computer as the table is pushed towards the wall. So, had to use the tablet. So, helped to set up. Then, my supervisor came in "Rose, wishing you Happy Hari Raya in advance." Aww, so sweet la! I did thanked him. But, despite that, I think there's an meaning to it O_o And I think it means more work coming your way after Hari Raya *faints*

And he actually sent me an E-Card wishing me


Eheks. See what I meant?

Gee, I'm feeling bored now. Wondering if he had awake from his sleep. I'm missing him. Badly. Dearly. Extremely.

Slept late at 3am and all because of the radio chat and msn. Gee. Slept after sahur at 5am and not wanting to wake up at 6am. I think people might find me gaining a bit of weight as I've been sleeping after sahur and waking up at 6am everyday.

As I was dead tired and wanting to sleep, I kept tossing and turning after I performed my morning prayers. The feeling of missing him overcomes me. I picked up my phone and smsed him "Good morning dear. Just want to tell you that you always fill my mind and heart. Rindu you many many. Muckz. I nak sleep uh. Muackz."

Didn't expect him to reply me. I was, of course glad that he replied

Lambatnya sayang I sleep?

I was sinking deep into my bed. Smiling to myself and pressing the buttons to reply him, when he called me at 6.29am.

Sayang nak sleep? Dari tadi lum sleep?

Told him that I woke up for sahur. Heard him smiling.

I miss you very much sayang. I tak peduli. Have to meet you one of these days.

Of course my heart leaped with joy. Asking him, when will it be and he was checking his schedule. (Oh, and he called me while he was in the toilet smoking. Ahakz. How do I know? Because he did told me he had to smoke in the toile. Lol. The echoing of his voice confirmed his location. Lol)

I masok kerja kul 10pm on Monday to Wednesday. One of these days ok dear? Muackz.

Asked him if he really wants to meet me, and he said yes.

Cute la suara ayang ni

*blush* I was lying down and my voice was kind of err, you know the sleepy sort. He asked me to sleep, to which moments after our nearly 4 minutes of conversation I fell fast asleep, smiling. And, deep in me, I know that nobody can replace him =)

Woke up pretty late at 11am. Gee, weather wasn't doing great. It rained and it shone brightly after which it rained heavily. The clothes which were hanged to dry became moist again and clothes which I had washed, remained wet.

At least I've cleaned my brother's cupboard. Home is still in a mess. *sigh* But, I'm determined that it will be cleaned before Hari Raya. And, I still haven't done baking yet. Perhaps, during my off day on the 15th Oct, I shall do the baking since we're not going out as Abah is working on that day.

Tiring and thirsty day for me. Went to office for meeting. Gee, workload has increased tremendously *sigh* I hate it. Too much and I'll get stress and my acnes will visit me again =(

Went to supermarket with the heavy bag which contained 365 calendars. And it's almost like nearly 10 kg altogether including the items which I bought. During my journey towards the supermarket, my temptation to buy water is killing me. I wanted to buy bubble tea (well, it was scorching hot just now. It's so unbearable). About 2+pm I fell asleep on the sofa, woke up a while and slept again.

I had a weird dream. About Irwansyah and another girl with me and my mom. We were like somewhere in Geylang area (I don't know if it's true but there's lots of malays there. Anyway, after that we were browsing at a stationery shop when Mama told me she wanted to perform her prayers. By then, I suspected she wasn't feeling well. We followed her to the toilet and before I enter the toilet, which wasn't pleasant to the eye, I told the girl to tell Irwansyah to stand outside the toilet and we're going home.

When I entered the toilet, saw Mama slumped (is this the correct spelling?) against the wall. I carried my mom out of the toilet and told Irwansyah that we're going home and asked him to prepare his car. We took the stairs down to the car. While descending from the car, Mama passed me a twisted paper and told me she can't believe it's happening to me. I asked her what was it about. While carrying her, I took a look at the paper, which looked like sms and I read that I'm going to die on 25th (either fasting month or 25th Nov) and other untrue articles about me.

Asked my mom who's going to kill me and she said the last person who was descending the same stairs with us and she told me to quickly put the article into Irwansyah's bag. When I looked up the stairs we took, I saw a pondan. Mama told me that if I knew it, they will kill me on the spot. Asked her where she got the article, she told me that Abah gave it to her. After which I woke up. Strange and doesn't make sense. Told mama and she said it's because I'm sleeping after 4pm.

Anyway, he called me! Yey! 5 minutes after I woke up. I'm soo the suka ok =) He wanted to meet. I missed the chance =( He thought I was outside. *sigh* How I wish I could meet him just now.

Nakal! Geram! I pon nak jugak!

It's a little early to say. But, hopefully today's the day. I'm praying hard that we'll be able to make it.

Becoming a sleepy head today. Gee, all because I slept about 130am. *sigh* Tired, sleepy and not wanting to wake up. That's all I can think of. Perhaps I should take a short nap pretty soon. *yawns*

He called after he replied my sms once about 8+am. Yey! Told me about his concerns and yeah I'm concerned about it too *hugs*

I tak dengar. Suara you macam transformers

Hehe. Not sure why. Perhaps my phone's internal part thought of becoming transformers. Haha. It's a hint to me that it had overworked. He called me again and this time was back to normal.

Macam mana you tau?

Lol. It's because I was browsing the ikea's website when he told me he wanted to buy a dining table. And, it's the same dining table which he intend to buy. I have 6 sense uh dear *giggles* Just joking. Merely a wild guess and perhaps, I think you might choose that.

Since he wanted to go ikea to buy some stuffs there, I too do need to get something there. A shoe rack. Lol. Currently the shoe rack at home is custom made by me. Tee Hee. Will take the picture and post it here. Lolx. He laughed upon hearing my custom made shoe rack. *giggles*

No matter what, if he intends to go shopping, I wanna tagged along. Told him "I nak! I nak ikot!"

Alah, cutenya nak ikot I gi shopping

Bluek. Just want spend time with him and see his taste for different items. Hopefully we can meet on Sunday =)

And know what? 1 more week to Hari Raya, which is next Saturday! Gosh. Time really flies pretty fast nowadays. My home still needs more of spring cleaning. No time to dilly dally.

He called! Yey! I'm extremely happy banget + excited + loved =) After his teasing hello, I noticed his voice was extremely freshed! Makes me wonder as he called me about nearly 2pm. He woke up from his mafia-style-shooting-sliding dream. Hehe. Cute la dear. He's extremely excited to share his dream =)

Yang, napa you sayang i?

I asked him back but he wanted me to reply him first. So, I told him.

Dengan you je I leh manja², lain perempuan mana suka bebual manja². You je different. U ok I bebual manja with u?

Mesti la dear =) All this while, that's what we do right? *giggles*

Anyway, he bought the sofa with his friends =( He liked the sofa, and I'm happy for him. Told him I wanted to "see" his sofa. His reply? "Nanti raya you datang ok?" Yey! I want! And he still wanted to go to iKea to buy dining table as well as coffee table. Wah, banyak nya! "Later I tell you when ok?" Yey!

I tak nak kai my savings. Nanti nak kawin..

Um, I blush ok.

While talking to him, my poly friend msn me asking for my address as she wanted to send her wedding card and asked me when's my turn. *gulp* I told him about it and he asked when's my friend's wedding. *hint hint* He wanted to follow. Wee~!

Wah, your kawan nak kawin. Bes seh. Nanti kita kawin ok?

I was smiling but at the same time I was blushing. Gee.

Out of a sudden, he spoke very soft after the kiss.

I tak nak you leave me. I love you..

It was very soft. I was like "Eh? What did you say?" At first, I thought my mind was playing on me. But when he said "I wouldn't repeat. It's from the bottom of my heart. If I repeat, it isn't the same anymore" Aww..ku sudah sinking. I'm so the suka ok! Hehe.. He feared that I leave him, so do I sweetie.

And yes, he do fear that my parents can't accept him. I told him not to think negatively. That's why I wanted him to meet them during Hari Raya period. "Abeh, I nak tell I keja apa to your dad if your dad tanya?" Erk. I told him not to tell his real job and it's up to him.

I still remember the times when we meet up. Baru 2 kali meet up with you..

Wait wait wait. It's 3 times la sayang. He thought I've forgotten that there's one particular day I accompanied him to his friend's wedding. It's still fresh in my mind =)

I rindu makan with you. Miss that yue char kway sotong with you

Me too! We'll order a big plate of that next time ok dear? *Smooches*

He called back again about 10 minutes later as I had to meet a particular teacher and he told me about his gathering which he had made before. And, it struck my mind after I told him I wanted to buy a tent. Asked him if he wanted to go picnic with me one day. Initially, he asked whether only the both of us will be going alone. It depends on him actually. I thought, will be great if he asked his friend & girlfriend while I asked my girlfriend & her boyfriend to tag along if he wants other people to join. He said

If my kawan ikot, I tak nak dia dengan matair dia share our tent. Nak loving² dengan u. Dorang pakai tent lain

Naughty eh. Nak privacy je. Lol. The reason why I wanted to go picnic with him is because he has never go to the beach with a girl alone.

We smiled, we laughed, I teased him. Ahakz.

My friend yang 20 years old and Basir asked about our relationship.I told them we still in contact. He said "Bagus la. Time for you to move on"

I smiled. But, I still could sense that my qualification does bother him. Told him that he can upgrade himself. I'm with you dear if you want to continue your studies, to which I know you're interested to upgrade. Muackz.

Told him I do not need to report to work on 15th Oct, Monday and I was given half day on eve of Hari Raya. He told me that he wanted to try meeting me on that day. I do want of course dear, but it's the eve. Mama will expect me to be home by afternoon.

I miss the way you smile and laugh

*sinking* Me too. I miss him. Very badly. And missing everything of him. And I love talking to him. He always make me at ease. And yes, I do enjoy his company.

To imp, here's part of the song of Kekasih Gelapku by Ungu


Back at work, well it's a bit bored. I'm struggling to think how to transfer recording from iPod to computer. Anybody have any idea?

Met up with my lovely babe Shasha yesterday. The moment she reached Banquet, it's time to break the fast. As usual, I had my Fried Slice Fish noodle while she had her Bamian. Helped her to search for a wallet after our meal. And we went window shopping for clothes. On our way back to the interchange, we were caught up and decided to go for full body massage. Yey! Can't wait for the massage. Weee~ Shasha, confirm going this Saturday?

Anyway, this whole week till next Tuesday, I will have the most boring days as it's the PSLE. And my librarian will be in the same room with me and I have to hide my msn most of the time, not wanting her to see me chatting in the msn while I'm doing my work. This paricular Chinese class will also enter my lab, when they're not supposed to use my lab as my lab is within the restricted zone where non authorize personnel can enter. *sigh* Going to be extremely bad week.

Met my boss just now as he was in school for meeting. Had to drop the file in his car and gosh, I felt as thou I was burning when I opened the door. Apparently my boss parked his car under the hot sun.

I'm extremely stressed up as I'm struggling to finish up the links according to how they wanted to see and doing the reviews which I'm sucks at. Told my boss that I can't cope and he advised me to tell my supervisor so that the new person can come in soon. Ya right. Always the same thing. End up, I'm the one who have to voice out. *groans*

And, just now I had to answer the phonecall from Zul since my librarian popped by. He said "Yana, I miss you." I was like "Erk?" He kept asking when I'm meeting him. Told him I'm very tired. Asked me to call him after I knock off work and I told him I'm very tired to talk (of course la. I'm fasting you know. Tired of talking and I need water, which I can only quench my thirst about 6.58pm). And you know what? He sounded really disappointed.

Had a weird dream today. Wearing almost all black except for my tudung. And when I reached home, this is what I find out.

The two flowery are gone! Ceh! So tak lawa ok. Macam cacat gitu. Feel like sticking something there. Hurhur.

Wee~ He called again! This time at 9.42am. I'm soo extremely happy banget! He commented on the way I giggle after he teased me the way I answered. Lol. The first thing he noticed was the silent background, asking me where are the devil kids.

He dislikes kids to be noisy. I can still remember, when he told me "Kan best if I ada anak, tapi sampai toddler age and dia tak membesar. Da besar, buat menyemak. Da besar me nak jual dia." Hehe. Jahat eh syg? Lol.

The conversation definitely melt my heart, making me sinking deep in his love. And I'm loving it ok.

I miss you and miss kissing your lips, taste like mashmellow, so cushion²

Hehe, cute kan? Cushion²lak. *giggles*

If I'm like a cartoon character, definitely I choose the character which can melt from a human form to be in a puddle of water and back again to human form. Lol.

I'm glad that you're having fun at work, dear =) And you're good at word scramble ;)

Syg, you miss me? Why you miss me?

Err, must tell eh? "It's ok. I tau kenapa you miss me" Bluek. Da tau, pretending eh? Naughty tau.

Told him my weird dream. "Ayg mesti cute kan lepas bangun tido?" No, no dear. Shouldn't look at my stoink (Haha) face when I woke up.

Mesti bacin² and cute..

Time to turn the tables on him. "You pon sama right, dear?Bucuk² and masam². Nanti I take picture of you baru bangun tido!" Lol.

You make me smile, laugh and feel loved. And I'm soo into you ok. I do admit, at times when we contact once in a while, really makes part of me missing. And that part will only return back to me when you contact me (^_^)

When it's time for him to sleep, I jokingly refused him putting down the phone. He then said

Tepok² I k? Tepok my backside, jadi your baby. Ayg, kalau you kawin dgn i, mesti you manjakan me kan? I jadi your baby. Kalau gitu, kita kawin tak payah ader anak ok?

I blushed ok. I do admit I have a habit in touching his sexy bum which he told me I made him feeling much more sexier. Oops! Pecah tembelang. Hehe.

Wishes him good night and sweet dreams with kisses. Speaking of kisses, errm, not sure if it's a good idea to type it out, but netherless I'm going to type it out here.

Kalau I meet you, nak hug and kisses you for 3 hari 3 malam. Biar your mom fikir kenapa anak dia tak balik, lepas tu buat police report and then find us still kissing.

Hehe. Cute la! I nak, I nak! Hehe.

Anyway, he misses eating Sotong Yue Char Kwey, so do I. Especially eating with you ok. I just enjoy looking at his face, when he find it tasty. Speaking of food, gosh I'm starting to feel hungry.

It's pretty frustrating when they keep on calling you, asking you to do things which is definitely not your work. I was told to call about 30 schools to find out the email address of the teacher / HOD / LH / Principal / Vice Principal.

Why can't she ask the CSO to do it? *sigh* What I did was to search the EduMail for the email addy and those which I can't find, I decided to call the schools up. It was pretty scary, fearing that the other party might not understand what I'm talking about or find me rude enough. *Phew* Lucky none of that sort happens.

He called! Yey! I'm soo loving it. Sinking more. Kecian dia terbangun tidur. Sorry dear I've to reject your call in the first place as I was having meeting with the Principal.

U...u sayang i?

Dearr...mesti la I sayang u ok. Miss you many many. "I miss you lot lot. I sayang you oso tau". Waduh..I'm so the sinkingbangetbecauseofhim.net hurhur.

Pity him for not having off day last week. And I pity him more today as he have to be at work at 8.15pm today *hugs* I'll wake you up pretty soon at 6pm ok darling? *muackz*

Oh..Tell your brother to shuddup next time ok? Nak manja with you pon susah. He made me love him and I'm loving it.

U, if we're together, u manjakan me tak?

Of course la. You make me feel loved, shouldn't I do the same thing? =) muackz muackz.. "Dear, nari Children's Day tau."

Children Day? Wah, I pon nak Children Day. You kat work?

Yup dear. Have to work *sob sob* The cute part "I nak present!" after I asked him if he wants one. Cute kan!