I'm cold! I'm going to be dead meat soon. *sigh* Haven't do 2 of my reports. Lesson preparation and so on. I'm going to be dead meat very very soon.

Gosh, I'm soo tired. Especially yesterday after having dinner with Lia at Haji Karim near out homes (and apparently we saw this couple of cats who are soo loving, sitting down nearby waiting for people to offer them food), went home and within 40 hours I managed to bath, tidy the kitchen for a while before I fell into a deep sleep.

And as a result, I woke up 10 minutes late. And seriously I just can't open my eyes! *yawns* Happy weekends people!

Met with Hamzah yesterday. He was at Sembawang about 10 minutes early. So, quickly made my way there and reached about 6.15pm. Went to buy tickets for Pathfinder and he treated me a small hot chocolate drink at Coffee Bean. And told me that the treats are for my belated birthday. Told him he shouldn't bother about it.

I was really in budget mode. Watched the movie, find it boring actually and he kept nudging my left arm asking if I want his sweater which I politely tell him no. And don't worry. He didn't feed me anything 'cause I didn't want popcorn thou he asked me whether I really insist of not eating (eventhough I do feel hungry since dinner time we didn't eat anything).

After the show, I nearly tripped down the stairs (and I wore heels that night), which he just smiled. Then, asked if I wanted to hang around to sit down and chat. Honestly I don't know what to chat with him about. He's a nice chap but really, I just can't have a conversation with him. Perhaps, there's no chemistry.

So, went to Ang Mo Kio and he wanted to walk around thou my heart did want to go home fast. I was tired by the time we reached AMK and could see from my face that I was actually sleepy. Walked around for 45 minutes. Went to Courts and went out. And there he told me he wanted to take a picture with me. I was like "What? With my sleepy face? No way!" Seriously it looked weird. He kept on asking to take picture with me and also whether I want to sit down and chat with him.

I just told him that we could chat in the bus instead. Still, he gave me a disappointed agreement. I mean, thou he lives nearby me and eventhough he sent me back to my block, still I just regard him as a friend.

The best thing he asked was "Is it because of your work that you do not have a special one?" And, since I was sleepy and tired, I just said yes and I prefer it that way eventhou I know that I do know how to manage my time very well if I were to have a special one.

And he didn't let me off my stop. Told me to alight at another stop since he wanted to withdraw money. He could do that in AMK, but seriously he's been wasting my time! And we were just 1 km away from my block, which he asked 4 times to take a picture with me and once whether I wanted to sit down first. And mind you, it's already 10.35pm! And I missed the first few minutes of CSI Miami. Argghh!

Told him I wouldn't no matter how many times he asked. Then requested I sent him a picture of me, which I forward him my picture which I took at work wearing my coat. And know what he replied? "Can you send more of your picture?" I was like "WHAT??"

These type of people really freak me out. He's just like another guy who behaves like him. It really shows like you're desperate. I mean, I'm not sure if that's the correct way to describe and I'm not trying to say I'm vain or something.

But really, when I say "NO" it really means NO. And no point forcing me. Worse, if I don't think that the chemistry exist, what makes he thinks I want him to be someone special in my life?

And yet just now, he sent me a message asking what time I finished work and he wanted to fetch me home. And after lunch, he sent me a smile through frenster. It really gives me the creeps. Help!!

Here I am, sitting down after I exclaimed to someone over the phone that I'm too lazy to tell about myself over the phone and he doesn't even bother to read my profile. Urghh..So damn sickening! Honestly, I hate talking when I'm at work. As in talking in the phone. What if, any of my clients saw me on the phone?

Stupid jerk! Urghh..waste my bloody time.

Just now morning, my Manager called me and told me that the person who is supposed to be my understudy was required to go to another school instead. So, when I reached there, this tall malay guy was waiting for me. And to my shockness, I saw his eyelashes are long.. *drools* haha. Anyway, he smelt of ciggratte.

Niwei, going to watch movie later with my jogging buddy, Hamzah. Pathfinder or The Messenger? I can't decide.

Yesterday, while i was stamping two attendance for my colleagues and when I was about to get out of the General Office, there's this boy with blood on his left head. And mind you, the blood just ooze out and some were on his white uniform. Lucky I didn't faint on the spot. I was shocked actually. Hmm, run too much. I just don't understand kids these days. Why must they run when they can walk?

As I walked down the stairs of the HDB's ground floor, there's a couple of students sitting at the staircase at level 2. I was like "Eh, pepagi da nak romen?" And mine you, both are still teenagers, wearing secondary school uniform and the boy is smoking. As for the girl, she pretend to check her handphone. Ahh, caught them red-handed. No life these kids.

And it rained heavily when I reached Ang Mo Kio. As a result, my shoes were quite wet because there's a bit of flood and when I was walking towards the MRT, I saw the park's staircase was flooded with water, rushing down.

Anyway, just a bit of update. My parents were out of town since Saturday early morning whereby they went to KL as my dad's company organised a trip there. So, what I did was to tidy the house, washed the clothes and fold the clothes. Around 2pm, watched Battle Royale II DVD and got ready to meet Hazry since he asked me out for a movie.

Met him at AMK, then went to Douby Ghaut to catch 300 Digital at The Grand Cathay (feels like VIP there..haha) , thou he had watched the movie before. I do like those movies where it involves Kings and Queens and war during that kind of scenes. But for those who really want to know why most people likes 300, let me tell you.


Besides all those olden times where King rules the country, we get to see the way they fought and the formation they used to defeat the enemies (well, according to that show, they fought a few hundred thousands of enemies). And, I melt when I saw those 300 men fought for their country because almost all of them have 8 abs *drools* Haha.

And, most men love to watch this show is because, there's nude scenes. Whereby there are 2 ladies naked where the breasts are shown. And there's one scene whereby the King Leonidas (played by Gerard Butler) made love to the Queen Gorgo (played by Lena Headey), and showed that the Queen moaned. Haha.

Before that, Hazry closed my eyes whereby the King was standing, gazing out. And I think he was naked down (I don't know 'cause I was forced to close my eyes by Hazry). And he made me blushed by feeding me a few popcorns *cheeks redden*

After the show, went to CarreFour as I had to buy shampoo and we sat down outside the NEL station whereby bebeh Diah bumped into me while I was watching Hazry playing his PSP.

And she changed her hairstyle! It looked soo different, gal! Aku tetap nak ikot ko gi honeymooon. Mwhahahaha.. Anyway, he sent me home and reached about 11.30pm as it rained heavily. I was tired of course, but it was sweet of him to send me home thou I don't expect him to.

And Sunday, spent at home just to do housework only. I was tired. Wanted to do work but I was too lazy =P

Stress, pressure urghh..basically everything! And I can't even do most of my work today! Stupid! *sigh* too many things to handle. Nearly got into trouble with the Admin Manager because I was accompany Jonathan to printing. And he sort of lecture me saying they not suppose to print in the school compound. *sigh*

I wished I didn't help. Then rushed here and there to get most of the things done. And I'm too pressured. *sigh* Right now, I can still feel my tummy buldging out. And it's a bad sign showing that I've increased weight in my tummy! Urgghh..

Okok.. enough of this. Going rush t o gym now. Till next week. Oh, and please I hate to have understudy new colleagues again. Taking my precious time to do my work which never ends!

See my sleepy eyes? Taken just before I go to work. Gosh I'm still dead tired. Only about 5 hours of sleep. Energy drained out the previous night due to my night classes which I conducted. And no exercise! *sigh*


But really, I think I need to buck up now. Too many tasks at the end of my finger tips and it keeps on increasing no matter how I've tried my best. Yesterday, before I start my lesson to my colleagues, passed my Big Boss the donation card which the school wants my company to donate. Then, communicate with my boss.

So, what I did was complain. Haha. Told him I have too many tasks at one go within a short period of time. Doing printing which is not within my job scope. Even when I tell him I don't know what's the purpose, my boss kept asking me, thinking I'm hiding something from him.

Hmm, and one thing he told me is that I need to move fast also. And told me that if I wanted to earn more bucks, I need to be working in the office and not school environment. WTF! I mean, I dont mind but I know for sure there's more work of course. Then, no time for me to blog and msn *sob sob* But at least I got do my work, not that I'm skiving from work.

So, I'm not sure if I'm going to take the offer up. He mentioned that if I do well in this position, he will recommend me to take another step, which is Assistant Manager position.If they offer me $2K or more, perhaps I might take it. I need opinions here.

*sigh* waiting for him to be online, he's not online. Guess he's too busy and too tired to be online. I miss him lots.

Took this picture before I wore my scarf earlier just now before I went for work. And, I nearly tripped while I was climbing the stairs to go to the MRT platform. bummer. It was soo embarassing. Perhaps of this pants (the same pants which made me tripped the other day).

Anyway, slept late last night. Read up notes and thought I have time to do slides for tonight's lesson but I need to do double fast as I'm wasting time printing ICT lesson plan & worksheet which I obtained from the site that my supervisor wants me to print out. But, really I just don't get it. He told me to place the softcopy in the sharing folder, and why on earth must I print out for him? Grr..

I'm still sleepy. Gosh. Think tomorrow I'll be a zombie gal for sure. Dragged myself to work yesterday and I guessed tomorrow might be the same thing *sigh* I'm really tired. I've not enough rest. I want to get away from work.

And know why I'm still sleepy? Because I slept like 5h 30mins but woke up at 430am and 5am, thinking that I overslept. And on top of that, I just felt as thou I couldn't sleep. Perhaps I'm feeling worried about tonight's lesson. And today I'm going home alone. Imagine leaving the office at 10pm alone after I dismissed my colleagues? It feels soo scary. I hate it. *sigh*

Think, I better do the slides now. If not, I'm doomed for lesson later. And need to get out of school by about 510pm , which reminds me that I could take a short nap on my way to office. Lol.

Firstly, I would like to thanks those who wishes me and even to those who gave me presents. Love you all. *smooches* Thou yesterday I found myself stressful, but still all those wishes really made my day.

And yesterday I had to teach my new colleagues on Dreamweaver. It sucks of course but oh well. Looks like tomorrow I'll be busy again to make slides *sigh* Wouldn't go into detail of that.

Anyway, my colleague Laila, the librarian gave me a magnet. It's sweet actually. But I really do appreciate it. Lia bought me a Nutella chocolate cream cake (only eaten a small portion of it ok) and my sis bought me a white swatch watch!

Cool. Haha. And it feels awkward wearing a watch again. But netherless, I still love it! Aww..such a sweetheart.

Cut my hair yesterday. Goodbye my long hair. I miss them. They went through lots with me. The ups and downs of life. So, for a change I cut my hair.

Hopefully, by cutting my hair my luck will be better. And Happy Birthday to me! Yey! Officially 22 years on earth. And Happy Birthday to you too Henry! Thou you're much more senior then me, still we share the same Birth Date!

Till this time, I have like 6 people who wishes me Happy birthday. Awe..You people are sweet! Thanks a lot people. Love you all ~


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On Sat, went out with one of my ex, Rifae. Caught Blood & Chocolate. Thought it was a good show. Too much conversation in the show which bores me. But the best part was the effects. So, I give it about 2 and a half over 5 popcorns. Then, went to Mustafa and accompany him to buy 2Gb Toshiba mini SD. Nothing much for the night time where I basically rushing to do my work. And up till today, I still have not yet finished my work *gosh* think I'm going to be bonkers.

*sigh* Pressure me.. Meeting Lia after work at about 1015pm near my office. Cheesecake waiting for me! Yey..Just don't tell Shakin about this as he'll freak out if he knows I'm eating more then I shouldn't. Ah, he just don't get why I increase about 0.2kg of my weight, 5kg of my body fat and my muscle dropped like 3kg. *sharks* need hit the gym and do more of muscles

Been a tiring day for me. Running here and there. Installing here and there. But the once at the Library ship is not completed yet. Anyway, in the morning, couldn't even access the internet due to the MOE server side.

So, had to bypass the MOE server to starhub. But what I hate is the installation. Did almost half of it. And it's taking my freaking time.

By 430pm, I'm dead tired. Sleepy. Gosh, need to take my assessment today. *sigh* I don't know. Hopefully it doesn't increase the fat..And I'm freaking hungry now aside from being sleepy.

Anyway, Happy Birthday to my blog, Kak Lin, Kuzzin Dayah and to TayMin. Best wishes in whatever you do.

P.S: Presents for me on Monday k people? Hehe

Yesterday, went back to office for MOS briefing. What is this about? It's the Microsoft Office Academic Skill Challenge. It's to see how good we are in Microsoft Office applications. And we were told to "promote" to the school. I mean, I don't mind promoting it but honestly they will find it expensive. $52.50 per entry for the test credits and it's open to both students and MOE staff, whether they are teaching or non-teaching staff. And I find it cheap compare to the one that I've to pay.

Anyway, after listening to the briefing and took the poster I made my way out. I saw a black car near the coffeeshop which was stationed there. Perhaps the driver was waiting for someone, so I crossed the street and waited till the traffic was clear. Just as I reached the back of the car, suddenly I noticed the car reversed backwards. My right hand was holding the posters and I hit the back window of the car while I heard a shout from the coffeeshop. I was nearly knocked down!

And it wasn't my fault. How on earth can't the driver see me?? And it wasn't moving in the first place. It hit my right leg a bit and had a headache for about 1 hour later. I was shaking by then. And guessed what? The driver didn't apologised to me! Mother farker! And he was on the phone while he was reversing! Stupid damn bloody farking driver. Wish you're meet a worse accident. Urghh.. I can't imagine myself landed in the hospital yesterday *sob sob* I don't want to be dead yet.....

Yes, I am tired. Eventhough I do enjoy my sleep yesterday night, but if I were given a choice, I prefer to stay on bed not wanting to go anywhere.

But, what am I tired of actually? I'm tired of meeting up men and the games they played. Unfaithful men and those who have already give me the impression that all the men cant be trust. Yes I know I can't say all men are not trustworthy. I think it's time. It's time that I rather be left alone on the shelf. I have enough of heartbreaks, broken promises and so on. You just named it. I've gone through all. The pain and tears.

Perhaps if there's a competition for "The Most Tears Collected", I might win. Hehe. Guessed what I'm going to do now? Spend most time with my gal friends and at the private club ogling at others. Eventhough most of them are attached or married, at least they greet you and brightens my day.

And, all the men in my list, I've already striked off everyone except that particular guy who still captures my heart eventhough I seldom talk to him..You know you're the one that I meant, Mr. Turtle.

Oh, and today will be hard for me since there will be a newbie in my school. *sigh* Hate it.

Had Japanese Udon and Ebi Fried Sushi at Woodlands Banquet just now with my librarian. And gee, I dont really do much work for the past 2 days. Still stress up. Perhaps I should bring home some work to do.

Anyway, wouldn't it be nice if we're in love. Especially when one of my closest friend is on cloud 9 and head over heels with her new boyfriend. I envy her and hopes she last much more longer with the current guy. Another close friend going to get married soon. Really wow me. Yes I know being in love is a great feeling but if you're in a position where the love is being rejected for example, it feels sucks.

Anyway, I wanted to update regarding yesterday. Went Hot Yoga alone. Attended Saumik's lesson and surprisingly it's full house! Lots of Black Card (VIP) members and they were noisy of course. Saumik had to bring in about 4 to 6 mats to accomodate everyone in. Lots of balancing from top to torso to bottom and legs.

By the time I got out of the room, my whole face was flushed. Looked as thou I wore thick make up with blusher! Hehe.. Anyway, went to Lia's home yesterday and took a taste at her mom's cake which her mom made during the baking course. And chatted with Lia till about 10pm before I head for home.

Had Prawn maggi noodle with spicy cuttlefish while watching Desperate Housewife which I don't really fancy the show. And really, watching Desperate Housewife in Season 3 makes me feel that they are really desperado. Lol. Don't you think so?

Good morning! Feeling sleepy today. Why? Slept slightly after 1am (well, had a long nap in the afternoon, maybe that explains). Did cried before I felt asleep. Perhaps, I feel as thou I don't trust men anymore. I don't know.

Pressure with work of course. Nearly went insane on Saturday. I was really lost when I was with Lia. We walked from my office to Raffles Banquet for lunch. And really, at that moment, I felt like knocking my head on the wall. *sigh*

Anyway, smsed Shakin, my Personal Trainer at midnight with this message "12/3, midnite : Boo!Juz dropping by to wish ya a vry happy & joyous birthday, Mr. Pt! Hehe.. May u haf a wonderful yr ahead & best wishes to whatever u do =) ". And he replied me at 8.02am "Hello mornin. Haha.. Sorry late reply.. Slept early yest.. Anyway thanks ya! Haha. Enjoy ur day =) ". Hmm, just like what I've guessed. To which I disturbed him that he had to treat others since he's the birthday boy. Lol. Joking² ..

Anyway, mentioning about Shakin, he bullied me on my last PT on Friday! How? Well, I didn't tell him I was having my first period. He asked me to do on leg exercise and some squats which I felt like fainting. And reallly, I was panting and sweating like mad. Usually I don't sweat a lot. Anyway, attend my PT late also. *sigh* but hey, I signed up another 8 more sessions! Will be meeting Shakin every month for my assessment, to which I mustn't increase my fats.

But for the last 8 sessions, I'm going to tell him this coming Friday (for my assessment) that I wanted to focus more on my stamina instead. Why? Because I'm aiming to do rock climbing! Aiming to learn rock climbing by end of this year.

And why do I want to learn rock climbing? To prove that I love hard core challenge and to pursue my childhood dream of climbing. And to that, I need strong arms & legs. So, anyone care to join?

Lots of work to do during school holidays and sure I can be bonkers. Hate it hate it hate it. *sigh* Doing lots of manual, designing of posters, planning of lessons for students and teachers, uploading webpages to the server and installing to about 80 computers for 3 softwares can really drive me crazy *sigh*

I finally and officially finds my new job scope sucks. Just my luck.

Been feeling cold nowadays. Having my first day of menses today. Sheeshh.. And having last day of my training at the gym with my personal trainer. Not that I will not exercise on it. But damn, had to tell him that I didn't do workout on Wed..haiz..I'm just soo tired. Tired of everything. I need a long break *sigh*

Yea, I know it's been a few days since I last update something here. Anyway, not much to update either. Miss him of course. Didn't get to chat with him for the past few days. Perhaps, he was busy.

Anyway, while I was on the bus to work, I saw this family of three (well, the child is a girl). The dad was going to work while the mom sent the daughter to work. When the daughter saw a seat empty beside her dad, she quickly sat beside him and lay her head on her dad's bag, which was on the lap.

When it reached a bus stop before mine, the daughter and mom alighted from the bus. But before that, the daughter kissed the dad's left cheek while the mom kissed her husband on his lips. I find it cute and loving. It's like I can feel the close bonding among the three of them.

Last Tuesday night, I didn't know what's happening to me. After chatting with a friend of mine till 1230am and we happened to talk about flying cockroaches, I went to sleep. But only about 2am and 4am I woke up to go to the toilet as I can't stand the pain in the stomach. Felt as thou I had diarrhea. And what's worse is that I dreamt of flying cockroaches. Ewww..it's sure disgusting which, I think that's why I had diarrhea. Oh well..

Really frustrating with the company. Doesn't mean that I've accepted as a senior trainer, I've to do the same boring "Introduction to school environment" to different trainees. Yes, I don't mind doing it.

But seeing 4 trainees per week everyday and spending a day with them is actually boring. Why?? Because, I can't possibly complete my tasks at work! And a lot of tasks are still pending. How on earth can I complete everything within a short period of time?

Urghh. Getting stress everyday. I can die telling the same stuff each day. Haiz.


Yesterday made the traditional delicacies, Getas - Getas. Quite a lot. About 34 pieces. My favourite but yes, I can't eat too much of it.

And when I'm frying those before I made the sugar, the oil splattered on me. As a result, I received these ugly marks on my right hand. Of course it's painful but *sigh* I just had to deal with these scars! And not one or two scars, mind you. I have 11 scars on my right hands / fingers, one scar on my right foot and an invisible scar on my right forehead.

Seriously, getting to complete my task and having my own "free" time is impossible nowadays *sigh* I hate my current job scope.

Another newbie for me to teach today. Gosh, I think I'll go bonkers if they keep sending new people here. And I'm getting sick of repeating the same thing to different people. Anyway, today's newbie is better than the rest as she asked lots of questions compare to the rest.

Anyway, later going to gym. excessive diarrhoe yesterday night and morning just now. *sigh* Perhaps that's what happen when my stomach was empty and I consumed sour papaya slice. I just can't get enough of soury stuff. My Mom passed me a pill to prevent diarrhoe from happening at work. Thanks Mom!


Take a look at the picture above. Last Wednesday, I came across this. Not sure which idiotic person went to remove the "i". So, instead of "Toilet", it became a two word "To Let" Haha.

Going for personal gym training later. *sigh* it's raining again. And it might be cold while I'm doing my workout later. Haha, if only Shakin can hug me! Fat hope gal. Lol!

What's wrong with me? Always I'm feeling sleepy an hour after lunch! Arrghh.. Hate it. And today morning I received a shock that I have to teach a newbie today as well as tomorrow. So, hard for me to be on msn as well as to update my blog *sigh*
Ate Laksa at the Chinese Muslim at Bugis about 9pm. Thou I hate cockles, just that my throat felt like eating it thou I eat laksa in school last Friday. Anyway, I really do need to prevent myself from eating too much and those in high cholestrol and fats.

Shasha treated us dinner yesterday. Thanks gal! *Smooches* Will treat Shasha & Lia, after my pay increase (that is next month's pay onwards).


Things happening this month

1. Anniversary of my Blogging on 16th March
   
2. My Birthday *ehem ehem* (remember to give me something ok? lol)
3. Start of my new job scope & pay rise
4. Teaching 6 teachers on a software
5. Teaching new trainees (soon to be trainers) Macromedia Dreamweaver on Mon (19th [bloody hell! my birthday ='( ] & 26th ) & Wed (22nd & 28th) nights from 6.30pm to 10pm at my company (damn, hate these timings! Hopefully I don't yawn in front of them *sigh* there goes the days which I can't attend yoga nor gym *sigh*)