Today ain't a good day. At least, not for me. It just seemed like a bad day for me.

1) I became angry when I read the news about that Mas Selamat. He's still not yet caught. Perhaps what the government can also do, besides the manhunt is to check the surrounding of that area. Maybe he found a place to escape or something. Anyway, I wish him to be dead. May Allah let the Government find him and give him life imprisonment or something. Such an idiot to escape.

2) I was bullied again. This time to push 3 cupboards down. Managed to get my TA to help me. Thanks.

3) Emergency exercise. When I first hear the sound, it doesn't sound like an alarm. More like school bell. But, oh well. My first thought "Oh great. First, because of point number 1. Now, this?" Switched off the aircon & lights and quickly exited my lab to the field. But, to my dismay, the kids didn't take it seriously. They were walking more casually as thou the little disruption is just something not to be taken seriously. And I got to know that they were slow to evacuate the building. I agreed since I find that the alarm was stopped after sometime.

4) I always hate CCA days. Kids, will always knock on my door impatiently instead of waiting for the educator in charge. Why can't they let me "enjoy" a few minutes more before they enter?


Had video msn chat with Ain. Lol. Guess who I saw?

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Gerams ok. Hehe. Ain, can I just bite your cat? Lol. After seeing Ain holding her webcam, the cat just turned and let me see its butt. Lol. Seriously your cat is cute. I just wish I can cuddle it.

Ended work late today *sigh* Well, helping this educator to install a software so that he can show to the parents & colleagues about his hobby whereby we can fly the plane / helicopter virtually. Almost 1h 30 mins just to settle it.

While I was helping my colleague and while he was checking if it's working, I was reading my work mail. And this admin in my hq, is extremely dumb. Thou she's new but seriously, she's dumb. Wanna know why?

I sent a form to request for notes. In the form, it state the software I required, the place I'm going to conduct the course at (usually, they will know that it means to be send to the school), the date / time required for the notes to arrive and the quantity that I need.

Hi Siti,

You did not stated how many you wanted, where is the delivery place? Time of delivery place?

I was like "Eh? Dumb ehk?" Messaged my clique and inform him. Guessed what he said? "Ahaha. Mmg dia selenger bacin" Lol. And, I tried to be nice to her instead of being sarcastic and mean to her by replying her this

Hi

It's already stated in form. Perhaps you should take a look at the form again.

The amount of notes I required is under Quantity, which is 303 copies.

The delivery place is stated under Training Centre which is Primary School.

As for the time of delivary place is under date / time required which is on 10 March 2008, Monday at 9am.

Thanks.

Luckily, I didn't said anything about her education xP The way she emailed me is as thou I'm one of her friends.

Anyway........

Ewans ended his reservist today. Yey! Finally. I'm happy =) Only Allah knows how badly I wanna talk to him now.

Guess my mood ain't alright. I'm not sure why. My sister asked me when I'm going to Ramen Ten with her, I sort of tell her off. I just don't feel like talking to her at the moment. It's like she kept whining when I'm going with her. I'm tired of listening to the same thing. Give me a break.

Abah said something too and..well..I guess I'm not really in a good mood.

Somehow, I felt as thou I should cry. I don't know why. *sob sob*

Guess what? I overslept today (-_-") I was dead tired eventhough I have like 5 hours sleep. Well, I ended work quite late yesterday. Busily thinking of what to teach the p1 kids on cyber thingy. *sigh* Thanks Fairus, my colleague for the ideas thou teaching them how to prevent virus, well that's a bit too much for them since most of them will not have emails, like learning not to open unknown emails.

Reached home, but nobody was at home. Took a shower before I went to shop to buy my stuff. Funny that my mom cooked sambal goreng pengantin. Lol. Perhaps it's the frozen dish which she cooked the other time and froze it. I don't know. But, both my brother and me shared & finished up the whole bowl together, while watching Zoom Hong Kong and Blk 13. Lol.

Honestly, I hate that N. Aini. She's thought she's soo great. I'm disgusted by her behaviour to her fellow co-player, Huda. Got to know from my brother that N. Aini's husband is a flirt. I did ask my brother how he know about it and he told me that that guy is his friend's friend. Or something like that. Oh well. I don't even care about that.

My temples been hurting soo much yesterday. I don't know why. Felt a sharp pain on the left temple, and than the right side. Even when I'm typing this down, my left temple felt a sharp pain again *sob sob* It hurts.

I'm beginning to hate work. Still too many tasks and I'm handling alone. Lots of stuff need to be settle this week. And I'm beginning to feel my body has been turning weak. Not enough rest, too many things to worry about. And I haven't do my resume yet! Urgh!

And, I miss him.

Met Shasha after work at Orchard Mrt. I had a call yesterday informing I was given a free massage (either back, feet or eye [ or is it facial?]) but I chose back massage since my body really needs it. The caller informed me that I could bring someone along and suggested that I turned up today.

Went to True Spa and waited for awhile before we went in separate rooms for our massage. Since it's only back massage, I was told just to open the top. Damn, the massage was soo relaxing compare to the previous massage that I went to at Tanjong Pagar.

After the 20 minutes massage, we went for dinner at Cahaya Restaurant before we head back home.

He called me yesterday when I was about to doze off. Sorry dear if you can't really hear my voice. Perhaps, that explains clearer why you can't hear me through the phone. Only Allah knows how excited I was when he contacted me. We chatted for a while. He ain't feeling well. Hope he's going to be alright since he's in the jungle now.

4 days. That's the time he's going to be in there. And, there's bound to have no reception there =( My fingers just feel itchy to just send a message and sometimes to just dial the number. I shall make myself busy these few days.

And guess what? I think I made a very big mistake for March holidays. I'm supposed to state in the letter that the course commence at 830am. But I accidentally typed out 8am. *sigh*

I'm not in the best mood today. Not sure why. Just that I really felt sucks today. Perhaps I find that I might be in trouble. I overheard my Principal having an unhappy conversation with my Operation Manager outside my lab. Perhaps, she wanted to confront me. *sigh* If it's true, than it must be because of the mixed up of the dates.

But she can't blame on me entirely. Why? Because firstly, I've submitted the letter for vetting to my supervisor, after which my level head read it and finally, she read it too before I print out the letters and handed them to the form teachers. *sigh* I'm really depressed.

As a result, I didn't have my lunch thou my stomach did growled. Met babe Shasha for dinner. Had fried fish bee hoon and I did felt full, halfway while eating it. Perhaps, I really don't feel like eating.

I think I'm feeling moody. There's one moment I just felt like bursting into tears. There's one moment I felt like I don't feel like working. There's one moment I felt as thou I should scream at everyone I'm working with. *sigh*

Yesterday, managed to jog 6 rounds around the park and brisk walk 2 times around the park. I was sweating! Finally! Ok, I think I shall go back to jogging on weekends again =)

Anyway, a few facts about me.

1. I love pineapples. Don't ask why. I just enjoy the taste. I think I follow my dad since he likes pineapple. I remember, during my secondary school time, I will always buy a slice of pineapple.
   
   
2. I love fruits. Especially those juicy type. Except for some. An example, chiku. Just dislike the taste.
   
   
3. I hate kupang.
   
   
4. I dislike petai. Gosh, the smell is soo terrible *faints*
   
   
5. I hate hate HATE corns / maize.
   
   
6. I'm a game addict. Once I start playing the game, hard for me to stop. Well, unless somone manage to stop me. Anyone? Hehe.
   
   
7. I've a phobia of any animals that is in groups. Like an army of ants, a whole group of crows. I will find myself scratching here and there.
   
   
8. I just can't get bitten by mosquitoes or ants. Why? Because it will swell since I can't stop scratching, hoping the itchiness will go away. Lol. Take a look at the picture below. That's the latest result. Told Ewans about it. He's supposed to enter jungle tomorrow and I'm the one who got bitten by mosquitoes first.
   

Ok, that's about it for the time being. Haha.

I wonder if he's alright. I'm feeling soo lost when I didn't hear anything from him.

A week has past. Wee~! I'm soooo glad! Why? Because he's left with a week more for reservist. Going to miss him again for another week. And tuesday, he's going to enter the jungle =( Anyway, I didn't know going for reservist do have some excursions. Hehe. Cute uh. Ahakz.

Met him up. Supposed to meet up at 2pm but it was postponed to 4pm. It's quite a last minute thing. So I had to bluff my way through just to meet him. No transport to meet him is kinda hard since we live quite a distance away.

Anyway, we had our meals at an Indian shop. He went to order a plate of mee goreng. Wow, quite a lot since he asked for extra and since we're sharing. He took a few mouthfuls with the egg and wanted me to eat half of the food since he knew I have not yet eaten.

First question he asked.

Kenapa you miss me?

Told him I didn't get to meet him. Asking him if he doesn't want me to miss him at all. Asked me what I did the whole week. Seriously, I've been quite good. Don't know why. Went to work, after that I went back home. Gosh, I do find it bored doing that most of the time. But, well. I guess it should at least make my PARENTS happy that I'm always back home after work (-_-")

Went on to talk about him, then me then him. At least there's a flow =) Anyway, while I was with him, his ex called. Sibok la tu pompuan. Ishk! Felt like grabbing his phone and tell the ex to get a life. I just felt jealous about it. I don't know why. I kept asking him to eat since he said that he was hungry but I guess he find that he's "full" after meeting me? Haha. I don't know. Just a wild assumption. Lol.

Told him what Shasha told me about the karaoke thing. He was excited. He wanted it today but I told him that Shasha isn't feeling well. So, I've to keep him updated. Then he went to check something with Sis Kat. Aww, ku terdengar the conversation. I was laughing and *ehem* jealous also hor. Haha.

Still eating and I kept using the fork to try pick a few strands of noodles until he said "Asyik main je makanan. Makan la." I told him I felt full and I can't finish most it. So I asked him to finish up 3/4 but still, he didn't. Until I felt upset when he asked about Vans.

I just felt irritated by that question. Instead of eating, I kept on playing with the food and told him in another tone "I and him are no longer together. And no! Why must he call me??" I think he sensed my frustration and my unhappiness. I just want to avoid it. I just don't want him to talk about Vans. He's gone from my life. I just don't want to remember the past. Let the past be buried.

Anyway, I've told him about Mr. Imp. I don't know. I just felt that I shouldn't be keeping this from him, fearing he might find out soon.

Anyway, he packed the unfinished food and we went out. Night time, we had a very light meal which is tau huay. Ah, been a long time since I last ate it. My favourite as well as his. After that, we went to find psp earphones. Quite expensive. I was perspiring because there's too many people around, especially Banglas.

I know he hasn't been exercising for quite sometime. Yet, it worries me after he told me that his body was aching. And he's been asking if I miss him. Of course I do. I felt that the communication with him is a little less when he's having reservist. He told me he might be going Thailand next year for 3 weeks, perhaps in March. March? *sigh* It saddens me more especially if he's to go that far for quite sometime.

Told me to tell my adeq to opt army and to join police. He has his reasons. But it will be better if he tells that to my adeq since, I don't know I guess it's better for guys to tell it themselves. I find that they will listen better. I don't know.

Anyway, he met Bahar after meeting me while I went home straight. I think there's one part I said something, which I can't remember. And he said something like "Asal nak marah marah ni?" or "Asal moody ni?" I don't know dear. Perhaps I'm going to have my menses soon. I do find myself feeling moody nowadays. I'm extremely sorry.

My parents aren't at home and Kakak was already asleep.

To tell you the truth, I hate it when Abah nags. I just find that my ears will bleed. And when he starts to nag, usually it will be because of his work and Mama kept on complaining. Don't blame me. I'm the only one who did the housework, trying to get the house clean and there's freeloaders who just can't bother to tidy the house and most of the time I'm at home or home early compare to the rest of my siblings. But seriously, if he's having problem at work, he shouldn't vent on me. As thou he's the only one who have problems, and not me. *sigh*

Slept late last night about 230am. Had conference with my members in the game. Sort of admin meeting in msn. Oh well.

Anyway, he's going back in camp tonight. *sigh* And I'm already missing him again.

Actually, there's quite a number of things I wanted to mention here. But, I ditched the idea as it may sound as thou I'm bitching, I'm whinning, I'm complaining. So most of what I wanted to blog down, I decided to just let go of it.

Journey home wasn't smooth. Accident happened in front of Best Denki warehouse whereby a lorry hit a car, which than hit a taxi.

Rained poured down when I left school about 645pm. 3 girls were left behind accidentally by their bus drivers to which I overheard the Principal told Operation Manager to scold the bus driver on Monday.

Honestly speaking, my day today ain't that great. More to bad luck. I don't know why. I felt pissed off with kids making noise in my lab since today's the start of CCA. Oh yes, I did screamed at them. Lol. I know they dislike me screaming. Could see their irritated face when I started to scold them. Not my fault. They were disturbing my peace and I can't concentrate on my work.

Anyway, bad luck again when I reached my block. It happened in the lift. 3 of us in the lift. The first lady got off at the second storey (for goodness sake, use the stairs! It's only 2 storeys, not 20 storeys high!). Second lady got off at the third floor. Just when the lift door about to close, the lift black out.

I panicked! Luckily there's some gap like the size of your hands. So I opened up (felt as thou I'm someone with muscle. Hahaha) the door and took the stairs to my floor.

Luckily I didn't get stuck in the lift. For sure I'll be panicking. Eventhou they did state the emergency number there, imagine the stuffiness of the lift with no fan at all. Wow! And I've already felt tired + pissed off + sleepy + hungry.

Anyway, be careful alright? Nowadays I felt it's the season of sickness and season of mosquitoes! I've a few "love" bites from these mosquitoes. Why can't they just leave me alone? *sigh*

Chatted with him just now. So happy that a week of his reservist will come to an end tomorrow. Left one more week! And I'm extremely bored to death without him =X And he will of course comment "Hmm, baik nah tk kluar bila I tgh reservist?"

To babe Shasha, get well soon gal. Hopefully you recover fast. I wanna go gym again!

To pP aka ShittyChombie

Haha. Sorry uh I ask what "angao" means. Lol. Seriously, I don't know.

Anyway, he called me about 12pm, just after he finished his training. So, we talked on the phone for a while. Do take care uh. I know your legs aren't feeling good nowadays. He felt as thou there's burning sensation to his legs. Ouch.

Him: So makan apa nari? Nasi ayam lagi?

Me: ...... (-_-")

Seriously, don't ask me what I can eat, especially when I'm in school. I mean, you can find chicken rice 3 times a week. The other type of foods for 3 days aren't that tempting, you know. Especially the green stall and she sells quite expensive. Sometimes feel like telling them to cook something special for me. Haha. Yela. Makan sorang. Ti orang lain semua jeles.

Like just now. One of the educators spoke to me.

She: So, what you're eating? Something special too?
(She and 2 others ordered something like mee kuning and kway teow in something like watery bandung. I don't know how to explain. It looked tempting thou..)

Me: No. Just normal.

She: So not so special? Hahaha!

I just smiled at her. Ordered rice with rendang ayam + sambal goreng + sunny side up egg. That's all and it cost S$2. I find it expensive.

My gaming update which I'm gonna blog.

This is my current addiction, which I've been mentioning that I'm doping every now and then in my msn. And I finally made like 518 billion - to date. About 200 bil to 250 bil on my "work day" whereby people work for me. Haha. Finally. My dream is to be a "trillionaire"! Haha. Since I can't have it reality, I can have it in the game. Hehe.

Made an account for Ewans too >.< Within like 4 hours I managed to let him went up 4 ranks. Nice. Told him about it. Don't worry dear, you'll change the email and password later aite? But as soon as you come back from reservist, you're going to find job first. Not this game.

Tired and sleepy. That's the state I'm in almost daily.

Yesterday, I was about to alight at the next stop to buy something from Watson when my phone vibrate. While listening to my mp3, I took a look at the caller who gave me miss call. Guess who calls? =D

As soon as I alight from the bus, called him. I was struggling to remove my earpiece from my right ear and I didn't realised that he actually had picked up my call and was saying "Hello" for like 3 times xP Sorry uh.

The minute I received the missed call to our conversation, my mind was extremely blank plus excited plus full of questions. Haha. The first few moments of our conversation.

Him : U kat mana?

Me (blank + excited) : Nak gi beli barang. I turun pat the bus stop before my home tu. U kat ner?

Him: Ok. I pat rumah.

Me (still blank + confused) : Huh? Rumah? Kata u reservist?

Him: A'ah. Pat rumah. Hahaha.

Me (still didn't get it) : Tak kan U balik kan?

Him: Pat rumah army la. Hahahahaha!

Me : Weii! Jahat kan! Hmph!

Him : Hehe.. Napa ni? Sound sedih je. Cam miss I je?

Me : Eh? Apa? MESTI LA miss u! (blush) Sapa tak miss?

Him : Haha. Abeh u ada cry bila miss I?

Errm. Ok. Let's end that conversation. Haha! So selenger. Tu la akibat orang tengah blank + excited. (Cam lama tak bebual dengan dia) Haha! He told me that he will only enter the jungle next week. Cheh! Buat orang pat sini rindu pat orang di sana je (^^p)

And, I was smiling and grinning at the same time while I walked back to my home, after we ended our conversation.

Ok la. Going to do timetable for my courses soon. Hopefully >.<

I received this invitation from a lovely colleague. Thanks babe for the invitation. And congrats, sweetie =) It's kind like a postcard, front and back but for display purpose, I placed it side by side. Realized that I've forgotten to tone down the wordings of my blog site on the image (-_-") Ah! Never mind.

And, I read from the card that her future husband is from Belgium. Cool!

Anyway, will inform her that I can't enter the chapel that day. She doesn't look like her age.

But, oh well. I guess smile does make you age slower.

I'm feeling getting bored daily. So, no choice but just have to wait till he can reply me *sigh*

Ku kagen banget sama mas deh.

Going home soon. I guess these two weeks will be super boring week for me.

I was pissed off on Monday because of 1 Educator who always command me to do this and that as thou I'm her slave. Fark off. I'm not even your maid. And you never hire me in the first place. There's no need to tell me off when I'm busy doing other tasks and I can't do your task. Stupid!

Ewans went for his reservist on Monday. Dang! *tsk tsk*

He didn't contact me yesterday. I felt soo down. I'm not sure if it's because of the conversation on Monday, or simply because he's too tired to even reach out for his phone.

Worse, today's the day he's going into the jungle. =(

I know my babe had advised me "At times, it's best to tell the truth." *sigh*

Honestly, I've no mood to even do my work. And I don't really feel like eating much. I think it will do me good. To control myself from eating too much.

But the thing that really extremely bug me is that....

Yesterday after I've done my duty in school, met up with Ewans about 140pm. Honestly, yesterday was the longest duration I've spent my time with him. About 7 hours 10 minutes ("p)

Had our lunch. He's kinda shocked that I do eat bawang with chili. Haha.

Anyway, about 7+pm I contacted Shasha since I didn't hear her calling me. (Sorry deh. Ku silence kan phone. hehehe..)

While conversing with Shasha, a man's voice came in. Sungguh ku tak kenal! And gosh, he sounded soooo mentel! And that person is Ryan! Haha. Tapi jahat kan ni dua. Sindir cakap "Happy Reservist" la, "Apa mau reservist" la. Ishk!

Anyway, there's one moment while we were waiting for the traffic to clear, there's this lady (she's prettier than me) was asking for directions. But I did detect that she wanted Ewans to send her to the destination! I kept quiet. Ewans held my hand except when he's 2 steps away from me telling her the directions. After she's unsuccessful in getting me and/or Ewans to send her to the destination, she thanked us.

Gila eh dia. Saturday night gi sorang2. Kawan dia bodoh pe suruh meet pat situ? Ada ke dia nak I antar dia?

I just smiled at him and we changed the topic.

He bought his usual cig at 7 eleven. But before the person handed him the cig, that 7 eleven guy asked "Can I see your IC?"

I was amused by that question. Haha. Ewans laughed and told him "I'm going to be 30 soon. I look that young?" to which, that guy blushed and responded "Haha. Yes I'm 30 also."

Perhaps his hair makes him look younger. Or perhaps, he always smile, which makes him look younger. I don't know.

But one thing I know for sure.... I think I'm missing him. Especially for these 2 weeks (T_T)

As I mentioned yesterday, I was dead tired. Extremely dead tired.

Left work nearly 430pm and made my way to CCK to meet up Ewans. Had an early dinner and we just sat behind Lot 1 mall. Both of us asked each other where to go but ended up we spent sitting there, near the construction which is just beside the mall and watching him playing psp.

He played the racing car game while I looked on. He did asked me to play but the fact is that I don't know how to navigate through the psp. Lol. Seriously. If I were to get hold of it, know what? I'll be addicted and you'll see me buying one. Haha.

Modified his "racing car" together. First time he accidentally deleted it, so we create almost the same look.

Anyway, I found myself sleeping on his shoulder. Doubt he realised it. Oh well. Made my way home about 830pm and found myself sleeping at about 1040pm after I reached home about 10pm.

I may not attend today's staff lunch for yesterday's sports day. Reason? Might be meeting Ewans after my work.

Oh yeah. I'm working now. Shucks. And it will be bored for me as I'll be just sitting in and looking on at the workshops conducted by educators to educators (-_-")

Gotta know someone asked my babe where I've gone to. Seriously, I don't think he should mind my business. I mean, after he miscommunicate with me and every now and then trying to just making me feel as thou I'm in the wrong and he's in the right. Get what I mean?

And another thing. I'm gonna be "eaten" by my work soon. Tasks had been pilling non-stop. Need to get back on track again.

Babe, next Monday we're going gym ok? I can't stand feeling tired always. I need my work out. Text me once you read this.

I'm feeling extremely shagged today *stretches* My body is aching.

Slept early last night about 930pm with earphones in my ears. Well, at least I can make myself feel relax and not hearing voices made by my family members.

But,

Ewans wanted to talk to me about 12pm as he contact me through my phone. Only to realise that my mom was on the phone with her Haj friend. Told him I'll call him once my mom hanged up the phone but I didn't manage to wake up as I was extremely tired.

Next thing I knew, my brother called at about 130am.

I was pissed off of course. For goodness sake, I was having a nice sleep. I threw a bit of tantrum. He told me he forgot to bring his keys. Urgh! His scooter keys with him but not home keys! I actually did scold him before I stormed to my bed and continue sleeping =P

And I thought I reached school late. But i was not even late. The buses to send us to Woodlands stadium are late.

And I'm extremely tired by the event. The Sports Day event. Only me walking around the whole stadium to take video shots. And I realised that I was shaking quite badly. And I knew Green Hornets won this year's house cup. How do I know? Gee, not sure. Perhaps my instinct? Haha.

Ok. It's already 4pm now. Should get going now.

Sharks. Tomorrow I'm on duty (-_-") but.... it's ok. Why? Because there's


All because of today's event. Tee Hee Hee... Oh... This year, there's no dinner for Sports Day. Only lunch. Well, at least better than nothing right?

It's just another way to express your love. Anyway, today's Valentine Day aka Mentel Day. Haha. Lots of couple are celebrating this "auspicious" day. Love songs are definitely being played in all radio stations. You'll see couples walking hand in hand everywhere. And I think



Haha. I think it will be an entertaining moment if we can just walk pass those rooms and hear them moaning. Hahaha!


I'm not celebrating of course. It will be just like other years which I've gone through. Anyway, feeling pretty bored. Did get only a few tasks done. My handphone have been rather quiet today (besides the only phonecall by my Supervisor).

Heading home pretty soon. And seriously, I've to go to bed early today. Need to prepare for tomorrow. Gosh, need to be in school at 7am tomorrow to follow them to stadium for sports day. And, the best part? I've to film everything at the stadium. Wow! Definitely it will be a tiring day tomorrow.

And, I'm working on Saturday. Hmm, on stand by, just in case. Educators will be returning to do survey. After which we have lunch. Hmm, wonder if there's other plans lining out after that. I wonder........

Quite a handful to update.

First, went to a portal workshop yesterday. My LH and one of the educators. The workshop was said to be from 2pm till 5pm. But we ended early. Well, there's no need to be 3 hours for that particular workshop as they teaches us how to use the website for administrators. Asked my colleague to send me to the traffic light and I made my way to school (since it's a few blocks down). My LH was telling me "Eh? No need go to school again. Go home la.." But I told him I'm waiting for my friend.

Secondly, I was on the way to the MRT to meet Shasha yesterday when I heard this boy (perhaps he's about 4 to 6 years old) kept on questioning his mom.

Why is there a path in between these bushes?
Why do we need to stop and wait for the car to move?
Why do they make the bridge like this?
Why?
Why?
Why?

Honestly, if I'm the mother and if I weren't in my best mood, I would have slapped the boy. Too many questions asking. *faints*

While I was with Shasha, there's this Indian lady shouting for her stupid little boy. This kid went wandering around and the mom frantically kept on calling for her son. And there's one point of time, I felt that she was shouting in my ear. Urgh!

I'm lacking of sleep nowadays *sigh*

Something caught my attention when I was just opposite my school just now. There's this black bird (burung tiong) was trying to catch a lizard on the road! Haha! Really. The bird was trying hard. Haha! So cute. After which, it was joined by another fellow bird. Not sure what had happened to the lizard's fate. Tee Hee.

Something bothers me when he called me just now. *sigh*

And he asked me

You sure you do?

Of course. Why wouldn't I be, eventhough we last met on Monday? And, nowadays will be tough for us to meet up (T_T)

And he asked

Tomorrow V-day. Tak kluar with him?

Told him not to touch on that. He asked why and asked me what I've sent to Vans. My reply to him was I told him(Vans) that I'm tired of the waiting game and I don't wish to be in the waiting game again and I know that he's been lying".

Not sure if Vans knows my meaning, but oh well. I treat it that we're officially severing our relationship. If, by chance Vans comes across this, I would like to say Goodbye.

We finally met again after a week =) All because of the super long CNY.

He wanted to meet me at Woodlands but ended up we're meeting at Tanjong Pagar since I've to submit my monthly report. And he was late. All because he thought that I might be reaching Tanjong Pagar late (-_-")

I only knew about it when he smsed me asking where am I and at that point of time I was about to cross to Fuji Xerox. After I made a little (just a little..really!) whinning that I've to wait for him, he quickly canceled his order (he was about to have a drink) and rushed down to meet me.

The funny part was that I didn't know ST Building used to be called Jit-Something (whatever the name was) and he was driving super slow once he reaches near PSA. Sorry bus drivers! Haha!

Ok, went to have a drink and we chatted. I love the conversation =)

When we reached back to his lorry, he said "Oh No! Saman lagi!"

And guessed what? We're 15 minutes late. Urgh! All because we park at the single white line area. But seriously, there's ain't much traffic there. Tak banyak kenderaan keluar masuk. *sigh* Ok, it's pretty hard to get parking space aite, because of the size. *sigh*

As a result, the night was spoil because of that ticket! He wasn't in the mood thou I know he tried to sound cheerful.

But still, I felt much more guilty. Why? Because he received that ticket while he's with me *sigh*

Nice defination of bitch. Haha.

Work, is alright. But, I think something has been distracting me that I'm having some difficulties concentrating on my work =P

Oh, and I'm on course tomorrow at 2pm. Thought I missed that date (1st Feb). Phew! Lucky me =) Got a note from one of the teachers. I miss going on courses. I'm soo looking forward to it.

Ok, gotta run to Tanjong Pagar. I mean, not really run. Have to just hand in that report.

Edited the image above. Add in one of the quotes to this plain picture which shows the cat sleeping.

Anyway, I'm feeling alright today. Thanks =)

Dreams. Yea, that's right. That's the topic which I'm going to cover today. I had the weirdest dream between 7am till about 10am.

The dream whereby this guy, who resembles someone I'm meeting these days. This guy uses the master bedroom's toilet when my parents are asleep instead of using the kitchen's toilet. And guessed what? I introduced him to my mom as Vans! Gosh. Ok. Enough of that.

Nothing much to say about the dream that I dreamt just now.

Guessed who "gave me a wake up call" today? Someone who I dreamt of, earlier on. Ewans called a few minutes before 10am.

Sorry I tak contact yesterday. Lupa bawak HP gi pantai. U know kan I pat beach with my family. Terlanjur my dad nak balik to BP,I gi amik my HP skali. Sunday then balik. 5 big tents tapi semua tido luar. Tent tu semua utk both of us.

Haha. I know he was having fun time with his family =) Good for you dear.

Tgh buat pe?

Told him I'm about to get off bed and just woke up. Gosh, it's soo embarrasing! Haha. Ok, I slept late last night uh. 2+am was my bedtime, so it's pretty alright actually, especially when I'm ain't working.

As for me, I guess my Saturday will still be a boring day. Wanting to go out but I couldn't find someone to go out with.

And gosh, I think I blew up my expenses on my handphone bill (-_-") About $97. I think it's all because of the other time I was on phone with my boss. Damn him for making me burning a hole in my pocket *sigh* And that amount, is usually my 2 months handphone bill. Can you imagine that?

Funny, how a simple innocent sms can lead into a big miscommunication. When miscommunication happens, things start to turn ugly. Emotions will fly and ended up sumone's getting hurt.

In this case, I'm not sure if the other party is the one who is getting hurt, but I know I do and am feeling hurt. Hurt by the words, by the accussations and so on. Thanks to that someone. Yes I know that we're planning to meet, but each time there's always something on occur to either one of us.

Yes, I'm disappointed when that someone is supposed to accompany me to my friend's engagement but he couldn't make it. *sigh* but I didn't pursue the matter nor did I make a big issue out of it. It turns out that both of us happened to have something on twice among the 4 supposed-to-have-meet-ups.

I know he's heartbroken with what other gals had done to him, especially around a year and a half ago. But, wild accussations is a big no-no. I couldn't prevent my tears from falling, from the moment I fell asleep last night and it started again after lunch.

My appetite has been declining badly. I only had my late lunch cum dinner at 8+pm after I had my breakfast at about 1130am earlier yesterday.

My mood ain't stable and I'm getting headache. Perhaps, I ain't getting enough rest. And I hated my Friday. I don't know what's going to happen today. But I know that my weekend has already ruined my whole mood. I'm not even enjoying my long weekend.

Told my babe about it. Thanks dear for the advices. Perhaps, he's trying to test me. But, it will really feel as thou I'm with Nasir (again). You know, the debating. But this time, the debating is through sms. *sigh* I know that words, if being read with either a sad or angry mood, can change the whole meaning of the sentence. Thus, it will lead to miscommunication.

I did took my time to reply. But, again, I felt as thou I was demoralised. That's the least I expect from a guy. To demoralised me. It's not that I'm trying to gain sympathy from him. But, that's how my life is. With my life entangled and not yet confirmed whether I'm free from Vans, to my life being controlled by my parents, whereby I can't go out and be home as and when I want to.

Some people just don't understand what I've been through. The reason? Because they're ain't the one who's facing the situation. Yes, of course I can try to sneak out of the house and try to be home before my parents wake up. But what if my parents find out about it? What am I going to answer to them? What happens when they started to ground me? What if I can't even go out to work anymore? All this are always playing and lingering in my mind. Also, what if, I find out that I'm being locked outside and can't even enter the house anymore? Where am I going to stay?

People can give all sorts of reasons, but when it happens in real life, will they be able to solve it? I doubt so. *sigh*

And when you're talking about feelings and heart and love, do you even understand how the whole thing works? Sometimes, people who was conned in life will be cautious in their next relationship. But that doesn't mean you can demoralised another person, just because you want to prevent the same thing from happening again. *sigh*

I really find it's too much.

It hurts me.

It hurts my heart.

It hurts my brain..

And it hurts the friendship that we have. A close friendship. *sigh*

And....

Sorry ain't enough to mend the broken, shattered heart. Because words are the most powerful weapons that is required to shatter someone's heart.

I'm feeling pretty bored during these holidays. Not sure where to go or with who to go out with. *sigh*

Anyway, did I mentioned yesterday that I ran? Oh yeah, I did ran from the traffic lights (after I crossed the road) all the way to the AMK platform within a minute. And mind you, I didn't take the escalator. Lol. Unbelievable but yeah, my "morning exercise". Haha.

And I think my supervisor might wonder why I panted yesterday as he called me once I stepped into the train.

Ok, I'm feeling super bored now. Hmm, should I have a marathon to watch Heroes Season 1 or stick to the net?

And guessed what?

I don't feel like eating lunch anymore xP

I'm feeling pretty pissed off. Firstly, all because of that educator who alter the scripts of 3 students for the post school leaving examinations. Thanks to this buffalo, she made the school infamous just after the school got it's title last year for being one of the top 5 schools in this country.

Dear Judge,

Can you do me a favour by throwing her into the cell for years? Especially when she abuses her authority and expects everyone in the school to give her daughter a first class treatment. Just because that time, she's working as subject head, her daughter will get everything. Even when the daughter is a big complainer, she should not make an excuse to tell another person by being too strict since the kids are behaving like monkeys.

Ok. Secondly, about that maid. It will be better if WE treat her the way she TREATED that poor baby. We should just yanked her like what she did, kicked her after we placed her in a hammock or something. Urgh! Really, she's a cruel human being. Wait! I doubt she's even a human. She's an imbecile mean creature.

Lastly, I'm pissed off with this mac msn. I can't even login to messenger when the connectivity is full since 8pm! Urgh! Soo frustrating. I can't even use the desktop because SHE hogged that desktop! Urgh! Sickening! *sigh* I hate using ebuddy. I can't even show any pictures (T_T)



Ok, here's what I've edited. Feeling kind of bored. Thou my skils aren't that great, thought of improving it. Perhaps, when I'm a little free, I should start designing websites. What do you think? Comments please?

As for now, I will try and login to that stupid messenger. Urgh!

P.S: Guess what? I got a whole plastic bag of oranges from the school. Mwahahaha. I loves oranges. Yum.. I think, I better start peeling the oranges to "cool" myself down. Ahakz!

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I'll blog something later today. Gotta run! (Being chased out of school *tsk tsk* lol)

I froze in my seat and I started to ponder after I opened that email in my yahoo account. I could feel that my heart nearly stopped beating for about 2 seconds.

He emailed me asking why I'm avoiding him and I should just tell him that I wanted to avoid him. How can I do that, without even informing him what I've thought all these while?

My appetite has been declining since a few days ago. Bought Sausage McMuffin with Egg meal but I only ate the hashbrown in the morning and forcing myself to eat the McMuffin for lunch. Two of my students visited me. Thou I felt troubled by the email, I acted normally in front of them.

Asking opinions from some people who were online in my msn. Thanks to those who had helped me by giving me advice. Yes, that scenario is what had happened in my life. I'm too embarrassed to admit that. I failed as a girlfriend. Perhaps, I was too ignorant.

Waited for 2 solid hours for 2 classes to come in, but they didn't arrived. So I spent sometime thinking on what to type for that email. But, I'm expecting a harsh reply, either through phone or email. I'm preparing for the worse. He might just lash me out. Fine, bring it on.

Asking my babe if the email sent out is alright. Thanks babe.

I ain't myself today. Ewans asked why I'm soo quiet over the phone. Told him and he told me to just send that email. I've sent it before this entry was typed out.

I felt a little relief that what was in my heart, has finally been revealed to Vans. Perhaps, my friends are right. I'm being too lenient to him.

And, thanks Allah for showing me. I know that the feelings weren't normal anymore. And, yes I hate to lie to myself by forcing myself to keep on pretending what's not meant to be my future.

To my babe:
To babey Lia:
To Hafiza:
To sis Kat:
To my guy friends:
Thanks guys. I know all of you wanted me to fark him off by giving him a piece of my mind. I've done it.

To all who had helped me and tolerate me all these 4 years:

Someone please scream at me. Why?

Because I didn't do my work today. Well, not when I'm at my desk. Was only away for a couple of hours to do assisting. The rest of the time, I was doping through Facebook. Tee Hee Hee.

Anyway, I did mentioned yesterday that I felt something was amissed. Ewans explained to me and I forget about that matter. No wonder he sounded angry yesterday. Supposed to meet him today but it was cancelled as he was called back to work to settle something. Disappointed? Of course. He sensed my disappointment.

Napa sounds so boring kat I?

I denied of course.

Boring sebab U miss I abeh tak dpt jumpa nari? Sorry k?

Hmm...something like that ok?

Yesterday, someone motivated me to take up Java again and to be a Java Specialist. I felt soo motivated that I have the intention to take it up again. Of course it's based on projects and it's in demand. But the only thing which makes me feels 50-50 is that I will have to spend a lot of time cracking my brain to finish up the projects within the dateline. And bear in mind, the money they offered is quite tempting, for example 1 project cost $1K and needed to be completed within 2 weeks. So if I have 5 projects, I'll b earning like $5K if I complete all of them. Sounds tempting right?

My mind kind of blank. Well, not really. The only thing that I wanted to do now is to continue doping. Lost 6 billions as the cops busted me while I'm in and out of the state. And about 2 to 3 billions just to hire about 16 workers. So, right now I've to cover up my losses.