Ok, yesterday i was truly pissed off. I'm not going to say it here. But seriously it really hurts me alot. It happened again like last Wednesday. Enough said about that. The more I think about it, the more hurt I am. And the gift is at home now.

Really sorry but the pain is too unbearable for me as I can't accept it. I heard remarks for being stupid to believe in her like believing her words. Thou I tried hard to ignore it, eventually it starts to tear part of my heart. Even if you ask me whether I'm angry, from the bottom of my heart, I will say no. It just hurts me. That's all. Just let me be alone for the time being. And I'll be alright soon. And once again, I'm going to repeat. I don't have the anger feelings right now. It just doesn't exist. Why? Because you're the one who had been there to help me. So, why must I be angry with you. Hope you understand.

Changing the main song to My Heart starring Irwansyah feat. Acha. Been finding this song actually. Bummer, I know what you're thinking of. Below is the lyric & video.

It's going to be a long entry this time as I'm compiling for slightly more then a week's entries. Lots of events happened. Lots of joy, frustration and tears within these 11 days.

Saturday 16/12/2006
Busy day for my whole family as my parents did a small function as they are going to Mekkah for the Haji. Started in the morning at 8am and did the clean up at 11+pm. My relatives mostly from my dad's side came down. Lots of food were served. Mom cooked dhal gravy, nasi bryani, tandoori chicken. My aunt Ros gave us 3 desserts. And another 2 aunts gave us a dessert each. One of my aunt even offered to give us daily food since I'm working in Sembawang area and she lived nearby the school. I looked at her and told her "No thanks. We don't really eat that much". No matter how she tried to offer us, even by cooking the food that we want to eat, I still turned her down.

Monday 18/12/2006
Met up with my ex. Went to watch Eragon at Century Square. Upon reaching, noticed I had 3 missed calls and all were from B. Contacted him back and talked for a few minutes before I ended the call since the show was showing. Had late lunch there and he sent me to CBD area to meet up with Lia. We were caught in heavy rain since he sent me with his bike. Only my jeans were wet as he gave me to wear his windbreaker. He was drenched. Lol. Who asked him not to prepare an extra windbreaker? Met up with Lia at 6+ while he left for work.


After about a week or two's planning for a surprise birthday present, Lia & I went shopping for gifts. Just before we head for town, we ordered a 2kg brownie cake at the cake shop (it cost us a bomb) for Wednesday's surprise belated birthday. Had dinner at Ramen Ten till both of us were full. And I asked whether we should give kinky stuff as birthday present, ended up we shopped at a lingerie shop.
Stopped at the Body Shop but we didn't buy anything since Lia forgotten to bring her card.

Tuesday 19/12/2006

Went to WingTai & CK. Bought some clothes. Continued with our shopping whereby we bought the wrapping papers, box, birthday card as well as the item that we wanted to buy at the Body Shop. Followed Lia home and we started to wrap the present. Tried to contact Wanda about Wednesday's plan but failed to get through. We even go through the plan in surprising one of our member since her birthday was on 16th Dec. Wanted to celebrate on that 16th but gotta know she was in KL.


Wednesday 20/12/2006
Headed to Changi Airport to send my parents' luggages for the Saturday's flight. Found out that the belated birthday girl could not make it that day as she claimed that she was having fever and flu. And I thought I have to think something fast. If she could just come down awhile, it might make us feel happy as this is my first time celebrating my friend's birthday and of course the most expensive birthday that I've ever planned along with my friends. Tried to message her but she didn't replied. I thought she might be asleep. But my guilt told me that she went to work. So ended up, asked Sheeda to check and found out it's true. Honestly, I was really hurt when she couldn't make it. 'Cause this was the first and the most expensive which I had ever shared to celebrate one of my friend's birthday.

So ended up we celebrate Sheeda's belated birthday. Apparently both Sheeda & Shasha have the same name, except different nick. Oh well. We let Sheeda cut the cake. Both Lia & I went up to the 3rd floor at the towel counter to gave them a piece of cake each and the rest of the staff the whole box which consist of the remaining leftover cakes.


Thursday 21/12/2006
Went for yoga. Supposed to do yoga on Wednesday. But somehow, the mood of doing yoga just fade after what had happened. And we booked for the second complimentary for fitness on Tuesday. Managed to change my PT from Leonard to Shakin.

Friday 22/12/2006 - Saturday 23/12/2006
I seeked forgiveness with parents. It just feels different. I know it's not the first time they are going to be away. But I guessed, this is the time where I really need them. My uncle sent my parents to the airport while my siblings and I went by taxi. We were shocked to see lots of people at the airport. Found my other uncles and aunts. Then we proceed to counter one, passing crowds who are wishing their family members who are going there.

And suddenly, I found out that my parents cant be with us as they had reached the barricades zone. I just couldn't held back my tears. Hugged my parents through the barricades. Met with my grandparents and other aunts and uncles. After awhile ,my parents joined their group while my siblings and I searched for my aunts (my mom's sisters) near the departure gate. There I gave my mom the last hug before she left for Singapore. As soon as they entered, I missed them.

Saw my buddy, Zul nearby as he sent his aunt off. Then, we hang around with Aunt Jun's family. I felt most comfortable with Aunt Jun's family. They like to share knowledge. Even advise us regarding the unseen world where ghosts, devils lived in. We walked from Terminal 1 to Terminal 2 before we sat down at the MacD.

Aunt Jun and her husband shared their experience while my brother shared his. My body was aching but I wasn't sleepy. Had late supper cum early breakfast while having the sharing session. And one point, while we were about to catch the city MRT, Aunt Jun asked me whether I do have boyfriend. I just told her "No" though she don't believe it. She even said that someone saw me together with a guy. I don't intend to tell as I myself still unsure whether I can last with him (we had another tiff/ misunderstanding. I'm not sure whether its really true that his mom died. But he sounds soo real. I just cant bear the pain. The way he told me to keep quiet, it just hurts me. He knows I love him but all he wants from me is understanding. I guessed I've to stop asking him when I could meet him. The only thing I'm frustrated with him is that he kept soo many things from me, it feels as thou I do not know anything about him).

Caught the second train. Could see that Uncle Zai's eyes were red due to lack of sleep. But overall, they are a nice family. They just don't care. They told us, even if we wanted to go home early, they would still be at the airport and getting the first train home. I wanted to tell Aunt Jun about him. But I fear she might let my mom knows about it. It's not that I do not want my mom to know I'm in a relationship, but I'm just not prepared.

Reached home about 6.40am. And I went straight to bed. It's not that I'm sleepy. I'm just tired. And I cried myself to sleep. Kept waking up at 10+ and 11+ a few times till I told myself I should just wake up and starts to do my work. Then, a friend called me and was shocked finding I just woke up. Told him that I slept late. I just cant have a good sleep nowadays. My body keeps on aching. My soul keeps wandering around and having dreams, either I had dreamt before or a new dream. I'm really tired of everything. No matter how tired I am, I just can't get myself to sleep.

He called me. Talked to him, he made me cry. He didn't even let me say something. So I listen to his frustration and his disappointment. All he wants is I understand him more, ask less or no questions after what had happened.

But we met up that night, about 8pm. I was dead tired. But honestly, I rather not missed the opportunity. 'Cause I may never know when he could meet me again. He did apologized to me about his behaviour and the way he treated me. Oh well.

Sunday 24/12/2006

Went out to yoga in the morning. And cycling about 1.30pm. I was tired of cycling and it hurts my lower body since the seat was uncomfortable. And somewhere near my knees, I felt some pain. Gee, it's been a long time since I last cycle. I admit I might have forgotten. Well, there's a story behind it why I don't cycle. I'll tell it when the time is right. My sis made some nasi lemak. Kind of a lot. Asked her why did she cook that much? It's like for 5 or more people's food. Ended up, we kept some for the next day.

Monday 25/12/2006
Christmas has arrived. But I felt very sleepy. The weather made me feels like sleeping. Made a tradisional goodies, getas-getas. Well, there's coconut which had been grated. So, why not I use it? Besides, I craved for it for some time. Sis cooked quite a lot of rice previous day and had fried rice at night. And I've to finish the goodies myself since it doesn't taste nice if I were to keep it for the next day.

*updated* I had a wonderful Christmas present that afternoon. Mr. Turtle called me. *melts* really, I was soo touched, thou I know it cost him a little more for making an overseas call. His american accent and his voice really really melts me.. *smooches to Mr. Turtle* Thanks love for calling me. Especially your deep low sexy voice. Hehe..It's the best Christmas present I've ever received.

Tuesday 26/12/2006
Too lazy to go work. It's been raining since the previous night. Well, bad day for me. I nearly tripped forward while climbing the stairs to the MRT platform. Not sure if anyone noticed. Well, it's mainly because the white heel shoes I'm wearing were slippery and my mind was somewhere else. Bummer.

When I was a few steps away, I realized that I've forgotten to bring my pass. Looked into the General Office but none was inside. I went from first up till fourth level to find Mdm Tan or anyone I could find to help me open the door. After 15 minutes of unsuccessful attempt, finally I managed to locate a teacher, the one who I despised soo much. Had to put up a show since I desperately need to be in my room (my main concern was to sign my attendance via online).

Checked which ever work which my replacement had done. The only thing she didn't do was the flash work. Darn. I had to do it (if I have time). Anyway, my Level Head came in, asking for the key, then asked me about SVA. Then I told him everything. Then he came in again, asking how come the cost of SVA is $6K. I told him I had no idea as I don't even know how they count. Contact my boss. And then my boss complained back to me asking why my Level Head claimed it's expensive. I was speechless. Honestly, I don't even know what to say. Ended up, my boss managed to lower down to $3K and told me he would be responsible. As for me, I was clueless whether I could continue in the school or not. Told my boss that it's 50 % chance of continuing. He wanted to dump me to Hougang Primary. But thinking back, I prefer the school which I'm assigned to.

He then told me that 90 % I could continue after speaking to my Level Head. Phew. That was great. (I'm too lazy to pack my stuff if I were to get out of here). About 540 I tried to access the lift but I couldn't. Thought that I might get stuck in the school again. Called the school and they told me perhaps the lift was under repair. Lucky for me, the gate for the staircase wasn't lock.

Reached the club at about 640pm. Rushed up, changed and rushed to the Fitness department. Had to meet my new Personal Trainer, Shakin. I was speechless when I saw the person. Why? 'Cause I saw him countless time (Shasha & Sheeda, whoever is your PT, please don't take Shakin from me. He's mine! Haha) Told me I had to retake ht & wt 'cause Leonard (my previous PT) misplaced my card. When I took again. I was dumbfounded. I was like "Is that my weight? It can't be. How could I possibly be 51.3kg when my weight was 49kg last month?? "

Told him I wanted to focus on the 3Ts (Tummy, thigh & triceps). Then, he made me used the stepping machine for 7 minutes. It was soo high and I tried to force myself not to be leveled to the ground. He looked at me saying "Ahh, resting eh? Add a few more seconds ok?" I was like "Err, ok. Still can manage." It's not hard. Just that whenever I felt it's heavy, I would slip all the way down. Made me do sit up & throwing the big ball at him and catching it back. I did pant quite a lot. His manager saw me and told me "Ah, You got Shakin. He will really make sure you do properly" And I saw that quick smirk on his face.

Shakin asked me how was the session with Leonard. Told him it was ok. Then he asked me again "So it's not good la?" Told him that Leon sort of forcing me to sign up the session. Shakin explained why. Fast forward. I signed up for four sessions despite being tight. Told him that if I don't sign up now, I'm not sure when I would. It will commence in February. And I would start saving slowly. Bummer, Shakin even advised me to start saving for my future. Hmm.. Okok.. I'll try. I think I wouldn't be going shopping nor eating nice food at Japanese Restaurant for the time being. And don't try to tempt me unless you willing to treat me. I don't mind having Japanese food for my birthday. Speaking of birthday, Shakin saw my birthdate and he told me that he was older then me by a week. Wanted to tease him whether he wanted to give me a birthday present. Lol. Anyway, by the end of the day I was dead tired. And boy, I really do need to lose weight *sigh*

Wednesday 27/12/06
Damn you damn you damn you!! I just don't understand why I can't even go to some sites?? And it's all because of the stupid keyport. I just don't know why the keyport is down. Arrghhh..Am supposed to check my email and I can't EVEN go to the website. Not even yahoo. Urghh..I'm soo frustrated! I still can't access to other sites. And entering this blogspot site takes forever. *sigh* And it's all because of Taiwan's earthquake which affect both Singnet & Starhub undersea internet cables.

*Updated* Yea, finally I could use the internet as per normal. It will be impossible to load the pictures here w/o getting the internet back to normal.

Honestly, when I hear the song 'Usah Lepaskan' by Taufik Batisah on bebeh Shasha's page, i felt something covered my heart. It's just soo touching eventhough I'm currently having tremendous menstrual cramps. Anyway, those love memories I had kept playing back in my head. Took the lyrics from bebeh's website.

yang terindah terlukis dibibirmu
tak pernah ku lihat senyummu sebegitu
pudarkah sudah cinta yang ku beri
berwarni-warni segala yang dijanjikan ia

usah biar ku bersendirian
usah biar hatimu ditawan
usah biar diriku disini
seorang menunggu tanpa teman
usah lepaskan genggaman tanganmu
usah biar semua berlalu
usah terlupa perasaan hati
pertama kali kita bertemu
usah lepaskan

tak mudah ku melupakan segala yang berlalu
ku ingin selalu bersamamu

ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
engkau dan dia harus bersama
mendungnya langit bila berkata
kita patutnya masih bercinta
usah lepaskan

yang terindah terlukis dibibirmu
tak pernah ku lihat senyummu sebegitu

And I myself kept wondering and asking myself whether will I or will I not have a happy ending in my life? Does my love for him still exist? Does he ever think of me lately? If he do, why didn't he contact me when he knows I'm waiting? Does he loves me like he used to? Will I ever have the love the way I want? Will that someone always makes me melt with his love when we first met? Will I ever get married? I don't know. 'Cause I'm still waiting. Guess, I just have to be patience. Besides, I'm just a player in this world.

Just want to inform everyone that I'm on leave whole of next week, so I'm unable to update my blog since my computer at home is still down.


Ok, as you can see the title for today's entry is black magic. What is black magic? Black magic or dark magic is the branch of magic that is used to perform evil acts or that draws on malevolent powers. So, in other words, it's using pure evil to do something for you onto others. Why are people nowadays soo stupid? Why must they practise black magic? What good does it gives when it involves death?

I know some might wonder why would I mentioned black magic, especially early in the morning. Well, I'm not sure whether it's the right thing to do by posting it here, but I just need to get this off my chest. And it doesnt happen to other people, but to my family.

Scary but true. It's not that it never happened before. One of my uncles had suffered from black magic. All because this lady likes my uncle and because she can't get him, she perform black magic to my uncle's wife & daughter. And keep in mind that the lady has already been married and perform the Haji. So, my aunt and cousin suffered badly whereby those evil creatures kept disturbing them.

My parents had went through in a seperate incidents whereby my dad told the taxi driver to go somewhere whereby it takes only a few minutes but the taxi driver could not locate the place that my dad wants to go.

And yesterday, I heard my mom said "It's happening again" after I had my bath which I took after my first aunt and her husband (my mom's side) left for home. I was puzzled since I do not know the whole story. My mom sat down with me and my sister. Told me what happened in the past. Including the interior contractor who cheated on my parents when my parents first bought the existing home (currently, the flat which I live in, aged about 22 years old).

My mom asked me whether we could remember that my brother told my parents that he saw "something" last Wednesday and ended up he returned home in the wee morning. I told her yea I remembered. And it's not uncommon that my brother told us once in a while he saw "something".

I'm not sure whether this is true, but I believe every single thing that my mother said regarding this issue. She told that my brother was "played" on by black magic. I still had the puzzled expression on my face when she mentioned that. According to my mom, someone tried to "practise" his skill onto my brother. Let me rewind a bit on what happened when that person (let's call this person EP since I don't know what to call him as) "practise" the skill (and he have his master to help EP to succeed).

Last week, my brother informed that his vespa's brake was spoilt. And kept faulting. According to the mechanic or whatever you call the person who repair vespa/ bikes, it's insane that a person can keep having faulty brakes after repair. And keep in mind that my brother's vespa is a brand new(that's what I think. I mean, he just bought it a few months ago). And it's in tip top condition when he first bought the vespa with the help of one of my cousin who helped my brother to check the condition also.

My mom said EP is someone who is very new to black magic. I asked my mom how she knew. My mom told me that my brother had investigate it and my brother doesn't even know EP except for they went to the same polytechnic. I asked my mom why the hell that someone wants to do that to my brother? As far as I know, my brother had never offended anyone. She mentioned again that actually EP wanted to perform on someone else, who happened to be my brother's friend, let's call him H. H's dad detected some evil spirit and H's dad managed to reflect back on EP before anything could happen to H. And this EP turned to "attack" my brother. H informed my brother and told that it might be EP's work. So, both my brother and H went to investigate and found that it's true.

What I can't understand is why must the person do that to my family? Especially when my parents are going to perform Haji very soon?? And my mom told me that if EP can't get my brother, EP might try to get my mom! It's sooooo insane!! Frustration and anger starts to build up.

As though my mom can read my mind, my mom said "Your brother wanted to confront and bash that person up. If your brother really did it, EP will target the closest person in my brother's life, which is my mom. And after that EP will target the whole family." Upon hearing what my mom said, I felt goosebumps. No wonder my brother told us to try to ignore "it" if we sees anything unfamiliar, whether it's in the house or outside the house.

And to add to that, I remembered two nights ago around 11.15pm. I was sitting in the dark, on the sofa facing towards the closed window in the living room, talking to my brother who is on the floor opposite me and I saw a shadow. I know that the big tree on the ground level near the bus stop, we could see the branches of the tree move if there's wind on the closed window. But each time when I focus my attention to my brother, from the corner of my eyes, I saw that the branches of leaves were like someone waving the hand to ask you to come towards them. And each time I looked at the shadow, it stopped. I did told my brother "Eh, I saw like someone calling me, but it's impossible since outside is a tree". By then, my brother told me to quickly perform my prayers since I had not done so and to sleep early. Now I know what that means.

And my mom advised that my siblings and I had to try return home early each night while my parents are in Saudi for a month. I know it's hard for me since I'm attending Yoga/Dance/ Gym classes 3 times a week. But I will try and make the effort to go home early. So, to those who wants to ask me out for dinner for example, sorry I can't go.

Deep down in me. I swear to Allah, if any of my family members are hurt or something happened till I lost them, I swear to Allah that EP will suffer an immediate painful fate and may EP died in a sufferable death. And I pray hard for my family's safety especially my parents.

Guys out there!

Realize that the girl holding onto u..

is PERFECT in their own special way.

The way she laughs..

The way she sleeps..

The way she loves you..

The way she tries to please you...

Always remember that!

She can always get up and walk away,

getting someone else who can love her more.

For all you know,

there is someone out there

woo-ing her already,

but she is rejecting,

a maybe perfect love for her..

There might also be someone out there..

who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now,

fufill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.

She deserve better.

Understand that.

Imagine this, guys.

When you are holding her today...

and then you cheat on her

by hugging and kissing another gal.

and then you run back to her...

and u do the same....

but you see love in her eyes...

What do you think?

Do you feel the hurt?

Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because

you are good looking,

have money,

buy her things,

make her parents happy,

or that you have a car.

She loves you for who you are.

Your every touch,

every word you say,

everything you do.

Guys.

Cherish and appreciate your girl.

Don't break her fragile heart.

She is the only one who can love you that way.

You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.

For everything she has done for you,

the least you can do is

to give her unconditional love

as she has given to you.

Girls and guys...do u agree?

Ok, finally I can sit back at my own place. Gosh, I miss my chair, my computer & everything. Let me update what had happened, more or less from last week till yesterday.

During my absence at work, I was replaced by someone. Surprisingly, most of the work were done by her (this China gal). I was doubttful at first. But I haven't check every detail of it yet. Later perhaps.

Anyway, last Thursday & Friday had to report at Raffles. Regina was the trainer. Overall was quite ok. But I might forget the techniques sooner or later. Recently on Monday till yesterday, went for Microsoft PowerPoint course at Tanjong Pagar (Yea, my company had moved last Saturday. It's currently opposite the PSA). I know people might wonder "Huh? You already know how to use the software." Well, yea I know that but it's the specialist course whereby I'll be taking exam (hopefully I get one cert at least).

First day: We're noisy (my 3 friends & I since we're sitting in a row) and we're learning the basic stuff. Whatever my colleague (the trainer who taught us) asked us to do, we do it quickly.

Second day: Sleepy day for most of us. I nearly doze off a lot of times. Surf the STOMP website and trying to control myself from falling asleep.

Third day: Not much of surfing whereby we learnt something new. So mostly we focus on the lesson. Plus, Benson & I were pretty competitive whereby we have to do this presentation that a certain part of the graph were shown and I accidentally kick the CPU and it disrupted the power for both my CPU & Benson's as well as the projector. Lol. Oh, did the mock test. I was soo nervous that I couldn't even think properly. So now I've to start learning before my assessment day arrived.

That's enough of what happened in the company. Now, for others. I do attend my yoga regularly every week. Except this week I wouldn't be attending the dance class on Saturday since there's going to be a function at my home since my parents going to perform the 5th Rukun Islam.

Another update. Guess what? My ex contacted me recently. I was shocked. I did cried one of the days. I think it was last Saturday. It hurts me. But yet, I still questions whether his intention is to get me back. I don't know. Im just clueless. I can't feel anything. It's like everything about my love issue is hanging. I just not sure why is this happening. And honestly..It's killing me. Someone told me that maybe I should just patch up with him. I went "Errk!" If you ask me, I would give you a speechless blank face. Why? Because I myself do not know what I really should do. But no matter what, I still love my B.

Ok, well. The pictures of me were taken yesterday night while I was watching CSI. Anyway, read the papers saying about yesterday's accident at the MRT. Well, the man is an Indian. Cause of death still unknown. But I guessed he either jumped down or he was drunk. Oh well. Let's stop talking about these type of accidents.

Ok, today's my "last day" before I go on course which commence tomorrow till next Wednesday. So, I had to uninstall my messenger today since someone I dislike going to take over me. That same person who accused me of not telling her the course outline the other time. That China girl. Urghh.. And I'll be back next Thursday for more updates and sorry to those people who's finding me while I'm away.


Ah, looked at the picture above. These were my lunch. Maggi bowl noodle and biscuits. I know people will go like "What? That's your lunch?" Ok, tell the truth. I'm sick and tired of going out of school to go to the nearby shopping centre to have my lunch. Thou I have my other colleagues here but I'm just too lazy. Furthermore, I feel like eating maggi. And this my second time within my working hours (throughout the year) I'm eating bowl noodle. Haha.

Okies I guessed that's all for now. Did some work for my VP. Darn..Now I've to find him to obtain his signature on behalf of my supervisor before I start my paperworks. Wait, what's the signature for? For my report which I need to submit to my company. *sigh*

Isn't it cute? Tee hee. I go crazy ever since I've been known as turtle too *giggles* okok. Well, actually I was cruising around at More Than Words shop yesterday and saw this. I totally go "Aww, soo cute" Couldn't make up my mind what to buy but looking at this turtle, it seems like telling me "Buy me ! Buy me!"

I know the picture is kind of blur but nah, thought of sharing it. Hmm, I can really go crazy with cute stuff. Feel like I'm a child again. Ahakz. But no matter what, I still love my voodoo dolls which I currently have them on my phone.


Took the snapshots as soon as I reached school just now. Well, speaking of which, I had a really bad start off today.

I would like to beg to the other citizens not to give us trouble especially during peak hours. What am I talking about? Well, today I thought of reaching work early. Managed to catch the 7am bus to Ang Mo Kio. Upon reaching Ang Mo Kio, as usual I took the train.

But it's funny that I saw on the screen, it showed 1 min more for the train to arrive but as soon as I arrived on the platform, the train stopped a little while entering the station. An annoucement was made that there was an accident at Yishun Mrt. Great. A very nice bad news for us to start the day.

Took the train, and the train would not move and was delayed. Same thing while we were on the way to Yio Chu Kang Mrt which was the next station. Had to alight there since the train I boarded went back to Ang Mo Kio towards Marina Bay. And waited for another train. Along the way a few more delays were made.

At last we reached the Yishun station. Saw almost half till the end part of the station of the opposite side was condorned off by the police. Police tapes were seen and the "head of the train" was already at the platform.

So it's either someone had been hit or someone committed suicide. But of all days and of all time, I just don't understand why that fellow choose the peak hour. Everyone was pissed off that most of them could not get to work on time. The train to the Marina Bay was disrupted for 45 minutes.

And most trains were terminated at Sembawang station. So can you imagine how frustrated the Sembawang residents are when they know that they could not take the same route to work? And I heard this ITE student talked to her friend that of all days, she faced the current situation on her exam day. It sucks.

To those who intend to commit suicide on Mrt tracks, eventhough you have problem and thought that committing suicide on a passing by train is the most efficient way, PLEASE use your farking brain and stop making a nuisance to those people who don't even know you. Stop making us suffer just because you want to die.

And to those people who are soo stupid, annoucements are ALWAYS made to REMIND you to be careful and stand BEHIND the yellow line. And don't be a DUMBASS by waiting for the train in front of the yellow line. Be patient and you WILL get a seat!

Met up with my primary school close friend, Ifah at Khatib MRT yesterday. What for? Well, she accompanied me to my colleague's wedding. Thanks Ifah. She's the one that I mentioned will accompany me to those functions. Wanted others to accompany me but everyone seems soo busy. Sorry gal if you feel as thou you're my last resort.

Upon reaching the block, no one attended to us. We were "lost". Saw the Principal & Operation Manager eating together. I thought of approaching them. But the first thing to do was to find the bride's mom. The kids at the reception table just stared at us blankly. Ifah asked them where's the bride's mom and they pointed out to a blue baju kurung lady.

So, we talked for awhile, not sure whether to look at the bride first or to eat first. Towards the end of the short converstation, I noticed a video camera was filming the whole conversation. I've to turn away from the camera. It's kind of embarassing. The mom then told us to eat first.

Took our food and I noticed it's like a bali concept. I mean, there's one dish named something like "Ayam Bumbu Bali". A certain number of dishes were served by two people, which I find it good as a precaution. After taking the food and drinks without desserts, we sat down at the nearby table. Opened some stories to catch up old times. Ifah suddenly commented "Wow, looked at the "stage" (pelamin). It's soo grand" I was like "Really? Where?" Turned right and saw a grand pelamin. Beside it, were the dj console whereby two ladies were doing the dj. They have the voice.

We only received the "door gifts" or better known as berkat when we approached the bride's mom to give her some appreaciation in terms of money. But from what I could see, the rest of the guests were given as per normal, which was when they sat down to eat, they would receive the berkat on the spot. You know, it's weird to reply to the bride's mom that we didn't get any.

Went up to the flat with Marsita's sister who looked exactly like Marsita except that her sister wore tudung. When we entered, saw her with the Mak Andam who was doing the final touch up with Marsita's sanggul. I was awestruck when I saw Marsita. She's very pretty. She told me some of the teachers would be coming in the late afternoon when I mentioned that I saw some of the teachers. And I was lost for words. I didn't even congratulate her. I only remember that I had forgotten to wish her when Ifah and I reached the lift. But I did sms her that night. Lol.


So, we sat down at the park, while waiting for the bride to come down and for the groom to arrived. We yaked about some stuff and yoga, which she joined with another private yoga centre but a cheaper rate as she's a NUS student.


We heard loud motor sound. Only then we realised that the groom was one of the bike groups. Noisy of course, with lots of smoke. There I commented to Ifah that they wasted oil to exert thick smokes. Yea, got your message that one of your members got married yesterday but I don't see the purpose that they do that. I mean, I have nothing against bikers but honestly, I don't get the whole idea of bikes making noise once you reached the bride's side. Then, what's the use of kompang people? And honestly, the kompang people really did a good 5 to 10 minutes before guests went up to the Prince & Princess of the day.

Guessed what? I just finished typing my Bi-Weekly report which was supposed to due on 29th Nov. Lol. Well, I was busy with the collation of lab usage which my supervisor wants in detailed. So imagined doing the same thing for 3 straight days? *sigh* And at last, I've finished my handover report and had submitted to my impatient Program Manager.

Well, anyway please pray that tomorrow I pass my Ms Access Specialist Examination. Managed to study only just now. I don't want to fail this time. Why? Because I don't want my pay to be deducted again. What's more, my pay going to be deducted this month because I'm retaking the Ms Access Exam.

Got to know some of the students dislike me just because I'm talking to their "rival" group. And even that person told me that those students threaten to tell my level head that I'm using MSN and playing game at work. Well kids, what do you know? Go ahead and tell them. I might as well inform your parents and my level head that all the while you've been lying to them that you have more work to do and that's why you're going home late but in actual fact, you just want to stay back for fun in school, playing as well as using the internet. Want me to get sacked huh? My level head knows that I'm using MSN at work, same goes with my supervisor. But as long as I'm doing my work and completes those task on time and they are satisfied, whats the big deal? Just don't be such a big fussy busybody ok!

Oh, and since tomorrow is 2nd Dec, just want to say..Happy Birthday to you B! Thou it's hard to contact with you nowadays, but I still remember your birthday. Mmuackz.

And not forgetting to my bebehs who are celebrating their birthday this month also like Shasha & Diah as well as Zul, my poly buddy!! Best wishes to all the December babies!!