SHE.HER.

Thou I know you tried ways to make me forget me, even by lying to me that you have someone..you just can't make me have a change of heart. Call me naive or stubborn or anything. Nobody can change the way I think nor I feel. Nobody. Not even my parents, my family, friends or even my hammie.

I know the concern, I know why you did that. But that's not the way. Yes, I don't wish to end up like Kakak. But, some things are not meant to be force.

Thou it hurts, thou tears keep on rolling down despite me not wanting to shed any tears, still I just can't control it. Some say it best to let it out. But, I dont wish to let it out. Let it stay within me. Quit asking me to forget him nor to find someone to replace him.

Because I know I can't bring myself to do it. No matter how many advices I received from different people, I just can't. For, let me just this once decide on what I want.

Nobody can force another person's heart. Nobody. For, I don't believe in forcing others against their own will.

No matter what, don't try to force me as I don't wish my heart to turn as hard as a rock.

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To Mama & Abah, Happy Wedding Anniversary which falls on 31st May / 1st June. May it last till eternity.