It's going to be a long entry this time as I'm compiling for slightly more then a week's entries. Lots of events happened. Lots of joy, frustration and tears within these 11 days.

Saturday 16/12/2006
Busy day for my whole family as my parents did a small function as they are going to Mekkah for the Haji. Started in the morning at 8am and did the clean up at 11+pm. My relatives mostly from my dad's side came down. Lots of food were served. Mom cooked dhal gravy, nasi bryani, tandoori chicken. My aunt Ros gave us 3 desserts. And another 2 aunts gave us a dessert each. One of my aunt even offered to give us daily food since I'm working in Sembawang area and she lived nearby the school. I looked at her and told her "No thanks. We don't really eat that much". No matter how she tried to offer us, even by cooking the food that we want to eat, I still turned her down.

Monday 18/12/2006
Met up with my ex. Went to watch Eragon at Century Square. Upon reaching, noticed I had 3 missed calls and all were from B. Contacted him back and talked for a few minutes before I ended the call since the show was showing. Had late lunch there and he sent me to CBD area to meet up with Lia. We were caught in heavy rain since he sent me with his bike. Only my jeans were wet as he gave me to wear his windbreaker. He was drenched. Lol. Who asked him not to prepare an extra windbreaker? Met up with Lia at 6+ while he left for work.


After about a week or two's planning for a surprise birthday present, Lia & I went shopping for gifts. Just before we head for town, we ordered a 2kg brownie cake at the cake shop (it cost us a bomb) for Wednesday's surprise belated birthday. Had dinner at Ramen Ten till both of us were full. And I asked whether we should give kinky stuff as birthday present, ended up we shopped at a lingerie shop.
Stopped at the Body Shop but we didn't buy anything since Lia forgotten to bring her card.

Tuesday 19/12/2006

Went to WingTai & CK. Bought some clothes. Continued with our shopping whereby we bought the wrapping papers, box, birthday card as well as the item that we wanted to buy at the Body Shop. Followed Lia home and we started to wrap the present. Tried to contact Wanda about Wednesday's plan but failed to get through. We even go through the plan in surprising one of our member since her birthday was on 16th Dec. Wanted to celebrate on that 16th but gotta know she was in KL.


Wednesday 20/12/2006
Headed to Changi Airport to send my parents' luggages for the Saturday's flight. Found out that the belated birthday girl could not make it that day as she claimed that she was having fever and flu. And I thought I have to think something fast. If she could just come down awhile, it might make us feel happy as this is my first time celebrating my friend's birthday and of course the most expensive birthday that I've ever planned along with my friends. Tried to message her but she didn't replied. I thought she might be asleep. But my guilt told me that she went to work. So ended up, asked Sheeda to check and found out it's true. Honestly, I was really hurt when she couldn't make it. 'Cause this was the first and the most expensive which I had ever shared to celebrate one of my friend's birthday.

So ended up we celebrate Sheeda's belated birthday. Apparently both Sheeda & Shasha have the same name, except different nick. Oh well. We let Sheeda cut the cake. Both Lia & I went up to the 3rd floor at the towel counter to gave them a piece of cake each and the rest of the staff the whole box which consist of the remaining leftover cakes.


Thursday 21/12/2006
Went for yoga. Supposed to do yoga on Wednesday. But somehow, the mood of doing yoga just fade after what had happened. And we booked for the second complimentary for fitness on Tuesday. Managed to change my PT from Leonard to Shakin.

Friday 22/12/2006 - Saturday 23/12/2006
I seeked forgiveness with parents. It just feels different. I know it's not the first time they are going to be away. But I guessed, this is the time where I really need them. My uncle sent my parents to the airport while my siblings and I went by taxi. We were shocked to see lots of people at the airport. Found my other uncles and aunts. Then we proceed to counter one, passing crowds who are wishing their family members who are going there.

And suddenly, I found out that my parents cant be with us as they had reached the barricades zone. I just couldn't held back my tears. Hugged my parents through the barricades. Met with my grandparents and other aunts and uncles. After awhile ,my parents joined their group while my siblings and I searched for my aunts (my mom's sisters) near the departure gate. There I gave my mom the last hug before she left for Singapore. As soon as they entered, I missed them.

Saw my buddy, Zul nearby as he sent his aunt off. Then, we hang around with Aunt Jun's family. I felt most comfortable with Aunt Jun's family. They like to share knowledge. Even advise us regarding the unseen world where ghosts, devils lived in. We walked from Terminal 1 to Terminal 2 before we sat down at the MacD.

Aunt Jun and her husband shared their experience while my brother shared his. My body was aching but I wasn't sleepy. Had late supper cum early breakfast while having the sharing session. And one point, while we were about to catch the city MRT, Aunt Jun asked me whether I do have boyfriend. I just told her "No" though she don't believe it. She even said that someone saw me together with a guy. I don't intend to tell as I myself still unsure whether I can last with him (we had another tiff/ misunderstanding. I'm not sure whether its really true that his mom died. But he sounds soo real. I just cant bear the pain. The way he told me to keep quiet, it just hurts me. He knows I love him but all he wants from me is understanding. I guessed I've to stop asking him when I could meet him. The only thing I'm frustrated with him is that he kept soo many things from me, it feels as thou I do not know anything about him).

Caught the second train. Could see that Uncle Zai's eyes were red due to lack of sleep. But overall, they are a nice family. They just don't care. They told us, even if we wanted to go home early, they would still be at the airport and getting the first train home. I wanted to tell Aunt Jun about him. But I fear she might let my mom knows about it. It's not that I do not want my mom to know I'm in a relationship, but I'm just not prepared.

Reached home about 6.40am. And I went straight to bed. It's not that I'm sleepy. I'm just tired. And I cried myself to sleep. Kept waking up at 10+ and 11+ a few times till I told myself I should just wake up and starts to do my work. Then, a friend called me and was shocked finding I just woke up. Told him that I slept late. I just cant have a good sleep nowadays. My body keeps on aching. My soul keeps wandering around and having dreams, either I had dreamt before or a new dream. I'm really tired of everything. No matter how tired I am, I just can't get myself to sleep.

He called me. Talked to him, he made me cry. He didn't even let me say something. So I listen to his frustration and his disappointment. All he wants is I understand him more, ask less or no questions after what had happened.

But we met up that night, about 8pm. I was dead tired. But honestly, I rather not missed the opportunity. 'Cause I may never know when he could meet me again. He did apologized to me about his behaviour and the way he treated me. Oh well.

Sunday 24/12/2006

Went out to yoga in the morning. And cycling about 1.30pm. I was tired of cycling and it hurts my lower body since the seat was uncomfortable. And somewhere near my knees, I felt some pain. Gee, it's been a long time since I last cycle. I admit I might have forgotten. Well, there's a story behind it why I don't cycle. I'll tell it when the time is right. My sis made some nasi lemak. Kind of a lot. Asked her why did she cook that much? It's like for 5 or more people's food. Ended up, we kept some for the next day.

Monday 25/12/2006
Christmas has arrived. But I felt very sleepy. The weather made me feels like sleeping. Made a tradisional goodies, getas-getas. Well, there's coconut which had been grated. So, why not I use it? Besides, I craved for it for some time. Sis cooked quite a lot of rice previous day and had fried rice at night. And I've to finish the goodies myself since it doesn't taste nice if I were to keep it for the next day.

*updated* I had a wonderful Christmas present that afternoon. Mr. Turtle called me. *melts* really, I was soo touched, thou I know it cost him a little more for making an overseas call. His american accent and his voice really really melts me.. *smooches to Mr. Turtle* Thanks love for calling me. Especially your deep low sexy voice. Hehe..It's the best Christmas present I've ever received.

Tuesday 26/12/2006
Too lazy to go work. It's been raining since the previous night. Well, bad day for me. I nearly tripped forward while climbing the stairs to the MRT platform. Not sure if anyone noticed. Well, it's mainly because the white heel shoes I'm wearing were slippery and my mind was somewhere else. Bummer.

When I was a few steps away, I realized that I've forgotten to bring my pass. Looked into the General Office but none was inside. I went from first up till fourth level to find Mdm Tan or anyone I could find to help me open the door. After 15 minutes of unsuccessful attempt, finally I managed to locate a teacher, the one who I despised soo much. Had to put up a show since I desperately need to be in my room (my main concern was to sign my attendance via online).

Checked which ever work which my replacement had done. The only thing she didn't do was the flash work. Darn. I had to do it (if I have time). Anyway, my Level Head came in, asking for the key, then asked me about SVA. Then I told him everything. Then he came in again, asking how come the cost of SVA is $6K. I told him I had no idea as I don't even know how they count. Contact my boss. And then my boss complained back to me asking why my Level Head claimed it's expensive. I was speechless. Honestly, I don't even know what to say. Ended up, my boss managed to lower down to $3K and told me he would be responsible. As for me, I was clueless whether I could continue in the school or not. Told my boss that it's 50 % chance of continuing. He wanted to dump me to Hougang Primary. But thinking back, I prefer the school which I'm assigned to.

He then told me that 90 % I could continue after speaking to my Level Head. Phew. That was great. (I'm too lazy to pack my stuff if I were to get out of here). About 540 I tried to access the lift but I couldn't. Thought that I might get stuck in the school again. Called the school and they told me perhaps the lift was under repair. Lucky for me, the gate for the staircase wasn't lock.

Reached the club at about 640pm. Rushed up, changed and rushed to the Fitness department. Had to meet my new Personal Trainer, Shakin. I was speechless when I saw the person. Why? 'Cause I saw him countless time (Shasha & Sheeda, whoever is your PT, please don't take Shakin from me. He's mine! Haha) Told me I had to retake ht & wt 'cause Leonard (my previous PT) misplaced my card. When I took again. I was dumbfounded. I was like "Is that my weight? It can't be. How could I possibly be 51.3kg when my weight was 49kg last month?? "

Told him I wanted to focus on the 3Ts (Tummy, thigh & triceps). Then, he made me used the stepping machine for 7 minutes. It was soo high and I tried to force myself not to be leveled to the ground. He looked at me saying "Ahh, resting eh? Add a few more seconds ok?" I was like "Err, ok. Still can manage." It's not hard. Just that whenever I felt it's heavy, I would slip all the way down. Made me do sit up & throwing the big ball at him and catching it back. I did pant quite a lot. His manager saw me and told me "Ah, You got Shakin. He will really make sure you do properly" And I saw that quick smirk on his face.

Shakin asked me how was the session with Leonard. Told him it was ok. Then he asked me again "So it's not good la?" Told him that Leon sort of forcing me to sign up the session. Shakin explained why. Fast forward. I signed up for four sessions despite being tight. Told him that if I don't sign up now, I'm not sure when I would. It will commence in February. And I would start saving slowly. Bummer, Shakin even advised me to start saving for my future. Hmm.. Okok.. I'll try. I think I wouldn't be going shopping nor eating nice food at Japanese Restaurant for the time being. And don't try to tempt me unless you willing to treat me. I don't mind having Japanese food for my birthday. Speaking of birthday, Shakin saw my birthdate and he told me that he was older then me by a week. Wanted to tease him whether he wanted to give me a birthday present. Lol. Anyway, by the end of the day I was dead tired. And boy, I really do need to lose weight *sigh*

Wednesday 27/12/06
Damn you damn you damn you!! I just don't understand why I can't even go to some sites?? And it's all because of the stupid keyport. I just don't know why the keyport is down. Arrghhh..Am supposed to check my email and I can't EVEN go to the website. Not even yahoo. Urghh..I'm soo frustrated! I still can't access to other sites. And entering this blogspot site takes forever. *sigh* And it's all because of Taiwan's earthquake which affect both Singnet & Starhub undersea internet cables.

*Updated* Yea, finally I could use the internet as per normal. It will be impossible to load the pictures here w/o getting the internet back to normal.